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2003 19 August :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: tired n hyper
:: Music: The Qiuet Things that No One Ever Knows, Brand New
just put in a sour apple blow pop again lol...imma probly get in trouble since its like almost 700 but oh well...me and laura are having alot of fun...never noticed how much we fucken have in common...damn scary...we talkin bout lollipops n roller coaster lmfao...so hyperr!!! i told jenn page was engaged...she flipped LMAO!!! she wanted page all for herself, the lil slut slut...well right now emily is boring me with her "soo soo soo soo soo soo"s right now. ((sry emms but iss annoying lol))...waiting for ali to get home now with the tales of another exciting day in her life @ the beachh...damn cabanas..haha i get to meet her bf on friday!!! imma talk some sense into this kid...havent even met him yet!!! damn im in deep shit...bbl
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2003 19 August :: 3.29pm
:: Music: Jaded (These Years), Mest
wheeee! anthonys staying!...i helped laura figure out how to change the colors in her journal before...found out today that my brother has athsma or however the hell you spell it...i talked to germy cuz he went to laura's house haha...we talked...he found out that i know about his lil accidents -- those were extremely funny stories...i have to get ali's bday gift...cds, cds, cds...i need to buy cds myself since i cant DL anymore songs till my puter stops saying it burned the cds and actually doesnt!!! i just taught laura how to make grilled cheese lol. she said she forgot how...shes insulting jeremy and im yelling at her. cruel person...i'll write more later...im outta stuff to say lol
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2003 19 August :: 12.43pm
:: Mood: missing someone!!!
:: Music: Run to the Hills, Iron Maiden
yes, im back from eating my mac n cheese lol, and there are two people im actually missing...i miss ant, and i miss another certain someone...im hoping him n his friend hes always with (im not using names for a reason) will come outside to play soccer or something...i just realized theres a third person i miss...i cant wait to see him when school starts -- i have such a good picture of him <33...looks so hot in it. actually i have alotta pix of hot guys...i've got two that i took myself, last day of school...3 are ones that ashley sent me!!!! damnn josh, evan, and sean....HOTT!!! laura's gunna help me delete the entry i put in 9 times lol alright i gotta go find out how to do it, i'll finish this laterr
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2003 18 August :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: sadd
:: Music: Still Waiting, Sum 41
im so sad! anthony's leaving us for a whole year!!!!!!!! =[ me misses him...he said he'd call me though...hopefully he wont forget lol...i hope hes not killing himself right now...after yesterday he wasnt exactly the happiest person. nope nope, not happy -- if he dun call me though, i'll either call him or ask the alsers. hmm...i still havent spoken to eric lol...ali saw matt at the beach yesterday...naughty naughty people they are!!! woot! i mean, i know they like each other alot but...they gotta learn to take it easy...page is fucken gettin married!!! im so happy for him n i tried to call jenn n tell her but shes STILL doinn the drama camp at poly...macaroni n cheese is ready...i will write more when i return...
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2003 18 August :: 2.07pm
:: Mood: i don't know
:: Music: silence
could it be
just a song today.. maybe i'll write later.
i just.. don't feel so good. but jims here, so i really am happy. i missed him so much..
Masochist
The ULTIMATE personality test
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Well I don't know what to say
Because there's truth to what you say
I know it kills you I'm this way
There's something different everyday
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
Not easy living in my mind
A little peace is hard to find
My every thought is undermined
By all the history inside
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
I know I hear the words you said
Over and over again
I just can't get them through my head
There's just too many voices
Must be like living with the dead
Waiting for me to begin
To do the things that I have said
And for this I'm sorry
So there's some truth to what you say
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
-Staind
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2003 18 August :: 1.24pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: AFI - The Leaving Song, Pt. II
todays starting out to be a good day...well sept for the fact that me n eric arent exactly happy with each other...interesting night last night lol. watched 'the recruit'. good movie...i like all the spy stuff...for example, alias, my fav show...spy show. yep yep im all into that stuff where you never know what'll happen...a plus to that movie...COLIN FARRELL IS DAMN GORGEOUS!!! i was like in heaven for the whole movie n skipped the scene when he made out with the ugly woman...couldnt bear to watch my baby kiss another grl...well now im mad at anthony...long story just thought i should let you know that my mood just changed. oh shit i feel bad now...i just got him so upset...like REALLY upset...i just wanted to fucken set him straight...g2g bbl
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2003 17 August :: 6.30pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: The Hell Song, Sum 41
omg long time no write!!! yes i know i have the last entry bout 70000 times ignore it...it kept saying "fail" when the entry actually got put into the journal...you only have to read it once. well i was gunna write on thursday till we had the BLACKOUT OF '03 hahah i burnt my hand on a candle...woot...i no longer like the mystery kid all the way from the beginning...cant member if i said that already or not lol...nope im all focused on someone new now...someone who i'm pretty sure likes me back...gotta check that out n make sure...wow its thundering hard outside...torrential rain...big lightning...dont like being in the highest room in the house...::shudders:: big booms...i remember a time...babysittin molly n my coconut w/meggs...huge storm, coco cryin cuz she was so scared...we realized like 15 minutes into this GI-NORMOUS storm that the upstairs windows were open...can you say "FLOOD!!!!!" it wasnt good...alotta stuff got wet by the windows...yeah we spent a good half hour soaking up all water with towels...okay that thunder was wayyyyyyy too close to still be on the computer...byebye
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2003 16 August :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: i don't know
:: Music: semisonic - closing time
Saints and Sailors
youre becoming solitude and soo loving your
apartment. its understandable. ppl suck, and
youve expected too much, now u expect nothing,
but then again you have no reason too..
what dashboard confessional song are you?
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2003 15 August :: 8.56am
:: Mood: sad
lets see
how many people feel like shit..?
cause i sure as hell do.
-x|x- me.
p.s. IM me on aim.. i'm bored.
she ran away x is my name.
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2003 15 August :: 2.23am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: jim talkin in my ear
update from last entry:
i went over rochelles house with her around like 5:30, and we were just chillin and shit, then my mom called at 7, and she was like "where are you?" im like "rochelles, where else would i be?" she started like flipping out on me, because i wasn't home.. (when she told rochelle to make sure i was home by six the next day i mean, wtf? fuck you.) so i got home around like an hour or so later, and kelly came over and we were just talkin, then we went out on my back deck. (okay, now i haven't ate anything for about a day now. and i didn't eat dinner yesterday.) my mom was like "jena, do the dinner dishes" i was like WHAT!? I DIDN'T EVEN EAT HERE! omg, i was so pissed off. she said something else, and i just ignored her. then george was like "i hope your not planning on going anywhere until christmas" where the fuck do i go? that just pissed me off right there. i go about 2 places every fuckin 6 months. so fuck them. i hope i die in my room tonight. i called jim about 9:15, and i just cried with him on the fone for about a hour and a half.. i'm just about stupid. crying on the fone for a hour and a half.. jesus. i'll update what happens later today. god only knows what shits gonna go down.
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-x|x- =( i don't know anymore.
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2003 14 August :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: silence
i had the worst day yesterday.
kelly rochelle and i went to the fair yesterday.. we were supposed to meet casey, matt and jim there. well.. this is what happened:
we were at the fair for about 20 minutes or so, and jim called and just like started kinda yelling at me. so i yelled back and i don't know what happened, i guess we sorta hung up on eachother. well after that we went down to the rides and rochelle met matt at the ferris wheel, she stayed with him, while kelly and i went on the round up. i guess rochelle didn't hear my fone ring.. and jim had called ilke 6 times. he left a message.. so i called him back. kelly and rochelle went on this other ride, i don't know the name of it. we just like yelled at eachother, and stuff.. he told me that he didn't want to come to the fair and see me, and he was really mad at me.. we got off the fone a couple minutes later, and i went to get kelly and rochelle. they just got off they're ride and asked me what jim said.. and i just started cry. like freakin balling my eyes out right in the middle of the fair. i didn't really care though, rochelle hugged me and said it was okay.. but i cried for like 5 minutes. i don't know.. i kept trying to call him back, but he didn't answer the fone.. i thought he left somewhere with some girl. (because of what he said on the message he left me on my fone.) so i was trying so hard not to start crying again. but after that i wasn't even in the mood to be at the fair, i just wanted to go home.. :( you could tell that i was upset/sad. a little bit later we found matt again, and then kelly got ahold of casey, and he came down. so i was like all alone, while everyone was with someone.. i was really getting depressed and you could tell. but i didn't care. jim called back around like 8:30-9:00 i think, and said he was sorry or whatever, but i didn't care, it didn't put me back in a good mood. casey was tryin to make me smile, but it didn't work.. i didn't even have any money, cause jim was supposed to come.. but thankfully rochelle was there, and she paid for me to get in, and kelly and her got drinks for us and stuff. and that was so nice of them. (thanks you guys, if your reading this.) jay came down and walked with us a little later, and about 9:30 him and casey left with ben and matt left to. kelly called her mom, and she didn't even come get us until like 11:00. so we just messed around, and talked and shit.
we got home, and went online. we got hungry cause we didn't eat anything at the fair, so we made some mac and cheese. and i put the pot in the sink, and put water in it. later that night after kelly roach and me were done eating, roach put the dishes in the sink, and filled them with water. well about noon today, my mom comes barging into my room and shes like "IT'S 12:00 GET UP NOW." i'm like okay? wtf? (i've been up since 11:00, because my brother had the tv up so freakin loud, it woke me up.) so i was just layed there for about 20 more minutes, and she comes back in and like is all yelling at me not to sleep my life away and she wants me in the kitchen "NOW" so i'm like "okay.." so i went out there, and she starts yelling at me for the 3 bowls that are in the sink, and the pot. shes like "WHY DIDN'T YOU SOAK THESE? THEY'RE HARD AS A ROCK" blah blah blah. i'm just like jesus christ. we did soak them. (which we really did.) so she went on and on and on and on about it. and she was like "who was here last night? wheres jim?" i was like "kelly and rochelle, jims at home." and she kept pressing the matter "why isn't jim here? where is he? didn't you see him last night?" i just said no, and walked away.. went into the bathroom and cried my eyes out again.
i didn't even do anything, and i'm gettin bitched at for everything. i mean.. jesus. i'm goin to rochelles tonight, but i have to be back tomorrow night by 6:00. so i can help her "tag things" for the yardsale this weekend. i don't know. i have to get away because i'm gonna shoot someone in the fuckin head. (not you rochelle! ha.)
i hope i die in my sleep.
-x|x- fuck this.
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2003 13 August :: 3.32am
:: Mood: afraid
:: Music: staind - so far away
a song
-x|x- afraid.
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2003 10 August :: 11.30pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: me first and the gimmie gimmies - i believe i can fly
"I'm the Marcia fucking Brady of the Upper East Side and sometimes I want to kill myself for it. So there's your psychoanalysis, Doctor Freud." -Kathryn from Cruel Intentions
I didn't really do anything today.. i got up at 11, and just layed in bed until 1. so i was being lazy. i got up and got a shower, and then i called rochelle and left a message, cause no one answered.. i got online and just did nothing then kelly called around 3/4 o'clock. i got a shower then we went down to the park for kellys aunts 25th wedding anniversary.. and we got bored so we went back home and got our bikes and rode them back down to mingo.. omgosh the walk back up this big huge hill was so bad. it took us like 30 minutes to walk up it! we were all out of breath, and sweating.. eww. "bike fest 03'" ahahah kelly.
we got home and got ready to go to richardson park to see casey. so we went there, at around 8:30, and got back home around 9:15
we're gonna go watch a movie in a bit. it's called "jewles" (based on a book by danielle steel) the book was awsome so hopefully the movie is just as good. i love reading romance books. they make you sorta just forget everything around you because you just get so tied up in the characters and whats happening to them.. it just kinda makes you feel good when you get done reading them. :)
-x|x- not all here
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2003 9 August :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: spunky-less
:: Music: sugarcult - pretty girl
i'm back?
so i went to bethany beach with the 'family' we can say that i was miserable. i don't like the beach.. let alone with my family for a whole week in the same freakin house.. without being able to actually go anywhere.. (as in kellys house, or up my aunts, or over amys/rochelles.) but with jim there, it was a little bit better.. i guess.
all everyone wanted to do was go the beach.. and i'm not a beach person.. it just really upset/pissed me off that if i didn't go, everyone got mad at me. especially jim, and i felt bad. :( so i went and sat there, and read a book.. thank the lord for sun block, or i'd practicly be the color of dirt right now.. :( i hate getting sun. i hate it. hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it. hate doesn't describe it enough. i would be much happier white as a ghost.. so hopefully no one would notice me. haha but who cares..
we did some things.. i don't really feel like writing a huge entry detailing every day.. that would be pretty boring. but we went to the beach, shopped, jim and i got out 'old fashined picture' taken.. we look freakin so damn cute if i do say so myself. i'm gonna upload it on my picture album, so i'll make sure i put the link back up on here so you can look at it. i love it.. other than that, we didn't really do anything. i read a lot of books, and jim and i went the pool.. went for rides on the bikes there. he went in the ocean a lot. i just sorta sat and watched him. i don't like the water. i'd rather be sitting inside doing something like watching a movie.
but no use in complaining anymore. it's not like anyone wants to actually hear about it.
i think i've lost my "spunk"..?
hmm.. it's the 9th.. :-/ :(:(:(:(:(:(!!!!
-x|x- no spunk.
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2003 8 August :: 1.08pm
:: Mood: rushed, hyper, and annoyed, waiting for ali to cal
:: Music: There's Gotta Be More, Stacie Orrico
love that song cuz it explains me totally:
~There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more~
can you see how it explains me so much?
I'm flippin out cuz i have to leave in like 2 hrs for my cuzin's play and i havent even packed anything for staying over tonight...i need a hell of alotta cds for the road...oh well lets get back into my moods...
rushed, well i kinda just explained that...oops lol...oh wellsz...ok im seriously hyper...ali hung up on me telling me she'd call back when i calmed down ha ha. annoyed, yes i am annoyed cuz life sux!!! in an IM to a person:
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060: Well, between not getting the call i was supposed to get, you, not being able to see the guy i miss ALOT next weekend, and having to leave in like 2 hrs for a 730 play tonight, life sux
so you can see why i am annoyed...and the you refers to the guy mentioned in the first entry in case you are wondering...umm well i just finished talking to ashley she's goinn to chill with josh again (shes way too lucky)...eh i gotta go straighten my hair for tonight...why im bothering cuz its so humid out i dont know...damn wavy hair...well i hope you are enjoying these entries...its giving me something to do...maybe i'll write more later before i leave...im out...1...<33
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