break down
So today I woke up 45 minutes late.with me waking up late I knew today wasn't goin to be good and it wasn't. It sucked more balls than a whore can suck.

In the middle of 1st period I realized I had a spanish oral today (which I didn't study for) and a history test which I had next (I didn't study for it either). I was like shit!I was bitein my nails and just figiding my feet b/c I was nervous about failing my history test. Well at the end of 1st period I got my interm. Wow, that just ruined my day for sure. i got a D in History. My teacher for that class is suppose to be the easiest one of all and he is and yet i conquor getting a fuckin D. a D to me and my parents is failing. I was like fucking shit. I can't get C's on anythin in that class now. I got a 97 A in spanish and spanish is my worse subject. I mean I am soo nervous about Ivan and shit. I mean how can they think that i can concentrate on school?

Well in fucking History class I was getting nervous and just with things goin on in my social life and family life and Ivan right now it just made me not concentrate. I was gettin all pissed and I just wanted to cry. I just stared at my notes wondering what the fuck am i goin to do? Then Mr. sousa announced to put everything away. My face fell. I just cannot fail this test. I put my head in my hands and i was just gettin really crazy. Everything that happened this week was just really effecting me at that moment. I just wanted to run out and run forever. Mr. sousa came up to me and said, don't worry my test isn't that bad. Maybe I should do medetation before my tests. I was like right, screw u buddy. I looked over my oral as many times as i could while doin work during the day. I was soo jiddery (sp) and shit. When I was trying to get books outta my locker I couldn't do it. They wouldn't come out. I just leaned on the next lockers over and slid down on the ground. In Math class when the test was being passed out my pointer finger on my right hand like fell outta socket or something. It like leaned to the left a lot and i felt like pop in the joint. I couldn't move my finger. I was freaking out. I was like what the fuck is happening to me today? everything is going wrong... I couldn't study my oral, my mind wasn't up to it. I just put my head down on the desk and I just wanted to die at that moment. At lunch I grabbed food and sat down and studied my oral as much as possible. Lance and Nick H. were like Whats wrong? I was saying the usual nothing, don't worry about it and blah blah. But they wouldn't let go of the subject. Lance was like if u don't tell me in 3 I will chuck this drum stick at ur head..yea well i didn't tell him and he didn't do it. When they realized I wouldn't tell they quit. Then Nick H. gave me his tray to take to the garbage and I said no. He was horsing around and pushin me to do it and I yelled I said no god dammit! Its ur damn food, u take it! and I slid the tray at him. I grabbed my stuff and walked out.

Finally, spanish...Nick S. was being so happy and cheery like normal and I just wanted to kill him. He was trying to get me to dance. He took my arms and was acting like me and him were dancing together and I was like no. quit it. I don't wanna dance. Then I sat down and he came over and started booty dancing in my face w/ his ghetto butt. Then he was singing to me and what-not. i was like i'm not gonna be happy, so quit. Then he was like Let me see that Randi smile that I love so much. Well it turns out that all we had to do was to say the oral w/ the same sex. i was more fukcing pissed b/c I was nervous for no damn reason the whole day. I hate it when teachers change their mind sometimes. well I actually cried a lil in spanich class b/c I was thinking about shit. yea, I want things to change. I want them to change soon. I NEED for them to change for the better.

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