And be a simple kind of man...

:: 2003 26 August :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: silence

i feel so shitty...im sick...dont like it...missed out on 30$ babysittin cuz im sick...sux so much...helpin with the twins 2m...yay...missed out on hurricane harbor to go to the beach today...but it wasnt bad i had fun...i talked to matt last night...hes gunna be at the beach all week hahahaha ali's gunna be happy when i actually get around to telling her...heh...yea i kinda forgot to call her lol...i will later though...maybe i will right now...maybe not...i dont know...im so thoughtless but i thought i should at least announce that i am sick...ttyl

:: 2003 26 August :: 2.42pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: jims playstaion game

soo, i guess my pictures don't show up?
-shoots them-
oh well. i guess i won't post anymore..
-sighs-
who cares.

SCHOOLS TOMORROW

just shoot me.

1 freebird | Fly high...

:: 2003 25 August :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: pissed

some pictures from last night.
all i have to say is damn things saved on the playstation memory card.. damn them to hell! >:o

ashley

kelly and ashley

me

kelly

jim

thats all.

-x|x- grrr.

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:: 2003 25 August :: 4.38pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: jims playstaion game

_@#!*&$!
ashley (kellys friend.) and kelly came over last night. ashely was stayin over kellys house, so they came over my house and chilled for a good couple hours. we just messed around on the computer, talkin, on the fone, playin the playstation and listening to some music. i think they walked over about 12-1? i don't really remember, but they left about 4-5. or somewhere around there, i don't know. ahhh.

my mom took jim and i to centry three. i got a new purse.. like i need anymore of those. but anyways, i got a new one, and some safety pins, and some little buttons. they're cute. but we only stayed there for about 30-45 minutes, because i only had 50$. ha. thats all i had left. o.0

thats all.

school starts on the 27th.. ahhh.

random picture of the day:

-x|x- jena.

:: 2003 24 August :: 1.01am
:: Mood: confused and feeling weird
:: Music: sugarcult - pretty girl

babies?!?!
so uh, i had this dream last night about fuckin babies. i woke up all confused and stuff. haha.

my dream:
i guess i got pregnant, and my mom kicked my out of the house or whatever. soo i was still in school, and so was jim. but jim got a good job and we got a little apartment and blah blah. i guess in school everyone was talking about how jim and i were screwed for the rest of our lives cause we were havin a kid. but we didn't really see it that way. so i had the baby, and it was a little girl. we bought her clothes, and everything she needs. and all i really remember about the dream before i woke up is that we were so happy. i don't think that i was ever that happy in my whole life. =]

so all day yesterday i was thinking about babies. i'm just kinda freaked out by it though, cause the more i think about it.. the more i want to have a baby =/ . whoa i'm weird. kelly and i went shopping, and i was all lookin at the baby clothes/toys. they're all so cute. i mean yeah i know i'm not ready for a baby.. but if it ever accidently happend, i'd be happy.

so anyway, jim didn't come over again today. godddd, i am so freakin mad! i mean, okayyy please don't tell me you are going to come over, and then not be able to! (i know it's not his fault because his ride didn't come.) but still it freakin upsets me. i mean jesus, school is starting in 3 damn days. it sucks. oh well.

i went shopping for some school clothes today. haha me and kelly shoplifted. (hahaha kelly) god, it was great. lets see.. i still have to get a couple more pair of pants, a new purse, some underware/bras/socks and some odds and ends. my moms dropping jim and i off at centry three today or maybe tomorrow, so i can get the rest of my shit. ahh i can't belive school is almost here! god, it makes me feel like shit. another year is gone.

in a happier note, on the 29th- it'll be 9 months for jim and i. aww, i can't believe it's been that long.. i love him more and more each day. =D even though we fight sometimes, it's okay. I love him.

random picture of the day:

-x|x- jena

2 freebirds | Fly high...

:: 2003 23 August :: 3.22pm
:: Music: Evanescence, My Last Breath

hmm...i havent played my evanescence cd on the computer in so long! its been in the stereo forever for when im in my room but i miss it on the puter!!! ugh emily is being such a bitch...i swear, she keeps saying "i know something you dont know" over and over so she obviously wanted me to ask what and then got mad at me when i asked it a second time saying "kristen i promised him i wouldnt tell! stop bugging me about it!" and now shes calling ME a bitch...ughrrr..g2g

:: 2003 23 August :: 2.11pm
:: Mood: pissed!!!!

MY MOTHER DELETED ALL MY FUCKEN DOWNLOADED MUSIC!!! ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE ONE SONG LEFT OUTTA LIKE 250!!! SHE FUCKED IT UP AND IS DENYING IT NOW! I CAN TELL SHE TOUCHED IT CUZ STUFF BY MY PUTER IS OUTTA PLACE LIKE THE BLANK CDS! SHE OBVIOUSLY TRIED TO BURN THEM, THOUGHT SHE DID, AND DELETED THEM BUT THE BURNER DOESNT FUCKEN WORK WHICH SHED KNOW IF SHE FUCKEN LISTENED TO ME!!! omg im flipping out!! i promised people cds too!!! and now i cant cuz i cant dl on this sn only on my mothers which she changed the effin password to and i cant get on...hey whered my caps go IM STILL YELLING!!!! GRRRRRRRRR!!!

:: 2003 23 August :: 2.32am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: mudvayne - world so cold

just rambling
so um jim didn't come over yesterday.. i guess he just wanted to stay home for a night, or something. but he just didn't want to come over.. so, i couldn't give him the food i brought home for him from the resturaunt we went to yesterday.. but it's still in the fridge, so i guess if he comes out sometime today he can eat it.. if someone else doesn't first.. but my mom knows not to eat it, cause i got it for jim. and dustins not home.. so i don't really think anyone will eat it. but i don't know.

i went over kellys about 2 hours ago, and we watched a movie.. i think it was called 'the marrying man' or something? i don't really remember. but oh well. it doesn't really matter. so i got back over here a little bit ago, and i just came in, turned on my stereo and sat at my computer. in less than a second, i was crying.. [yeah, i bet you think that i'm stupid.] but i just really seriously miss jim. i don't know what came over me. i mean, yeah i do miss him when he's not here, but i usually don't cry. i just saw him yesterday.. i mean i stayed over his house. so i was with him the day before, but i don't know what came over me like i said. so i called him, and woke him up and just said hey.. i just wanted to hear his voice. god i really do love him more and more each day..

i really hope he comes over tomorrow.. i seriously miss him. =( i don't know what i'm going to do when school starts, it's going to be rough. i hope he gets his license soon.. so he can drive out to my house all the time. beacuse it's going to kill me not to see him for almost a whole week except for in school.. i doubt we'll have any classes together. ahh, i don't know what i'm going to do. it's going to suck so much.

ahh school. starts in four more days god. i'd much rather kill myself than go back to that hell hole and be around everyone again. god it makes me hate people even more. i don't know.

it seems i don't know about a lot of things. i've said "i don't know" about a zillion times. jeeze. who cares.

looks it's me.

"I have taken the broken shards of my heart and pounded them to dust. I place each precious piece in my hand and let the wind blow them in hopes you will catch them and make me whole."

:: 2003 22 August :: 6.37pm

nothing to do
it's pretty bad when your so bored/alone, that you have to amuse yourself with these quizes.. wheres jim when you need him? =(

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:: 2003 22 August :: 5.15pm

kennywood
well, there isn't much to talk about kennywood..

i stayed at rochelles on wed. and thursday morning kelly and i walked up to caseys and we waited until about 11:30 for jim and mack to come pick us up. the ride was okay, until we got to mcdonalds, then it was better. (oh yeah kelly. =D) we didn't go in kennywood until about 1:00.. because of um, traffic? lol. but anyway, we met up with rochelle a little later, and then rochelle and kelly went off, and i stayed with jim and mack. then i found randi, and she stayed with us. we walked around rode some rides, i saw a whole bunch of people i don't like. but then again, i saw some 'friends'. all in all, i did have fun. and i'm just so glad that jim was there.. he made the trip great.

so we left about 10:00, and kelly went her way, and i stayed at jims. rochelle rode the bus home.

i got up around 10:00 in the morning, today, and jim and i got a shower, and then we got dressed/ate. he was supposed to come with me to go school shopping, but he wanted to stay home.. i was really mad but oh well. i ended up getting my mom not to go anyways. but we did stop at this really really really good resturaunt, (i forget what it's called) but we were supposed to take jim there but oh well, he wasn't with us. it's his own fault. =( but i did miss him. soo whatever though, we went to a couple stores, then we went home. i didn't buy anything though.

i guess later tonight i'm going to pick jim up, and then my mom said she'd take us to centry three this weekend sometime. so thats okay i guess. though i really did want to go tonight. but something always has to mess my plans up. jeeze.

oh! i forgot to mention that jennifer is coming over on wendsday! =D (my brothers ex girlfriend that i very much like) soo jim will finally meet her.. because i've wanted him to but my brother and her broke up before jim and i were together. ahh i just really can't wait to see her. this is great.

but i'm bored now, so i think i'm going to just post some quizes i took.

-x|x- lonely.

:: 2003 21 August :: 12.58pm
:: Mood: high...lol
:: Music: Perfect, Simple Plan

alot to do today...i forgot im going to get my hair done today...another hour and a half taken outta my dayy lol -- i dont know what to pack!!! ali didnt read the email!!! grrr i sent her a like 3 page email last night before i watched chicago -- it was really good! i asked her what i should bring and she never read it...she left at like 1000 for the beach!!! she doesnt even wake up that early! forget leave for the beach! grrr i hope matts there today though so i dont have to sit and listen to her cry over how he wasnt there lol jp hun, i luv ya...plus she didnt read the parts of a convo i sent her last night that really made me happy but i didnt tell her about so she could read them herserlf and now im pissed cuz its gunna be a full 24 hrs after that she reads this stuff that makes me all "yay!!!" if you know what i mean, which im sure you do, my god im typing fast cuz im so high!!!! whoa its really scary! ::takes time to breathe:: whew that wore me out...still typing really fast though..imma have cramps lol...im so high i wish i hadnt promised ali i'd save my last lollipop for tomorrow so i could be really high for her! i need more sugarr!!! wow i need to calm the fuck down...alright imma go now and finish some of the shit i have to do! laterr<33

:: 2003 20 August :: 8.17pm

PISSED!
THIS IS THE FOURTH DAMN TIME IM TRYING TO WRITE AN ENTRY IN THIS JOURNAL!!!!!! I'VE WRITTEN LIKE FOUR PAGES AND GOTTEN GAGGED BEFORE I COULD SEND THEM IM SO PISSED! OMFG IMMA SCREAM NOW!!! I FINISHED EATING LIKE 2 HRS AGO!!! THATS HOW LONG I'VE BEEN WRITTING IN THIS THING AND HAVING IT FAIL!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alright i feel better....well i protected josh from ashley n he gave me a hug for that, ali aint home n im mad cuz i wanna know the juicy details of her day...i have to pack tomorrow for the beach and to stay w/her..i need to bring my camera so i can take a pic of her n matt...shes gunna love me!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!<33 thats all i can remember from my other entries...oh wait stuff just came back to me...too much to do tomorrow dont know how im gunna get it all done...i was looking at old entries and i saw how i was missin like three people one day...that was stupidd...dont worry im stickin to one person now lol...imma put this in now so that if i get gagged again at least this will be saved lol...i'll write more in a sec...

:: 2003 20 August :: 6.40pm
:: Music: Simple Plan, Perfect

eh...i start to type and my cheese burger is ready...bbl =]

:: 2003 20 August :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: bored...
:: Music: Fat Lip, Sum 41

i am so fucken tired!!! in two days i got 8 hrs of sleep! i dont know why i cant sleep! im tired, but wont fall asleep at night and its driving me crazy! especially after last night when i worked my ass off so bad, i felt sick...i thank ashley for helping me feel better, and mike, thanks for caring...eric, glad we got that settled last night...that helped too. wheee! eric aint avoiding me no more!!! okay i really need laura to come online and help wake me up!!!!!!!!!!!!! so tired...shes probly with germy now...well ali couldnt see matt today, shes seeing the other guy thats all over her. ::rolls eyes:: im afraid of whats gunna happen...her bday is friday!!! wheee i get to meet matt and imma make her so mad at me! woot woot!!! i sound extremely awake dont i...well the truth is, this is all coming outta my brain, not my body, so if ur thinking im weird for saying im tired n then screaming whee and woot well...screw you..jkjk...its really hot out...why i still have my hair out, i dont know...actually yes i do, it was straight for once...even though the only person i saw today besides my mom n brother was the guy waitin in front of mary jo's house to take care of some papers ((he was hot!!! damn, his voice too! hes probly like 26 or something though....)) josh is gunna be at ashleys house today!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! plus shes gunna try n get me a pic of her neighbor who just happens to be my age and who she says really aint that bad lookin...=] ya'll know me...i cant resist a pic of a hot guy!!! wow i've only been typing this for like 3 minutes and its really...im hungry, i want some popcorn...or maybe something else i dont really care any more, i just want food...alright well i will go and feed myself and write more laterr...luv yas all!