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2005 15 June :: 10.42am
:: Mood: lonely
I'm at Kelly's house again.. yesterday I bought myself a digital camera.. $200 for a sony 4 meg digi cam, 50 for the memory card, 10 for the rechargable batteries, and 2 for the cheap case I got for it. Now I feel better, since I've got it.. now all I need is a computer. But I'm working on that.
My mom is moving to phili.. along with George and my sisters.. I don't really know what else to say about that.. too much to be said I guess.
Guys=shit. That's really all I can say. Jim and I are still just friends.. and I'm not with anyone right now, I'm not looking either. I'm okay with the way things are. I guess.
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2005 12 June :: 12.23pm
WHAT A GAME!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:10 P.M.]: did u watch the mets game last night??
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:11 P.M.]: no lol did they win?
BlindedByTears2x [12:11 P.M.]: I WAS THEREEEE OMGGGGGGGG HERES THE PLAY BY PLAY:
BlindedByTears2x [12:11 P.M.]: rain delay.. 84 minutes OMGGGG
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: we finally start at 830.. it was supposed to start at 7 ughhh
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: sooo w/e we play.. its tied in theeee... thirdd i thinkk...
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: tied at onee
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: runner on first for LA, steals..
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: 2 outs
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: SLOW ground ball to first...
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: mienkewicz going for the 3rd out.. WTF IT WENT THRU HIS LEGS
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: omgg we're all flippinn out cuz the runner's safe.. next batter hits a single, run scores.. this is the 7th inning..
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: bottom of the ninthh we're still down a run
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: we're all goinn crazyyy
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: marlon anderson at the plate
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: INSIDE THE PARK HOME RUNNNNN!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: omfgggg it was crazyyyy
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:14 P.M.]: yes!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: game is tied at 2.. tenthh inning...
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: top of the tenthh, a run scores.. we're all likee ahhhh fuck
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: mets are up.. ohhhh shittt reyes just madee it to first
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: ohhhh shitt wtf is his nameee shitttttt
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: oook w/e secondd guy in the order.. ohhh shitt hes on base!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: no outs runners on first and secondd..
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: beltran's at the plate!
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: struck him out
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: we're like shit.. oook w/e we got 2 more outs...
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: piazza at the platee...
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: strike out on the same exact pitch he gave beltran
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: were likeee wtfffff
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: :-[
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: 2 outs, runners on 1st & secondd, cliff floyd at the plate..
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: i remind everyonee sitting around me that he struck out 3 times already in the game & we all moan
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: first pitch, fouled off...
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: second pitch.. ball one...
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: third pitchh.. ball 2
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: fourthh, foul
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: 5thh foul
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: 6th... OMGGG A FLY BALL TO RIGHT FIELD!!! ITS CLOSE TO THE POLE IS IT FAIR OR FOUL!?!?!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: :-D
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: OMFG ITS FOUL WHAT THE FUCK!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: so the mets lost?
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: :'(
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: 7th pitch.. before the pitch.. reyes goes right behind the pitcher who doesnt even see him, and steals thirdd b/c the 3rd base was playingg likee short stop
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: NOOOOO WAIT IM NOT DONE
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:20 P.M.]: im pissin in my paints.... wat else happened!
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: it was kindaa funny.. reyes kindaa just walked in theree....
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: oook so 7th pitch.. ball 3
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: full count, 1st & 3rd, 2 outs, this is for the wholeee ball game...
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: heres the wind up... and the pitch
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: FOUL
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: god dammit the longest at bat i have ever sat through
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: NINTHHH PITCHHHHH...
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: we're getting veryy impatient heree...
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: im being soo pessimistic im likee woww he fouled it soo many times hes deff gunna miss it
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: and he misses it...
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: strike three..
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: HE HITS IT OUTTA THE PARK FOR A WALK OFF HOMERUN!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: OHHH SHITT WE WIN THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: YES!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: THIS IS Y I LUV THE METS!
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: OMGGG WE WERE SCREAMING SOOO LOUD!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
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2005 7 June :: 11.45pm
:: Mood: depressed
So I can't believe that I missed my doctors apointment today.. ahhh my God. I'm so pissed at myself!
I've just been in such a down mood lately, I don't know. Everything just sucks all the time. It's like a non-stop suck fest. I'm so tired all the time, I have no energy, and I'm fed up with everyones shit.
Lately, I've been noticing that everyones trying to be nice to everyone.. why? What do friends do for you? Oh wait, nothing.
That's all I have to say tonight about anything. I'm in such a bad mood.
Disreguard this entry.
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2005 7 June :: 8.52pm
happyy birthday to me! =)
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2005 7 June :: 7.17pm
well I haven't updated in forever.. so I'm just gonna outline what happened.
I'm talking to my mom again.. long story, no time to tell.
Kelly moved, my aunt clara and uncle gene are moving in.
I'm still living with my aunt loraine and uncle don..
I got the job at Rite Aid. I really like it.
Right now Jim, Kelly and I are going to see Steph at the hospital.. she had her baby!!
call me.. 986 1260 (my cell)
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2005 6 June :: 11.13am
what to do what to do...
its a glorious dayy.. for now..
things have been looking up slightlyy.. a little bit..
homework from last week.. gotta do it..
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2005 1 June :: 8.00pm
ahhhhh shit sucks
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2005 31 May :: 8.40pm
1) Aubrey
2) Morgan
3) Jeff
4) Wade
5) Raul
6) Jennifer
7) Mikey
8) Matthew (J)
9) Sarah
10) Katie
11) Sam
12) Jon
13) Jordan
14) Megan
15) Randy
16) Luis
17) Jenelle
18) Ian
19) Brenna
20) Danelle
- Who is #8 going out with? Krista
- Is #9 a boy or a girl? girl
- Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? They might
- How about #18 and #4? No, their both guys
- What grade is #17 in? 9th
- When was the last time you talked to #12? Today
- What is #6's favorite band? Greenday
- Does #1 have any siblings? yes
- Would you ever date #3? hell no
- Would you ever date #7? ^^^^
- Is #16 single? yes
- What's #15's last name? Swank
- What's #5's middle name? dunno
- What's #10's fantasy? To be dating #12
- Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? no
- What school does #20 go to? Terra Cotta
- Tell me a random fact about #11? We dated
And #1:Is going out with #3
And #3:Is going out with #1
- Have you ever had a crush on #16? ewww no
- Where does #9 live? down the street
- What's #4's favorite color? purple
- Would you makeout with #14? Prob
- Are #5 & #6 best friends? no
- Does #7 like #20? no
- Does #8 like #19? no
- How did you meet #15? baseball
- Does #10 have any pets?yes
- Is #12 older than you? no
- Give #13 a hug.no
- Is #17 the sexiest person alive? pretty close to it.
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2005 27 May :: 10.26am
:: Mood: excited
TODAYS the LAST day OF school!!! YES.
I have a job interview at Rite Aid today at 2:00.. I'm really nervous!
Wish me luck!
You Are A Cypress Tree |
You are strong, adaptable, and striving to be content.
You're good at taking what life has to give - even if you don't like it.
A passionate lover who can't be satisfied, you are quick tempered at times.
You hate loneliness, want love and affection, and need to be needed.
A bit of a live wire, you love to gain knowledge any cost... and you can be careless at times. |
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2005 24 May :: 6.18pm
:: Music: as long as you're mine - wickedd<33
aww today i missedd stephh so muchhh<3 she aint there to make fun of me anymoreee ='[ saw her prom dress.. gorgeous
im worried bout soo much shyt latelyy.. i cried so much on sunday.. not good.. i gotta start taking care of myself.. the two of them worry me crazyy
12 days til my birthday =]
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2005 23 May :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: Want to jam
:: Music: Roadhouse
Hey all, its been a while, so I thought I would update. Not too much has gone on, Im in the market ( if you know what I mean) and I dont like anyone now. So, Im going to the HS concert tomorrow, I quit my band (Runaway Train) Im in a new band, and yet another band wants me in. So if anyones interested, I play bass and Rythym/Lead Guitar, I play Classic Rock/ Blues, and I just do it for the Old Time Rock and Roll! So.....
Nit much has gone on in life now, but Im thinking about making this friends only, because of some comments, and some people. But hey, its a free world, and Im not in the mood to start something with anyone. So, 4 weeks till HS, cant wait, lots of new oppertunities.
Megan, we need to actually talk for more that 5 min at a time, lol.
Aubrey, I miss you soooo much, its not funny, good thing I get to see you tomorrow! Bee Eff Eff Eel!!!
So, yah, Im gonna go now cause Im bored, and I have nothing to do, hmmmmm........
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2005 22 May :: 12.49pm
i need to get away from it all.. its killing me..
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2005 19 May :: 8.25pm
:: Mood: depressed
the drops of rain they fall all over
this awkward silence makes me crazy
the glow inside burns light upon her
i'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end) tidal waves
they rip right through me, tears from
eyes worn cold and sad. pick me up
now, i need you so bad.
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2005 19 May :: 5.22pm
seniors 'o5<3 im goinggg to missss themmmm sooooo muchhhhh ='[
their last day todayyy.. yuck.. good luck girlsssss
i <3 youuuuuuu
wont be the same w/out yousss ='[
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2005 16 May :: 11.31am
:: Mood: melancholy
So.. I think that I'm finially ready to talk about it.. even though it's been almost a week.
Wed. night my mom called me at 11:30 and blamed me for all her problems and told me she was going to kill herself. I heard her taking the pills while she was on the phone with me.. and she kept saying how I have a new mom now and how that I don't need her anymore. Well during all this my Uncle Don and cousin Bridget were standing by me. I just sat there the whole time not saying anything to her. I just sat there and listened. Then she said "Bye Jena, make sure you tell Gabrielle that her Grandma was an asshole." and then she hung up. I called 911 and they sent the police over. The police officer called me and told me that she was fine.. "a little drunk, but there's nothing that we can do about that." I told him that I heard her take the pills, but they still didn't do anything. Yeah, thanks a lot assholes. ya know? So I tried to call George.. no answer. Yeah, WHERE WAS HE WHEN THIS HAPPENED?? So I tried to call Dustin, then I tried to call the house, then Matt.. finially I got ahold of Matt and he didn't help any because he was at the bar working and he didn't know where anyone was. Well then after I tried to call Dustin and George again.. my mom kept calling me. Bridget answered the phone and kept telling her that I didn't want to talk to her. She kept calling and calling. 911 called me back, they said that if there were anymore problems to call them back. It was about 12:45 or so when I called Dustin and he answered- he said that he was home and that mom was okay and I felt like he blamed me for doing this to her.. but he didn't come directly out and say it. He told me that he thinks she's okay and that if anything happens he'd call me. Well he called me. About a half hour later. "the Ambulance is on it's way. But I need you to go to the hospital they need to talk to her since she called you." So Bridget called Leah then her and her friend Mike came to pick us up. He took all of us to the hospital, we waited for about an hour before they called me back for her information. Then the nurse called Bridget, Leah and I into the back "The doctor will be in to talk to you in just a minute." The doctor walks in, I remember this part so clearly.. The doctor walks in, sits down and just says "She took a bottle of Flexeral [muscle relaxers] She's in critical condition and her chances aren't looking good.. she's on a ventalator right now.. if you want to go see her you better go now because she could go at anytime." He asked if we had any questions I shook my head then he left. I told them I didn't want to see her. I remember just sitting there, I don't remember how long we were in that little room but I know that I won't ever forget.. I just sat there and didn't do anything. I didn't cry until later that night on the car ride home. I broke down. My mom tried to kill herself because of me. That kept running through my head that my mom is almost dead because of everything that I did. How could she put that kind of responsibility on her child? I don't know, but she did.
I didn't cry after that the whole night, until the next day in school. I went home and just watched tv. By that time everyone was up trying to talk to me.. but I couldn't talk to anyone. I just sat there. I was kinda stunned. I remember trying to sleep but just laying there, not doing anything. It was 3:30 when the phone rang. It was my Aunt Diana, saying that my mom was going to be okay. I went to sleep at 5:00, got up at 5:45 got ready, and went to school Thursday. It was 2nd period when I went down to see the guidance counsler, and told her everything. She made my Aunt Loraine come pick me up and go see a counsler. I'm going once a week to see her now.. Karen is her name. She's nice.
Life now? I still don't talk to my mom, I don't ever want to talk to her again. I just feel bad for my two little sisters because they have to deal with all the shit that I grew up with all my life. I don't want that but what am I going to do? I have a daughters life to consider now. I just hope they know that I love and miss them.. because I do. A lot.
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