And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2003 12 November :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: missing someonee
:: Music: offspring, self esteem

wow, two days w/out seeing him... im miserable!!! i cant wait to go to schoo tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!! im making a point of walking homee w/himm yay!!! ima talk to him the whole time home n go into mr. d's class at lunch on purpose just so i can see himm!!! oh man, i like himm soooooo muchh... lauraa said i should get to know him a lil more before i go crazyy over himm but i already am =P well i gotta go take care of some business... more laterr

:: 2003 11 November :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: moulin rouge

the infatuation will end.
..sorry about the title, watching moulin rouge again.

i'm just sitting here, on my day off of school [it's veterans' day.] not really doing anything. jim was supposed to come over last night, and he promised. yet once again- he somehow "couldn't find a ride" god, he makes me so mad! i didn't go to school yesterday, and i don't have school today. it would have been a perfect time for us to be together.. but no.

yesterday i went to the doctors. i had to give them a urine sample.. and they gave me these pills that makes my pee orangeish/red! omygosh, it's really scary, because every time i look down after i go to the bathroom- i think i'm bleeding.. whoa, it's just kinda freaky. but oh well. as long as they help! i have a really bad bladder infection. it sucks so bad. my mom has to run out sometime today and get my other pills- i think they're just antibiodics.

i missed 2 days of school [friday and monday] so i'm gonna be more behind in all my classes.. and i'll be getting my report card tomorrow. damn.

i can't wait until friday, amy and i are going to club laga [a little club in pittsburgh.] ohhhh yeah.

oh i forgot to tell everyone that i'm not moving. which is a good and a bad thing. but oh well, can't do anything about it now.

man, i really don't want to go to school tomorrow.

xx.jena

"nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets."

:: 2003 10 November :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: still hyper -- this is only like 2 seconds later t
:: Music: sum41, the hell song!!!

wow i havent looked at the actual layout of my journal in awhile my colors are hott =P and my pic is black and white so it looks cooler muahahah... iwanna change my pic to something sum, or LP... no... BLINK! hahaha but i gotta turn it bLaCk N wHiTe! it wont look good if i dont... i have to see if i remember how to do that... well i will check if i do when i am done with yet another long entry in my journal... muahaha i love my sexyy ****** =P thought i was gunna tell ya there, didnt u? loser! lmfao... i forgot! i told ashley too! but ashley dont even live in new york so WHO CARES!?! lmao... wow i really must calm down... and too think i was ready to eat more candy... but i didnt have enough money... kristen, remind yourself that you owe dawn a dollar for your snapple... ohh i forgot about candy from halloween... how did i not eat all of that yet? =P wow i just got a strange phonecall... i pick up the phone and someone is speaking russian... weird... shes all "you speak russian?" im like uh... no... she goes, in english now "how many boxes of germs you need?" im like, uh u got tha wrong number... ::rolls eyes:: odd people... omgg alias was SOO GOOD LAST NIGHT! vaughn still loves herr!!! ::tear:: so sweet! but lauren turned her in, she gotted kidnappered! lol my new word rofl... vaughns all mad at lauren for turning her in and she could like, die... heh, we all know she wont, they cant kill off the main character in a show that successful... but... hmm... what about whats her face the freaky clone person... confusing confusing... we heard nothing about her last night... and now it aint on for 2 weeks. grr.

i have like no life sitting here typing this long an entry... i need to call ali and be telling her all of this lol. what should i do tom? i could go to the movies w/some people... im so pathetic... i need to find a song for me about him... ::in super hero voice:: to the lyrics site!!! dun dun dun... haha i found nothing... oh well, i'll hear something i like eventually... okay im kinda getting bored of this... the hyper hyper in me has gone and when that happens, im not like normal, im dead tired... i know, im strange, dont ask... laterr....

:: 2003 10 November :: 3.15pm
:: Mood: in heavenn, hyper
:: Music: 'mericals on the radioooo

veronicas song just came on the radio and i quote her "im sooooooooooooooooooorry i caaaaaaaaaant be perrrrrrrrrrrrrfeeeeect" lmao... aaah finally buying my sum41 cd tom!!! yayay!!! ugh finally... wayy to long since i've borrowed it from lorraine! and either story of the year or rancid... lorraine said rancid's cd is madd good too but that hasnt been out as long so i gots time to get that one... oh well! okay now i need to change the radio station to K-Rock cuz w/e i have on now SUCKS! muahahaha SOAD's on! most of u people know how i get with themm... then again... most of you dont... ahhh oh well.

emily's mad cuz i wont tell her who i like, but i do not trust her lol... i call her my next best friend, yet i dont tell her anything and we hang up on each other on the phone like 3 times a day rofl... oh well, i dont care about that either.
still really hyperr that snapple did me no good whatsoeverr... hmm, i wonder if kelsey founded her keys... well if she didnt shed be at my housee....... ::silence:: yea... okay... um... where was i? ... argh my mom wont lemme use my cell unless i need to cuz she thinks i seriously went over the minutes... oh well ima use it on wednesday anywayy when i watch the girls... i wanna go rent identity... wow that was random... EMILY!!! DRYERS!!! roflmao... wow that was madd funny in that moviee. i wanna rent it and watch it w/my mom so i can scare the shit outta her =P okay i really need to update this cuz you know im probably gunna wind up losing the entry before i update it and ima be really pissed off n shit so i update and then i comee back and type more! yay! okay, here i go! bye until my next entry!

:: 2003 9 November :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: infuriated
:: Music: meet joe black [the movie] on tv

was an o.k. day..
i love this movie.. meet joe black god, it is so sad.. i'm sitting here crying because of the ending.. :(

today was an ok day.. i guess. i woke up around 11, and just got online and did nothing until around 2 and then i started to paint my mirror. my mirror my mom got somewhere, she was just going to throw it away, and i told her i wanted it.. and i'd paint it and everything. so i started that today. it's black and silver. but i'm not totally done with it, i still have to paint some silver stuff on it. i waited and waited until around 4:30, because jim was supposed to come over after work and stay the night because he didn't work tomorrow. i waited and waited and waited and he finially called at 6:30, and told me that he couldn't come over and that he just got home.

i was worried, now i'm just kinda upset.

i have school tomorrow. and i don't want to go. now that jim's not going.. i don't even have a reason to go anymore. it's like that quote that says:

there's always one boy
who makes you get up
and go to school everyday
..and jim was that boy. :(
..and now he's not in school anymore.
..so what now?

ahhhh.

4 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2003 9 November :: 3.39pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: the radio

a picture of jim and i

it's a picture of jim and i. =)

3 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2003 8 November :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: trapt - still framed

in a pretty good mood
hello. it was actually a darn good day today.

i woke up around 9:30, and called jim. no one answered, so i called back around 10:30 or so, and he finially answered. we talked for a while, then around 11:30 [after i got a shower and everything] i walked down his house. when i got there we popped in a movie, [tom and huck.. a disney movie. mwahaha.] and we watched half of that, went upstairs ordered some food, came back downstairs waited for the food and then watched the rest of the movie. after that we just waited until my mom got there and then he left and went to work, and i left and went home.

i missed him. we're doing good actually. i don't have any more doubts about us. =) none what-so-ever. =)

i'm pretty happy.

<3 jena.

:: 2003 6 November :: 8.03pm
:: Mood: nerdy
:: Music: whatever's on the radio.

haven't updated.
sorry i haven't been updating lately.. i guess i needed a break from on here..

but i'll write more. promise.

sorry to friends that i haven't been noting. <3 you guys.

well, note me if you still remember me.. :(

oh, everyone should join nerdnation.net. it's awesome.

<3, jena.

3 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2003 5 November :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: scared shitless
:: Music: nothing

omggg some guy just came up to us today while walkin home ((me, steph, jenn, caroline, lorraine, ronny, paul, jon, alex)) n paul dropped some papers on the ground -- some guy walks by n goes pick up the fuckin papers!!! so paul picks em up, throws em out and the guy goes "dont fuckin gimme attitude like that" n pauls like "what?" hes like i told u to pick up the fuckin papers!!! and paul yells back i did!!! and it got into this whole big thing hes yellin at paul "ur a fuckin idiot fuck off ass hole, my brother could knock ur fuckin teeth out!!!" me n steph n ronny got so fuckin scared but me n steph didnt wanna leave paul ((well duh steph didnt wanna leave him hes her bf!!!)) n it took like 10 minutes people were startin to gather to watch them fightin... we so lucky they didnt get into a fist fight. i was afraid this guy was gunna pull out a knife i wanted to just walk down the block watch n see if the guy did anything n if he did i was gunna call the police but finally the guy yelled "end of fuckin story!" paul yelled "fine!" and he walked half way down the block and then stopped to watch us... paul yelled a lil too loudly... fuck him... and he started coming back and this lasted another 10 minutes with the word fuck goin at least 45 times... it was so freaky we thought he was high cuz he was workin on his 3rd cigarette by that time... but finally he left... sorta... still standing half way down the avenue... so me, steph, jenn, ronny, and lorraine were kinda scared to walk by him cuz theres no other way for us to get home then to pass this guy so we all go together but when he was fightin w/paul he got all racist on us n insulted spanish people n ronny, jenn, n lorraine r partly spanish so they wanted to say something to him so they do n me n steph were like oh shit n some guy finally came outta a bar n broke them up but im still kinda shakyy about it...

:: 2003 4 November :: 3.51pm

its official... i dont like him...

:: 2003 30 October :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: chevelle - closure

argh he wont sign on and im actually gunna tell him exactly how i feel...me and annmarie had a 5 page note about this...yes...5 pages long. it took us two hours but we did it... i'll put in the convo when we have it!!!

:: 2003 28 October :: 7.20pm

omggg im so stressed out...i have to choose my high schools TONIGHT! THEY TELL US THIS WITH ONE DAYS NOTICE! omfg im so stressed out cuz i have to order them and my parents dont even seem to fuckin care! arghh!

:: 2003 28 October :: 10.24am
:: Mood: depressed

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:: 2003 27 October :: 10.43am
:: Mood: blah

la la la...im in st. saviour's right noww :-P while they learn i get to go on aol lmaooo...aah well i thought i was over him...i really did...but aparently im not since i had that kinda dream about him last night...ashley thinks i am too but aparently im not cuz i woke up madd happy...