And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2005 8 January :: 6.02pm
:: Mood: bouncy

ahhhhhhhhh.. I had THE BEST time staying over Jims house last night.. wow, I can definitly say that I am one of the happiest girls in the world.

Let's see.. Friday when I got there we just watched some tv ect.. then we went up in his room and talked. I started crying because I said I was a bad mom, and we talked about that for like a long time.. and he made me feel 110% better.. we ordered pizza, CHICKEN RANCH! Then watched some movies.. I went to bed at like 12:30, I made Jim come up and give me a full body massage, then I wouldn't let him go back downstairs until I fell asleep.

We woke up around 12:45 when my mom called me to ask me when I was coming home. Sooo.. I told her around 4:30. We got up ate some left over pizza, watched some movies.. then went back up in his room. We played a game I made up called "Licking game" hahaha, sooo fun. Definitly. <3

Now I'm home.. Gab is up my aunt Loraines, Kelly and I are eating some raviolies and going to watch Spider Man 2 on DVD.

If anyone wants any Girl Scout cookies.. my sister is selling them, so just tell me!!

4 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 7 January :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: mellow

Soooo.. lets recap what happened this week.

I made myself a better person by letting go what happened [or what didn't happen] what Jim and Jessica. I appoligized to her, and told her that I went phyco because I felt threated.. I was 7 months pregnant. So I don't care about that anymore. It's over and done with.

It's really been a boring week other than that.

I'm going to Jims house tonight.. &STAYING OVER. :-P Soooo.. I'll write when I get home. I'm debating whether or not to take Gab.. I want to, but I kinda wanna spend some time alone with Jim. *sigh*

:: 2005 6 January :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: *sigh*

I miss the days when I was in love.

I miss crushes.

I just miss acting my age.

I wish I was happy.

:: 2005 6 January :: 7.59pm

check my profile.. sign the guestbook.. dont expect updates anytime soon.. im just too busy..

Fly high...

:: 2005 5 January :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: tired

just me.. I was in the rain, so I look like poo.

Gabrielle.. 3 months and 4 days. <3

:: 2005 4 January :: 6.22pm

guys guess what!!! i was on tv today!!!!!!

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:: 2005 4 January :: 6.12pm

I'm on myspace.com and looking at all the "parent groups" "mommies groups" ect.

I was looking at this one topic "How old are you when you had your first" and I just started crying when I was reading it.. why? I'm not sure; maybe because I could never have imagined how many people my age have gotten pregnant. I guess I'm a lot more scared that I lead on to be. It is scary.. I think about it all the time. Will I be a good mom? What if something happens and I don't know how to deel with it? How am I going to pay for everything? And just all these other things. It's really upseting me anymore. I just don't want to be a bad mom.

I'm glad I've gotten that off my chest, I feel a little better now. It just feels good to realize I've got people out there like me.

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:: 2005 4 January :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: blah

So today I realized that I think someone in school is HOTT. Oh baby oh baby, yes.. go ahead and ask me who!

Anyways,
Boring day, I yelled at some people, I laughed, I screamed, I whispered, and I had a good day. *smiles*

Well, Jim was supposed to come get me at school, but he ended up not. So we got into a fight.

That is all.

:: 2005 3 January :: 10.32am

The beautiful is ugly, and the ugly is beautiful.
-SHAKESPEARE; MACBETH

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:: 2005 2 January :: 8.16pm

I wish I could fly.

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:: 2005 2 January :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: cranky

Well lets see, how that I've cleared up me not being a "slut" and no one left a comment asking me anything else.. I expect not to be called that again.

Now I was supposed to go Jims house today.. but noo my mom all the sudden coundn't take my sisters with them.. so I had to stay home and watch them.. okay; It's okay if I have plans.. don't worry about me.. I don't mind. WTF? HI, I'M A FUCKIN' PERSON TO. I HAVE FEELINGS, I WOULD LIKE TO GET OUT OF THIS PRISION.

I'M COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS UNTIL MY 18TH BIRTHDAY.. but yet my 17th birthday is in 25 days. *sighs* I fuckin' can not wait until I leave. I just can't wait.

Well anyways, I was up my Aunt Loraines for dinner.. we ate blah blah blah.. then my cousin Doug just kept yelling and yelling at Anna for doing something that he "thought" she was doing.. I got really pissed off and we all left. Then my Aunt Loraine got mad at me and asked me to please not leave.. but I left anyways, Anna's not going to get yelled at all the time for things she's not doing wrong. ANYWAYS..

I gave my Aunt Loraine $40 dollars for almost brand new crib&changing table.. I told her it was my moms money; [she didn't want me to pay for it so I could buy a car seat and a mattress] but I just told her it was my moms money.. but I don't think she believed me. Mmmmm.. I hope she doesn't ask my mom. And really, I just really hate asking my mom to buy me anything.. she brings it up in our fights all the time, and makes me feel bad about everything. Hey if she would let me move out.. I would. But she's just controlling me in everything I do, so I can't do anything anymore. But that's enough about that.. because I'm getting irate.

Ahhh. I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

3 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 1 January :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: lagwagon - tomorrow is heartbreak

My new years resolution is too lose a few pounds, eat better and exercise.

Now for my real entry. SLUT?

Well, I got a call last night.. I guess that's what I get for leaving my number online for people to see.. but anyways, they kept saying how I was a slut and everything.. well now lets clear a few things up.

1. Yes, I do have a 3 month old daughter.. [[SHES 3 MONTHS OLD TODAY!!]] her name is Gabrielle.
2. No I haven't had sex with multipul people.
3. Yes, I've had sex with one person, and only one person. And yes that's Jim, and YES Gabrielle is his daughter.
4. No matter what you've heard about me, it probably isn't true. I went through a "slutty stage" where I pretended like I was a slut; but in reality I just wanted attention. [[yes;; the attention whore I am.]]
5. No, I've never cheated on Jim.. and I won't ever cheat on him. Yes I've thought other guys were "cute" or "hott" or however you want to say it.. but I haven't ever actually acted on them.

Well, if anyone has anymore questions just leave a comment, and I'll be sure you answer.

I just wanted to start a new year fresh. :)

8 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2005 1 January :: 2.11pm
:: Mood: not bad
:: Music: a song with a real long title by brand new

shes so cutee
julia [2:05 P.M.]: omgg guess wat
julia [2:06 P.M.]: ahhhhhhhhhhh
kris[2:06 P.M.]: what?
kris [2:06 P.M.]: ???
julia [2:06 P.M.]: tino is a yankeee!!
julia [2:06 P.M.]: lol i can die happy

WELCOME BACK TINO!!!!

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