You just have to be happy. If you are everything else will fall into place.

You just have to be happy. If you are everything else will fall into place.

NEWS FLASH

I need a break.

:: 2004 1 December :: 10.15 pm
:: Mood: pissed off

drinking drinking drinking.. it's all they ever do.

..but it's always been like that; i'm just not as niave as i used to be.

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:: 2004 29 November :: 12.38 am

Pictures of my baby Gabrielle.
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:: 2004 26 November :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: blank

So Jim is definitly forgiven for not coming early this morning. He came around 4:00. Left at 5:30 to pick his Mom up; then she dropped him off for a couple more hours. He helped me move my room around.. it looks very cute. <3

I tried to get him to stay over.. but by the time he called his Mom, she had already left.. but anyways, I'm going to his house tomorrow and we're going to the mall to go shopping and to see a movie.

Well, that's all.. I still have to finish sweeping my room.

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:: 2004 26 November :: 11.41 am
:: Mood: cranky

Jim was supposed to come over early this morning when he took his mom to work to help me move my room around..

He never came.

He will not hear the end of this. :-o

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:: 2004 25 November :: 11.49 pm
:: Mood: okay

Happy Thanksgiving.
Today was okay.. I woke up got a shower, my mom gave Gabrielle a bath for me. We went up my Aunt Loraines for Thanksgiving dinner at 4:00. at 6:30, Jim and his mom came to pick me up and we went to his sisters to see his dad ect.

Kim [Jims sister] got us a whole bunch of clothes for Gabrielle. Some of them are really cute. (: Clothes are always great.. she's getting so big. Already she's in 3-6 months. She ate cereal again tonight.. I think she really likes it. <3

Well, tomorrow I'm gonna bribe Jim to get his bottom over here to help me move around my room; then Saturday we're going to his house for the day.. and Sunday who know's.. I might go shopping with Jim. We really need to start Christmas shopping.

I don't know.

I love you Kelly! Don't be mad at me for something that's between my mom & yours. I'm not mad at you, just in case you thought I was. <333 you!!!

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:: 2004 24 November :: 11.50 pm
:: Mood: just.. here.

Last night Sam, Anna and I had a little mini sleep over in my room. we played truth & dare, told scary stories.. ect.

Jim came over for a few hours today. That made my day. (:

Gabrielle ate some cereal today.. her first time!!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving.. my family is eating around 4.. then Jim Gabrielle & I are going to Jims sisters house to visit/eat.

Jim got his paycheck today.. a shopping we will go. (:

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:: 2004 22 November :: 10.27 pm
:: Mood: apathetic

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:: 2004 22 November :: 8.07 am

I'm nothing but a never ending dissapointment.

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:: 2004 22 November :: 12.45 am

When I think of Jena I think _________
Jena is ___________
I met Jena ___________
The best thing about Jena is _____________
The worst thing about Jena ___________
I want to ____________ Jena

Don't ask questions. Fill this out. EVERYONE! No acceptions!

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:: 2004 20 November :: 12.36 am
:: Mood: loved

i had the best day ever yesterday
So right now I'm holding Gabrielle, downloading a menu for the Sand Bar that I have to type up for today.. for my uncle Keiths reception [he and Jen are getting married today]

want to see some of the menu?
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Earlier today I woke up, got ready to go with my Aunt Loraine and Gram to the mall. We left around 7:30.. my Gram had to get some more Christmas shopping done, and she's so hard to take anywhere because she takes forever to get out of the car, get in the store ect.. soo anyways, we were all in Kaufmanns, then I went to change Gabrielles diaper in the rest room. When I came back out, Jim was walking towards me. I was so suprised! He was like "I was looking for you." I was like "Awww." We walked around for a little bit, then went back into Kaufmanns, and went to look at the baby things. Jim and I bought Gabrielle the prettiest dress for Christmas. It was on sale for like $11.00- It's pink dress with little beige bows all over it, with a beige onesie underneath it. Soo cute. Anyways, when we were on our way out Jim ran to his car he was like "I got you something." I thought it was just like a pack of gum or something; I didn't really think much about it.. but he pulled out this big bunch of flowers.. [they were the ones that I said I liked when we stopped at Giant Eagle the other day..] and he bought them for me.. I like started tearing up, he's so cute. He always knows how to make me smile. <3

Ahhh.. I love him so much. :-P

Anyways, when we got home I went up my Aunt Loraines house for a little bit.. I watched CSI and Law & Order SVU with Sam. Then we came home.

Well.. that was my day. <33

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:: 2004 19 November :: 12.49 pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: snow patrol - run

I went totally quiz crazy..
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:: 2004 18 November :: 10.22 pm
:: Mood: ditzy

i had a great time today.

<3 i'm very happy.. for once.

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:: 2004 18 November :: 12.25 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: blink 182 - always

i got into another fight with my mom last night.. well i guess the question should be more like "when don't i get into a fight with her?" she's such a bitch sometimes. nothing's ever good enough. i'm so tired of it.

whatever, i don't even want to think about it anymore, i'll just get into a bad mood.

so anyways, since jim works midnight, i get to spend the days talking to him and such. he's coming to get me today around 2:00. i got my aunt loraine to watch my sisters for me for a few hours. i'm so happy! :-P the whooooooole day with my 2 babies. :) speaking of which, gabrielle just woke up- i have to go.

<3

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:: 2004 17 November :: 1.32 pm

You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anyway from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

<3 you.

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:: 2004 16 November :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: green day - boulevard of broken dreams

so yesterday i went to my babe's house. my sisters went to, 'cause my mom doesn't trust me anymore.. haha. anyways, we watched some movies, and just hung out.. my mom like flipped out when she found out jim came to pick us up; i thought i wouldn't be allowed to go over there again, but she didn't say anything today. anyways, we all got home around 9:00. i had a good time, it definitly lifted my spirts to be allowed to go over there.

earlier yesterday [at 9:45 am] i had an apointment with WIC. i got some checks for formula for gabrielle. they weighed her.. she weighs 13 pounds and 7 1/2 ounces! holy crap! she is 23 inches long.. she grew an inch since she was born. i can't believe how big she is getting.

jim and i's 2 year anniversary is on the 29th. <3

oh, i don't go back to school until december 6th.. and i weigh 145. [i lost 3 pounds in 2 days?? i got weighed at my doctors apt. on the 15th and i got weighed again yesterday] hmmm.. i don't look any thiner.. i actually look like a whale. haha.

yeah.. i'm feeling a lot better than i was yesterday. i was so worried about my mom not letting me see jim again. i have a lot of mood swings anymore. haha, can you say bipolar?

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:: 2004 15 November :: 10.43 pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: gwen stepthani - what are you waiting for

i'm not okay.. i promise.

quizes..
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:: 2004 15 November :: 9.39 pm
:: Mood: upset

You turn off the tv
And you scream at me
I can hardly wait
til you get off my case

No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I'm better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you're here
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
Home, this house is not a home

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:: 2004 15 November :: 4.19 pm
:: Mood: happy

soooo.. jim's here. :-D yes, i'm happy. yes, i'm excited. yes, my mom is letting me see him. no, i don't know why.

i'm going over his house for a few hours.. i'll update when i get back! be happy for me!

<3

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:: 2004 14 November :: 9.36 pm
:: Mood: lonely

*sigh*

lets xx hug (9:32:53 PM): i miss you
pouncer was here (9:33:52 PM): i miss you too baby

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:: 2004 14 November :: 3.23 pm
:: Mood: helpless

whatever, i feel so helpless. i hate being caught in the middle. i can't do anything without hurting one or the other. i wish things would just be how they used to be.

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:: 2004 11 November :: 10.52 pm
:: Mood: sad

And now for my ~~bad~~ day.

I woke up around 8:00.. started my report for child 2, around 10:00 i quit; i'm half done with it. Jim stopped by to give me a paper for my mom, he only stayed for a moment.. he had to go home. Around noon Alisha came over from Christan Charities and gave me some diapers and formula.. after she left I finished getting ready to go to my doctors apointment and to Wal*Mart.

Kelly went with my mom, Sam, Gab and I. We got to the doctors around 1:10.. my apointment was for 1:15. I'm doing good.. healing fine. He said I have a 'tilted uterius'. which isn't bad, it's just that my uterius is tilted up a little instead of laying flatter like most women.. I'm now on birth control..

After that, we went to Wal*Mart. Kelly and I got some really cute clothes and we got out hair cut.. we both look so cute if I do say so myself. huh kelly?! (:

..i have to pee

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:: 2004 10 November :: 11.50 pm
:: Mood: depressed

Ask me 6 questions.
Any 6 - no matter how personal, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly.

In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal // OR // you have to answer the questions that are asked to you.

Ask away, even if you don't have a journal.. leave an anonymous note.

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:: 2004 10 November :: 1.14 am
:: Mood: crying

i hate when my mom comes in my room like she did a little bit ago and starts telling me that everythings my fault, and that she's in so much debt because i made the mistake of getting pregnant. my "asshole boyfriend" isn't helping with anything.. and that she lost everything [meaning george] because of me the baby and my "asshole boyfriend". and how my dad would be so dissapointed in me, and her because i got pregnant. i don't understand anymore, i just don't understand anything.. i cut my arm; and you know what? i don't even give a fuck anymore.. i don't fuckin' care who knows, or what the fuck anyone says. fuck them, fuck everything.

i'm leaving, i'm not going to ruin everyones life just because i made one mistake.

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