And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2005 17 April :: 1.03pm
:: Mood: confused

So Jim and I are just friends now.

He's trying everything to get me to come back though.

He makes me feel guilty.

But I'm not happy anymore. I haven't been for a long time.

We'll see how things go.

:: 2005 16 April :: 9.32pm

noo way it could get crazier than today! kait<3 bffl sickk day girl =]

:: 2005 13 April :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: bored

Bridg picked me up at school today, then we stopped at McDonalds to get something to eat.

I went over Jims house about 6:00, then we drove out to McDonalds again to see all the teachers work.. we drove around for like an hour and a half to different places, we stopped and saw Ben he was walking somewhere.. then we went back to his house and chilled, then Gab him and I came back out here and then he went home.

BYE

3 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 12 April :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: stressed

Yesterday Aunt Loraine, Donnie, Gabrielle, Gram and I went to get the rest of my things at Darlenes house [I no longer call her Mom.] We had stopped out at the Sand Bar to see if they were there, they weren't so we went to Jays Sports Bar because Matt told us they were there. So we went there and Anna was in the front room playing a game all by her self.. Darlene George and Samamtha were on the deck. They were yelling at her because she stole something. They were both drunk off their asses, sitting there telling Samantha in front of everyone. It had to have been embarassing for her. So I asked Darlene if when I stopped at their house if I could take the crib, or if she wanted it. She was like "No, it's mine- you can't have it." I said fine. Then my Aunt Loraine tried to talk to her and Darlene started yelling at her to get out of her face, to leave her alone and all this other stuff. So she went to try to talk to George about getting the old house tore down and he told her to "shut up and leave." So we left, I gave Anna a hug, and Samantha a kiss.

We went to the house and they had bolted the door shut so I couldn't get in with my key. I called Dustin and he said that he'd just come get me today and I could get my things. On our way back through Southpointe, I saw Samantha standing outside the bar so we stopped so I could see what was wrong. She was crying and saying that she hated Darlene and that she wanted to go live with her dad. I told her that if she ever needed anything or if she wanted me to go pick her up that all she needed to do is to call me.

An hour or so later Sam called and told me that Darlene hit her. So I told her to go up and just lock herself up in the bathroom.

I no longer talk to her, or want anything to do with her. If she's going to be like that- I'll do the same right back to her and throw it in her face. She can have Gabrielles crib. I'd much rather get another one than to use ANYTHING that she's bought Gabrielle.

Today was my Uncle Dons birthday so we had a little cake and everything for her.. it was nice Greg, Tiff, Hailey, and Jim came out.

<3

yadiffy04

:: 2005 9 April :: 1.52pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Nothing Else Matters- Metallica

Well, as you can see in my mood, Im not too happy.... Raul is being a bitch right now. Ive been listening to that song up there^^^ for like 3days straight, nothing else so I can learn the guitar part to please the band. I swear, right now my life sux.... Raul is like, were going to my grandmas today so we cant practice.. but I was talking to his dad, and his dad said we could practice all night. I feel like Im pulling too much shit for them, hoping something will happen, but nother ever does. No, hey Stephen come over, lets work on a song, hey, lets all go hang at Pizza Factory. Its always Morgan come with us, we dont want HIM to come. Or, Morgan, come over to play with us, but dont bring HIM and Im like right there. It fucking pisses me off soo much you dont even know....

l8...

4 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 9 April :: 12.43pm

kait slept over last night.. woww a lil too crazy.. nancy got scaredd shes never seen that side of me before lol.. hysterical night kait<3

:: 2005 9 April :: 11.28am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: three doors down - loser

Everything's just pissing me off anymore.

So my mother stopped by my Aunt Loraines house Friday to see Gabrielle and my Gram I guess. She told my Gram that she was definitely not moving back to where we were.
My Mom and George went down to Flordia for last weekend- they're looking for a house. Good, let them leave I'm probably better off without them anyways.. I'll miss my sisters Sam and Anna. But what am I going to do? I don't know.. it just pisses me off that because I moved out- my Mom won't talk to anyone on our side of the family. Yeah, GROW UP! Live in REALITY- not your own little world! But whatever- once again what can I do about it?
I just feel bad for my sisters because they still have to deal with her and all her shit she puts everyone through.

I feel so dumb because I don't have anything anymore. It's weird. We were in Child Development Friday and Mrs. Taylor was like "all of you can bring in stuffed bears" I was like "well, I don't have one" and Sarah was like "Who doesn't have one??" Uhhh-- I don't! Everything in my house had to be replaced. Lol, it made me feel bad.. I'm more worried about getting Gabrielle everything that she needs more than I'm worried about myself. So whatever, I'd rather her have everything than myself.

But enough about depressing things.. let's go on about Friday night.
Amy & Beck came to pick me up and we rode around for a little while then we went to the talent show and worked the consession stands.. after that we went back to Amy's house, then drove down to Jims house and he drove us to Wal*Mart, then his Mom called and started screaming at him because she wanted the car.. uhhh- so we went back and he dropped us off then we all went back to Amys house and watched American Pie 2 then fell asleep.. this morning Becky went home then I came back here to Amys Grams house.. I'm going home sometime tonight, going to Janies birthday party, then tomorrow I'm heading back down Cokeburg with Jim.

Gabrielle is with my Aunt Loraine.

DEFINITELY FUN WITH THE GIRLS LAST NIGHT!! HAHA
No eggs Beck! -He was sleeping?!?! YEAHHHHHHH right. Who was SAM?? ;)

Good times- no drugs! ;)

5 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 6 April :: 10.33am
:: Mood: content

I went to Jims house last night. He asked me why I was so happy.

:)

:: 2005 2 April :: 1.35pm
:: Mood: bored

Report cards were given out on Friday. Yeahhhhh.. anyways.

Yesterday Gabrielle turned 6 months!! We had a little cake for her, we all bought her a little toy. She's to cute.

Today Bridg, Leah and I are hanging out.. Tomorrow I'm going to Jims I guess.

I'll update later. I'm going to get a shower.

1 freebird | Fly high...

:: 2005 30 March :: 10.18am
:: Mood: bored

Back in Bentworth today.

My mom called last night and told me that she was going to call the cops on me if I didn't come home. I told her to call them because I wasn't coming home. Anyways my Aunt Di and Aunt Loraine talked to her or whatever.. but my mom was all mad still.

So much Drama.. tonight Aunt Loraine and I are going to Wal*Mart I think so I can get some things, then hopefully I can run to my moms house to pick up all of Gabs and Is things.

I'll update later.

:: 2005 29 March :: 3.43pm

I'm coming back to Bentworth as of tomorrow or the next day.. (depending on when my Aunt can go in and sign papers)

I'm no longer speaking to my Mom.. a lot of things have happened over break.

Gabrielle and I staying with my Aunt Loraine for now.. I kinda hate staying out here only because I have to look at the house all the time. I walked down there today to look around. I just started crying. Just to lose everything. It's hard.

Anyways, no longer call my cell phone. My mom was paying for it. So I gave it back to her. new number: 258*6461

5 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 28 March :: 4.05pm

goinn to chrissy's on wed-thurs.. tomorrow i think kristin's comingg.. friday im probably gunna be with ali so the rest of my week is pretty much bookedd.. if u wanna do somethinn gimme a call.. today im just chilling cuz i didnt get enough sleep last night.. but yeaa saturday nd sunday free.. i think.. who knows.. call to plan somethingg.. later

:: 2005 26 March :: 7.41pm

lmfao kristin struck out again in a deli.. shes havinn really bad luck this week

i couldnt stop crackin up

she said her and deirdre are goinn to see erin to try to get something.. i think its madd funny tho lol..

i aint with em cuz i feel like im gunna hurl lol if i drink somethin i'll puke it up lol.. i feel kindaa bad im not out since kristin's here from sheepshead =[ i wanna go hang out with them.. but kristin's gunna be in a bad mood if she doesnt get a drink lmaoo =] ooh well she's coming in again on monday.. if i aint better by then i'll kill myself.. omgg im looking forward to tomorrow nd next week so much we're gunna PARTAYY lol.. kristin's gunna call me when she gets home.. hopefully i wont be too asleep to feel it vibrating lol.. that happens sometimes.. cuz its under my pillow and.. aaah forget it do you really care? im out.. later