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2004 24 August :: 6.31pm
dudes, check out my mouse!!! aint it so cool!? i thought so.. if you dont, shove it! i think hes cool!
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2004 24 August :: 6.02pm
ok, i havent left an entry that people who arent friends can read in like 2 days so i'll be nice and let you read something...
well, you read something! sorry, but im thoughtless right now.. for once.. im busy right now experimenting with my journal so go away!
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2004 24 August :: 3.43pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: matchbox romance - promise
..i try.
but i don't think just trying is good enough anymore.
..i really don't think that i should be here anymore.
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2004 23 August :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: thinking hard.. a little stressed
:: Music: coheed & cambria - a favor house in atlantica
stupid piece of shit.. i accidently deleted my entry from the 16th. stupid asshole.
i spent the last almost week with jim. i had a great time. i finially met his dad. he's great. we stayed at his house 2 nights.
i got home today around 8:00. i walked in the house, and the kitchen, bar room, and dining room was clean when i left on saturday morning- because sam and i cleaned it. i come home to a fuckin' mess. god i was in such a great mood until i saw that. my mom & george left sunday morning to go on a little vacation with the girls and their friends craig & sherry;; they have 2 boys about sam&anns age. dustin was here the whole time; and i guess didn't lift a god damn finger to do shit around here. our bathroom toilet overflowed 2 weekends ago while i was staying over jims and my mom had went somewhere.. and dustin didn't do anything about it and just left it there. so now we can't use that bathroom. maybe i bitch to much.. but it looks like i do everything around here except pay the god damn bills. i practicly take care of my 23 year old brother. what the hell is that? he should be out of the house. i spent my whole summer watching my 2 little sisters while my mom and george were at the bar. they "have to be there" yeah fine.. i watched them. but i'm tired of it now. i'm being taken advantage of. i might be pregnant but that doesn't mean shit.
it's just kinda like i'd much rather move out and have to pay my own doctors bills than to stay here, have my mom pay but be a prisioner in my own house. i mean i have 3 places i could go to stay right now. and all of them very serious about me living with them. but i mean; if i left- my mom and george would be screwed.. because their live-in-babysitter wouldn't be here anymore. then what would they do? omg- my mom would actually have to.. spend time with my sisters. pssh. i don't even think she can handle them nagging her all the time anymore. she'd go crazy.
maybe it'd be easier on my mom if i just moved out anyway. nothings been the same ever since she found out i was pregnant anyway. i'm just a big burden she has to deal with. i can move out if i want to- i'm an emancipated adult now that i'm having a baby even though i'm under the age of 18.
i just keep thinking about what i said in the last paragraph over and over.. and i'm not sure what to do. i just need help.
i need a hug and for someone to say it'll be alright. :(
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2004 23 August :: 5.49pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: bring it on home-Led Zepplin
Hey,
Well, my first day of school was today, and it was really cool, but really lonely at the same time, the blonde bunny is up at the HS, so is Tami and Matt and Jakie and.....well, everyone. the school like doubled in size in terms of ppls, all the food in the whole school was gone by the begenning of 2nd lunch, so me and morg only got chips and a drink. They also took out all the soda, and dont serve meal deals anymore, so that sucks. Heres my schedual.
1st per. Mrs. Gilmore Algebra B
2nd per. Mrs. Castello Science 8
3rd per. Mr. Haskins PE 8
4th per. Mr. Campbell Soc. Stud. 8
5th per. Mrs. Clarkson Lang. Art. 8
6th per. Mr. Boyer Adv. Band
0 per. Mr. Boyer Jazz Band
So, thats my schedual, heres some more pics.
Read more..
Well, Ill keep you updated, if anything goes on, Ill tell you.
l8r
Stevo
Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
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2004 22 August :: 8.44pm
:: Music: predictable - gc
ok, i know i said i didnt like GC's new song but i LOVE it now.. its my favorite song for the time-being... its just so.. i dunno.. THEM.. wheeee!
this is definitely something for me:
Everywhere I go and everyone I meet, every time I try to fall in love, they all wanna know why I'm so broken, why am I so cold, why I'm so hard inside, why am I scared what am I afraid of I don’t even know, its like I never had you! I’ve been waiting ive been searching ive been hoping ive been dreaming you’ll come back and I know the ending to this story, you’re never coming back! Never!!
i could say that all day every day..
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2004 22 August :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: rebel-Apopdigma Berzerk
Hey all,
Well, so far, everything is going great, Aubrey is getting a hair cut today, and I went to Raging Waters yesterday, I went on drop out 6 times, and got really sunburned. SO...I get to go to school tomorrow, and I get to see my new schedual, I hope I get Mr. Lagualas(sp?) that would be soo cool, as it turns out, my neighbor, Jennifer has Algebra 1 with me, so at least someone I know will be in my class. I have Adv. band, wich, should be fun........NOT no offence, but they suck!! umm.... n/m else to say, my mom is healing really well, and my dad is being an arse hole, but other than that, its been pretty cool. Well, heres a few pics of my pad.
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Heres a little thing I wrote
TIME
Life moves to fast, if you stop to smell the roses, you miss the brid, but if all you do is pay attention to the bird, you miss the bee. the world is having war for peace, and hating out of love, people are killing for life, and building for destruction. To man, time is a way of life, we take time for granted, for every passing moment without even a breath. eventhough within that minuite, many people dont know it is their last. While for others, it is their first. this is a world where time is short, and people dont even take the time to enjoy it.
Thats all for now, more to come.
Stevo
Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
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2004 21 August :: 12.06pm
ok, an exception
Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
thanks steve!
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2004 21 August :: 11.31am
alright, i have been posting wayyyy too many entries lately.. its getting to like 6 a day.. so whatever i wanna post, im gunna type into an email and at the end of the day, i'll copy and paste it into here.. this is to save some people the aggravation of not being able to keep up, and to save me the aggravation of not being able to tell where the new comments are.. not old ones.. i cant keep up with it.. this morning's entry may be the only one for today, though, cuz im probably going to point pleasant, though its undetermined.. i dont know why my parents cant tell me if we're going or not.. so its bad weather, we have a hell of a time anyway! i wanna go!
roar..
if i dont update tonight, i've left until sunday, possibly monday. kalie, i may find a way to get to you to ask you to post something if its that important.. ashley!!! CALL ME
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2004 20 August :: 8.38pm
ok i changed the font color to gray to match the icon.. tell me what you like better.. this or the blue.. leave a comment
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2004 20 August :: 8.16pm
yea im bored, again, as always..
im really really really really really tired.. shawn woke me up this morning.. bitch.. he sends me a text message like 'srry i got ur message at like 330 and i didnt wanna wake you up' so i texted him back nd said 'you just woke me up now!!!!!!" and he didnt say anything back, probably too afraid of me cuz im real bitchy when people wake me up..
i got scared last night.. i thought my iPod was broked.. yes, broked.. not broken.. one of my many words.. like coppers! instead of cops! lol im such a loser.. i fixed the iPod.. but it still scurred me.. oh yes, scurred is another one of my words.. instead of scared..
went to the beach with kaitlyn today.. we're so stupid, we act like we're two.. we threw sand at each other half the time lol =]
yea, im gunna update cuz im trying to fix the layout for my journal on greatest journal.. later..
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2004 19 August :: 8.53pm
omg meg's friend jack is soo sweet he's like what i want in a guy.. he makes me laugh!!!
pat mccarthy broke his ENTIRE leg! omg i feel so bad!! mike said he's in a cast from hip to toe.. ouchhh.. he did it playinn football in breezy.. i feel bad lol
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:48 PM]: omg pat mccarthy broke his hole leggg yesterday
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:48 PM]: lool
BlindedByTears2x [8:49 PM]: omg.. how?
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:49 PM]: playing football in breezy
BlindedByTears2x [8:49 PM]: ouchh
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:50 PM]: his cast is from his hipp too his tooe
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:50 PM]: yea
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:50 PM]: and that landin
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:51 PM]: lol
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:51 PM]: wrong m i
BlindedByTears2x [8:51 PM]: oooh.. thats gotta hurt.. how long in the cast?
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:52 PM]: i thik 2 weeks then he get a water proof one and the watter proff one is for 5 weeks
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:52 PM]: he cant play st pats now
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:52 PM]: lol
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:52 PM]: and its his last year
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:53 PM]: but all his friends just bought him game cube and 4 games
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:53 PM]: lol
O0o No ItS MIKE [8:53 PM]: they all chiped in
that was sweet..
alright im done.. byeeeee
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2004 19 August :: 8.20pm
ExpressGirl1 [8:13 PM]: do u have an oversized carrot in your room and ur parents found out u started eating it and didn't save them much so ur grounded
omg kaitlyn is sooo insane =]
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2004 19 August :: 7.17pm
kalie, i stole this like it said to, but not just cuz of that.. cuz i really really want other people to read this.. PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING! im begging you..
Read it..I've seen some of you this way...
You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out. Fine--but before you kill yourself consider these facts: Suicide is not usually successful. You think you know a guaranteed way?
Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But, both his arms are gone. What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent , with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal. What about pills?
Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go. What about a gun?
Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too.
But...Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job- -but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help.
Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain. Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now. You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police.They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it?Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later.And we'll work with whatever you have left. IF YOU’RE READING THIS, PLEASE STEAL IT AND PUT IT IN YOUR JOURNAL TOO
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2004 19 August :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: bohemiean rapsody- Queen
Hey all,
well, I got back from going to Disney Land last night, I was awesone, we actually went to California adventure, Morg and I went on the tower of terror 9 times, and posed for every picture, it was hallerious!!! we did rock, paper, scissors, and Morg and I pulled out the cell phone, and pretended we were on the phone, it was pretty cool. Well, I have a band gig on Sat, Im going to a Storm game tonight, and I have rehursal tomorrow. Ive been having a coulple of really shitty days, my baby cousin almost died, my mom is gonna have surgery, and my big bro is having an allergic reaction to something. my two best friends arnt talking to me, and hopefully I can fix that, with Aubrey at liest, i dont want to loose her. Well, Im chatting with Christene G, shes pretty kool to talk to, Ill se ya all.
l8r,
Stevo
Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
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