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2006 12 November :: 11.15 pm
:: Mood: depressed
I miss you but I don't..
Valo Is God x (10:48:48 PM): I know what that feels like.
Auto response from Shine Suicide (10:48:48 PM): "She's out of luck
and out of hope
and out of cigarettes..
Misunderstood with naked pictures on the internet."
And this time, the lyrics are saying something about someone I used to know.
I miss you but I don't.
Shine Suicide (10:49:27 PM): sucks, don't it?
Valo Is God x (10:49:46 PM): Ha yeah
Shine Suicide (10:50:05 PM): i wish this person didn't do what they did.. maybe i'd still have respect for her, but she blew it a long time ago and continued to prove that she wasn't worth my time
Valo Is God x (10:50:51 PM): ________?
Shine Suicide (10:51:01 PM): yepp
Valo Is God x (10:51:04 PM): I thought so
Shine Suicide (10:51:15 PM): she just posted three bulletins with some really fucked up pictures
Valo Is God x (10:51:35 PM): Of?
Shine Suicide (10:52:08 PM): two bulletins were the same picture.. it was a gif of like, bouncing tits or whatever, and the other one was a picture of her friend with a dick in his mouth
Valo Is God x (10:52:42 PM): =/
Valo Is God x (10:52:49 PM): I'm sorry
Shine Suicide (10:53:00 PM): i reported it
Valo Is God x (10:53:13 PM): I hate that feeling
Valo Is God x (10:53:20 PM): Where you don't really want that person in your life anymore but you do
Shine Suicide (10:53:43 PM): Yeah, you miss what you had with them, but who they are now disgusts you
Valo Is God x (10:53:52 PM): Yep
Valo Is God x (10:53:59 PM): Or you just cant get along with them
Valo Is God x (10:54:13 PM): But you feel empty because they were such a big part of you and now theyre gone
Shine Suicide (10:54:56 PM): Well, we get along when she decides to text me once every three years. I sent her a letter on her birthday, and she texted me a week later saying thanks, and we talked for a little bit, but that was it.
Shine Suicide (10:55:23 PM): And yeah, I haven't thought about her for a while, but she goes on these bulletin sprees where it's like "Oh yeah, she does still exist" then all those feelings come back
Valo Is God x (10:56:30 PM): Yeah I know what thats like too
Shine Suicide (10:57:15 PM): Just throw Hatred, Love, Loss, Longing, and Disgust in a blender, and that's how I feel about her.
Valo Is God x (10:58:19 PM): i hated ______ for a while
Valo Is God x (10:58:25 PM): but i cant hate her anymore
Shine Suicide (10:58:40 PM): How can any one hate ______, she's so awesome
Valo Is God x (10:59:15 PM): lol
Valo Is God x (10:59:25 PM): she didnt break your heart
Valo Is God x (10:59:33 PM): its easy to hate anyone who breaks your heart
Valo Is God x (10:59:38 PM): but then the pain grows less intense
Shine Suicide (11:00:02 PM): True, you did have a different relationship with her than I did
Valo Is God x (11:00:19 PM): i learned a lot from that relationship
Shine Suicide (11:00:38 PM): I'm hoping that's meant in a good way
Valo Is God x (11:00:43 PM): it is
Shine Suicide (11:00:48 PM): good. lol
Shine Suicide (11:01:00 PM): I can say that I've learned a lot about my relationship with ________
Shine Suicide (11:01:10 PM): about/with whatever
Shine Suicide (11:01:14 PM): or from
Shine Suicide (11:01:20 PM): I didnt' know how to make it sound right
Valo Is God x (11:01:33 PM): yeah
Shine Suicide (11:01:41 PM): And you know what I learned?
Valo Is God x (11:01:51 PM): hm?
Shine Suicide (11:01:55 PM): To not be like her.
Shine Suicide (11:02:23 PM): To not dick my friends over for a guy and a bunch of drugs and alchohol
Valo Is God x (11:02:49 PM): everyone thinks i did the first part
Valo Is God x (11:02:51 PM): i think
Shine Suicide (11:03:57 PM): You still talk to your friends.. ________ completely stopped talking to me as soon as she started dating ______.. when she found out he cheated on her, she came running to me to cry to. Then they worked it out, she started ignoring me again, and then went and fucked him
Valo Is God x (11:04:22 PM): ohhhh
Shine Suicide (11:04:38 PM): Yeah
And this whole thing just made me really depressed. I need some sleep. See you all later.
..you are to become a shinigami.. |
