And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2004 1 August :: 7.14pm

new stuff at the bottom!
whoaa im back!!! it was fun... here's my day to day:

Sunday:
We got there at like 4:00... and we unpacked and did our food shopping and went to dinner... nothing exciting to talk about...

Monday:
We went to the beach and we went to the pool (nice heated pool! lol) and i had chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast lol ali you know how much i wanted those.. umm, yea we went to dinner at pizza hut lol... ooh! and we played mini golf! and i sucked! ha! lol .. the one we played was hard though... ohh and we went to the boardwalk that night... we saw peter there! lolol i did a double take i was like wait what? lmao yeah so he was there... he got one of his ears pierced... looks good... if any of you are wondering whether or not im still holding a grudge against him for trying to use me, im not lol.. but there was this guy... ooooh this guy was HOTT! he was a skaterrr<3 you know how i love my skaters! goshh i want one soo bad lol.. but his smile was soo cutee.. and he had the hair i love... the hair down to the neck.. ::squeals:: aaah he was soooooooooo completely gorgeous... ::points to me:: totally crushinn lol and i'll never see him again in my entire life lol but thats ok... enough about monday..

Tuesday:
it was nicee... we went to the beach and the pool and stuff... umm... where'd we go to eat? ohh yea we went to cape may and ate at henry's and me and my mom stole the rolls!!! lmaooo dont ask it was really funny thoughh... and we went shopping in the lil mall its soo cute its got all these lil shops in it and stuff and its just really cute lol and i got a pair of capris... and then it started with the major lightning and it was scary... oh yea it was my mom's bday too lol

Wednesday:
It rained... alot... the streets were flooded lol... we saw the bourne supremacy omggg frickinn good movie!! see it! seriously it rocked my socks... we went back to cape may and ate there and i had a strawberry daquiri lol dun worry, virgin... but it was good lol with whipped cream on top it was soo good lololol sryy hyper...

Thursday:
Gorgeous day... thats the day i was in the water all day and i met this kid... love his hair lol its the hair down to the neck lol hes so sweet he was from pennsylvania... ya know how guys love to talk about themselves? he does lol and he shows it but i think thats cute cuz he's not afraid to show who he is... he asked me for my sn like the first half hour we talked lol so yea i got his but email wont go through for some reason... oh well, i'll wait til he's home and he signs on... we went to duffinetti's for dinner... chocolate cake to DIE for dammit... our waitress was polish lol my dad was talking to her in polish like every time she came over to the table lol

Friday:
went to the beach and the pool and got pizza hut take out for dinner lol... oh and we went to the lil water park that's there... it was fun... talked to my friend again lol... and we packed that night..

Saturday:
We left! and i didnt say goodbye to my friend! =[ oh well... umm, so it took us three frickin hours to get to point pleasant! it should have taken one! roar... yeah so we went to the beach with uncle marc and aunt kathy and chrissy and tj... lots to tell from that trip lol gosh our parents took 3 hours to eat dinner... ha.. yea right... then at 12 they went out again and werent back til 2! we think chrissy's mom got drunk... long story... wanna know the story, leave a comment i aint typing it, its long.. yeah and we went to the boardwalk and my brother played this game where like you gotta get a football thru this moving tire and this guy in like his 20s is trying to do it, he tries like 10 times and he says, alright i'll pay for 6 more, give this kid 3 and he points to my brother... now this guy was a total loudmouth hes like 'this is my main man right here, hes gunna get it' and all this crap that was hysterical... so the first ball my 10-year old brother throws, he gets in lol... it was kindaa funny...

Sunday:
i woke up, me and chrissy watched road rules for a lil while and then we started watching a movie and then i left and i signed online and i did everything that i needed to do online and yea... now just my regular daily entry:

ok whew done with the days that took me awhile... anyway.. i want my dad's friend to call so we can go out to long island and see his hott sons lol teehee.. he calls every summer but he hasnt called yet and i hope he calls really soon... CUZ I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA GO!!! gosh my fall out boy cd rules.. ali wont call me back and its getting me pissed... i need to talk to her for like awhile at a time... just to clear up everything that i havent said this past week that needed to be said cuz i cant say it to everyone else.. i mean, i talked to chrissy a lil yesterdayy but ali's the only one i can really trust... AND SHE WONT CALL!!! i know ur gunna read this ali, you suckk.. i want to talk to the guy i met! ::cries:: ...ok i updated cuz i was gunna get kicked offline last night but i wasnt done with my entry... for those of you who read it, heres more: i talked to joey last night!!! ::smiles!!!:: i talked to him online first and after that i got really giggly lol i called ali and giggled to her lol... like the first thing he did, though, was give me his number lol =] and i gave him mine and he called me last night<3 he had to go cuz his battery was shot but then i called ali and i lost service but couldnt call her house back cuz it was like really late lol and she didnt call me back so, yea.. then i called shawn, and he might still like me ::cries:: nooo! not good! but he knows about joey so oh well... and adam doesnt like me!!!!! yay!!!.. oy.. my xanga aint updating right... grr.. OMG I LOVE MY FALLOUT BOY CD!! "wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel!" i could live by that line... im talking to joey right now lol.. yay.. ali gave me an idea to ask him what he likes in a chick... and im going to like any minute lol... ok scratch that, i just asked him lol.. now a smart guy would say 'everything you have' but not that many guys are that smart lol.. grr still no answer.. he could be typing lol.. i called tim last night and we talked for... oh.. 5 minutes? lol he said he had to go so i was like whatever... he kept bugging me last time i talked to him about how i wasnt talking to any guys that i liked and i didnt get to tell him that i am now lol.. ok joey answered:
stud81ng [11:28 AM]: umm definitely pretty and always smiles but I like a girl who is nice and not a slut I like a really sweet girl with a personality
everything was good except for the first part lol but hey, he's a guy can you blame him? lol.. hey, im always smiling lol.. maybe a lil too much lmaoo... and i got personality...which can be seen in my excessive energy bursts lol.. im not always sweet though lmaoo ali knows that =]~*.. i was reading the paper this morning... they got major info on terror threats and stuff.. got main targets and everything... in ny its like nyse and something else shit i cant remember... so they boosted security there and everything but the level is on orange at least til the elections... i dont like that... it scares me... i mean, new york has been on orange for a long time but its like DC and other places too now... i dont like that... after 9/11 being here, any attack in the states is gunna have a hugeeee impact on me cuz i'll know how other people are feeling too and its a pretty sucky feeling.. oyy i wont be able to go online for awhile cuz once i sign off, im not online til i finish my next book for summer homework and it might take me awhile so this is my last update for a couple of days... leave some love or call me whenever!! mwaaa laterrrr

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:: 2004 1 August :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: indifferent

so i'm back from vacation.. well actually i got back a few days ago; but who's counting?

everything with jim is okay, sorry about that long entry i made about it; i just got upset i guess.. but who cares.

yesterday i went to jims house. i got there around 2:00 in the afternoon. my brother dustin drove me over. jim shaved his head; and i coulda kicked his ass for it because i hate that.. but he actually looks cute so i wasn't as mad. lol. we watched jack up in his room, then went downstairs and ordered a pizza from kuzins. we just lounged around then watched The Story of Us, that movie was made for jim and i. after that we walked down the park and i finially got to swing on the swings! [jim pushed me] we went back down his house and just chilled and watched movies the rest of the night. when his mom got home she gave him the keys and he drove me home. we had to stop in bentlyville to get gas, drop movies off at giant eagle, and get jims mom a subway sub. after all that, we finially left for my house. i got home around 12:30-12:45. i got jim to stay for about 15 minutes. then he went home. he called me when he got home, and we talked for about another hour i think then i went to bed.

i woke up around 11:00 today.

i don't know what i'm gonna do today, i need to go to the mall to get my mom a birthday present because her birthday is on the 4th. so i'm trying to get jim and i a ride to the mall.

:: 2004 24 July :: 7.44pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: fall out boy

hey... im goinn away tomorrow! for like a whole week! and i have no way to check my emails since no one in my family owns a laptop so there will be NO UPDATES until next saturday or next sunday, we aint sure when we're coming back.. so you can call me if you need me, 917 836 1661.. thats my cell.. i gotta go since im still not packed and im leaving tomorrow and its after 73o.. i might be on again tonight to update one last time but if i aint, see ya'll when i get back.. later!!!

4 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2004 24 July :: 1.19am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: breaking benjimin - so cold

"i feel, i feel dead inside.
nothings bringing me back
from this. not this time."

:: 2004 22 July :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: happy!!!
:: Music: cassidy - get no better

whoaaa hold up!

im sooo psyched right now im like havin' a great day and all i did was work on my ipod and watch movies lol.. i dunno why it was so great but im having a great day! lol.. anyway! ROAR! teehee! i gotta call ash again tonightt i loved talkinn to her last nightt... we havent talked like that in awhile and i miss it... cant leave a long update cuz i gotta sign off but i thought i'd update since im gunna be at the beach tomorrow wit ali.. omg gunna be one sickk day!!! laterrrrrr .. more bout my day another time!

lovedlessthanmost

:: 2004 22 July :: 8.15pm

friends only.

comment to be added, plz.
if I don't like what you're doing, i'll un-friend you.

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:: 2004 21 July :: 11.57am
:: Music: give it up - midtown

What song...
Fits your life as it is currently the most?: the used, buried myself alive...
Reminds you to be grateful for the little things?: i dunno...
Makes you wanna get up and dance?: flavor of the weak... american hi-fi
Makes you reach for a box of kleenex?: yellowcard, believe
Reminds you of something you've lost?: um
Is the one you secretly like but would NEVER admit?: oh gosh... lots of stuff...
Reminds you of your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?: i aint crushinn on anyone nd im single so that doesnt really apply to me
Is the most depressing?: i know ALOT of depressing songs... umm but i mostly find songs depressing cuz of the videos... but i'll do videos... brad paisley, whiskey lullaby and AFI silver nd cold
Can put you in a horribly depressing mood?: gosh i just answered that
Can put you in a hyperily happy mood?: songs i havent listened to in awhile...
Causes your imagination to soar?:the rasmus, in the shadows
Makes you want things you can never have?: this is hard...
Inspires you?: give it up, midtown
Makes you kinda horny?: cassidy, get no betterrrrr
Is your all-time favourite?: lit - umm oh whats the name of that song lol... i cant think of the name of that song lmao
Makes you calm and rather content?: behind blue eyes, limp bizkit
Has personal meaning to you?: on the way down, ryan cabrera

Fly high...

:: 2004 21 July :: 11.16am
:: Mood: i dont know!
:: Music: i dunno what song this is... i think its madonna...

i've talked to ashley lots much lately... like we used to talk... i love it! i missed talking to her like that soooo much... my big sis! <3 love you babe... ur the best big sis everr!!!

i really need to talk to tim... well, i dont need to, but i havent talked to him in awhile so.. yea.. andrew too... every time i call his phone, he doesnt answer... so im like..yea.. i think im gunna go to the park with kaitlyn today... i havent even asked her if she could go but im sure she can so whatever... have you ever had a dream where something happens but then throughout the dream, the people that the things happen to change? i had a dream that something happened to this chinese lady nd then the lady turned into lorraine nd then later on what had happened to lorraine happened to this guy that looked really familiar but i dunno where hes from lol... but like i talked to him like i knew him.. grr i need to call jessica too... i'm good to go, and I'm going nowhere fast, it could be worse, i could be taking you there with me...i'm good to go, but it looks like I'm still on my own... gosh i wanna see the bourne supremacy... and like, now!... grr... maybe we'll go on friday when it comes out... if not, saturday... cuz i NEED to see it... the bourne identity was such a GREAT movie dammit tonight is all about 'we miss you'... 'we miss you'... i have to do school stuff... im outt... laterrrrrrrrr... oh and ali, if ur reading this entry... read the comments for the third entry from the top... cuz if u dont read what i have to say to your fucking ridiculous comment, i might explode... i dont think you'd mind that though...

Fly high...

:: 2004 20 July :: 10.13am

my line from my new song:

'And we would look hot as a couple, cause you shaped so beautifully, and you almost as cute as me!'

i <3 this song! lol... and its cassidy! ::gasp:: lol but its a great song! nicole's the one that got me hooked lol its her nd anthony's song... but its my new fav lol come on that line is SO something i'd say lol

:: 2004 19 July :: 11.40pm
:: Mood: crappy

blah blah blah, everyones getting on me for not eating anything. i don't know, i just don't feel like eating, so i don't eat.

only 6 more days til vacation with jim.

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yadiffy04

:: 2004 18 July :: 8.11pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: My Bloody Valentine- Good Charlotte

Hey everyone,

Well, on Friday Aubrey came over, and it was soo kool to see her and just to hang around. We played Risk, chatted with the evil one, watched a movie, ate, and talked, oh, and we scared the crap out of Lucas. Then on Sat my family went to Matts polo games, and went to the beach. About 100 people were evicted at the beach for bon fires, it was pretty funny. Anyways today, not much has gone on, IZAK came over, and we hung out. Well, I g2g.

l8r

Stevo
I <3 Krista

P.S. "Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

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:: 2004 18 July :: 4.33pm
:: Music: the rain on the windowsill

my pissy mood!
everyone who lives will someday die
and die alone.

thats the truest thing i've ever heard...

im back... nd im freakin exhausted...

i dont wanna deal with people... i wanna hang out with the people i havent hung out with in awhile... nd i just wanna forget about the people i normally do... now this is SO probably just PMS but its how i feel right now so fuck all people

i need my midol...

people i want to talk to: tim, andrew, jessica, ashley, chrissy, emily, julia, erin, lil katie, liz, RoRo, molly & coco, matt nocco, i NEED to call lauren's friend matt..., paul, sophia, steve... nd thats it... but thats alot lol... im gunna call all of these people soon but not now cuz im too tired... if i went outside maybe i'd wake up but its raining and rain doesnt make me happy...

im gunna pass out from tiredness...and thats not cool...

i miss tim soo much... hes like one of my best friends but like in such a stupid way like we laugh so much nd make fun of each other like crazy nd i miss it... lol... when he comes back from breezy, we're definitely hangin out...

<16>ROAR

sry... i like to roar though... i wanna be a tiger like ash ;]

i wanna hit something... hard... either that or i wanna blow up at someone... maybe i'll call ali... she still hasnt seen my last post... the whole thing with me yelling at her...

im really really really looking forward to tuesday... its gunna be madd fun... im gunna see if maybe erin can stay over cuz we like never talk anymore nd i wanna see whats up, ya know? sooo, yeah.. anyway... im out... need a nap... later

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