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2005 25 April :: 11.14am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: grind on me <3!
When you've got nobody else ; youve got me <3!
So here i am again. Right now were gettin ready to leave so this ought to be quick. Were going out to orlando i think to meet up with some of gramz friends for lunch blah blah .. ick. So heres PART of wat i promised, there will be more later. =)
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-Britty boo . u mite wanna lookit this ;D . i luhv u ¢¾
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2005 25 April :: 8.30am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: ruthless.
but if i built you a city... would you let me? would you tear it down ?
you're waving goodbye, well atleast youre having fun
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 24 April :: 11.29pm
:: Mood: cold
its gettign better all the time
im updating !! what in the world is wrong with me ?! =) mwahah . .
well yeah .. iv had a busy - yet not so busy weekend !?. . i havent sleept a damn bit . . thats for sure . . lets see . .
friday night i went to work . .and i left to get bitched out and kicked out by my mom . . went and drove around. .and an hour later or so . . i met my dad up at JFK . .lindsey showed up and left 20 sceonds later because kriss came . . so whatever . . i was pissed . .but didnt care . . i wasnt there to hang out . . i was there because i wanted to die practically . .so yeah i sat in there with kriss and my dad for a little and then i got my wrist band and they took my blood everythign then sent me back to the waiting room . . then danny<33 showed up with his dad . .tom left after 20 minutes or so . .and my dad went to sleep in the truck. . danny went outside to smoke a cig and walked back in with zac !! i was very surprized . .=) soo the 4 of us hung out talked and what not for awhile then krissss went home ---> i dindt want her to be up there all night . . sinc eit was already 1 am ;) hah thanks for coming ohh yeah and staying !! =)). . around 3 something they took me into a room . .and took more blood . . of course had a problem findomg a dman vain . .soo i have a bazillion brusies like always =\ no fun . . but yeah my dad went to the car again to go back to sleep [[ zac nd danny<3 ]] had gone to get him to sing some papers . .soo we all sat around and watched tv . . danny was layin in my hospital bed with me . . [[ lol ]] trying to sleep . .and around 430ish we were all laying around half asleep even zac . . who had been extreamly intertained by the needles in my arm. .and the gloves !! . . =) he ended up going to his truck to sleep . and danny <33 slept in the bed . .around 530 we were woken up to take my testes . . wont go there =\ .. but we went back to the room and sat around for 20 minutes or so . . doctor offered me to chocies --> another 45 minutes or a fax . . ill take the fax !! . . so we got my stuff and left . .only to find out my dad had left . .and danny <3 nor myself had any money . . so zac paided for the copay --> thanks soo much !! .. i have to to give back to you . . next time i see you !! =)) and we all headed home . . for some slllllllleeeeeeeep god, was i tired .. i ended up being awoke at fucking 10am !! and had to run around and do shit so i got NO sleep . .=\ at work that night i felt miserable . . it was gayyy wayne told me i looked like i was going to die . .and he was worried lol. .and yeahh had a decent night tho . .untill i became 930 and i wanted ot go home . . and the second kitchen says . . take care of the last customer and clock out . .this guy walks in . .[[ he has long brown hair . .dirty . .leather jacket . .FREAKY looking ]] and runs up to the counter grabs my arm and yells call 911 !! call 911 !! call call . . so troy calls . and i back up enough to get him to release my hand . and he goes . . my wife is drunk . and she jsut beat the shit out of me . .he was actually pretty calm . .[[ shrugs ]] then . .he starts telling me abou7t how she stabed him last week and all this other bullshit . .and all the sudden this short skinny pregnant lady runs in black dirt marks all over her face . .bottom of her shirt a little torn . .and screams .. call 911 this man just raped me hes crazy call 911 this is a fucking emergancy call 911 !! and is screamin and cursing and carrying on . . .and starts to come around the counter threating me and screaming .. finally by that time kitchen came back from being outside and i wasnt by myself. .and pressed the button for the cops and scared her away from the counter . .and yea she walked outside as the cops pulled up . .and yeah the cop made me go outside and answer 300000000 questions and blah mucho drama with that and finally i got to go home . and went to fucking bed . .untill 12 cause danny <33 woke me up so we could talk.. even though he was paying more attention to his movie --> that he owns !! lol [[ shrugs ]] went back to sleep at 3 and then today ---> sunday <--- i woke up to go get thereasa's tounge periced butt that fell through . . so i went out to eat . . at . .urm ?! damn i cantr remember thats really sad . and annoying mee .. .whatever . . and then i drove aroudn did a few things, , got REALLY sick .. threw up for a good 3 hours [[ yuckie --> ickie ]]and headed to work, had an awesome night went by really fast !! =)) and that crack head guy .. walked by the store. . i got scared lol . . i tryed to sleep wen i got home but danny <33 wanted to talk =)) soo we talked for awhile then he headed off to zacs . .and im just bored . . but i think im going to hitt the hay in a few momentos . . im so beat . .
tomorrow is supposed to be just us, <33
hopefully goes thorugh . .
goodnight
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allxforxyou
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2005 24 April :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: let me love u remix
Everythings changed except for the way i feel about you <3!
So yeah i got a new woohu. Nobody has woohu anymore but still. Lets jus hope that i keep up cause i really miss woohu. Anyways thats all for now, its not the prettiest right now. But it'll work for now.
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 24 April :: 2.23am
:: Mood: restless
he never updated . .
so this is mine
nite
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2005 22 April :: 8.37am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: taking back sunday.
i get to leave work at 7 today :) im oh so happy :))) . i hooked up my best friend with a guy i like . but it dosent matter cuhz he dosent like me and she deserves a guy like him . :) im so fucking happy for her . :) i love her to death and i would much rather see her happy than myself . i want to go see bryce this summer . we'd have the best time . or he could come down here . i dont care . i wish guys like him lived down here . all guys want here is sex . not counting aj (anysias *my bestfriend* el boyfriendo. :) ) anyways ; im going to work till 7 :) then gunna see my el best friendo :) cant wait . well... later
YOU WHITE
im out and on the parkway , patient and waiting for headlights , dressed in a fashion thats fitting to the inconsistencys of my moods.
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2005 21 April :: 8.13am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: something corporate.
last night i was going to go to this wrestling thing with brittany . but i called her and she didnt answer but her phones being retarded so it wasnt her fault . anyways; i called leighanne so she came over and we were about to leave and we're like we dont wanna go cuhz we need to catch up . we havent seen/talked to eachother since my birthday *feb. 15* she used to be my very best friend . and ever since high school ; we totally lost touch . so we caught up . and we talked about alot of stuff . but before she came over my mom called crying . our convo .
me-hello? whats wrong ?
mom-do you remember alissa ?
me- yes how could i forget her?
mom- well she broke up with chewy *a really good friend of mine* so she could move somewhere else to start a new life.
me- Ok ?
mom- well a few nights ago she was murdered .
me- what ?!
mom- her and her friend were walking at 1:00 a.m. when 2 guys came up to alissa and tried to take her purse . *she was holding her and her friends purse* she resisted and the guy shot her in the head . she was on life support for a short time . and her family pulled the plug . and she died the same day .
me- ok bye .
mom - bye
i didnt cry for some reason . my eyes just got watery . it was weird . but yeah . nothing else to say for now .
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 21 April :: 12.33am
:: Mood: cold
you cant be in love alone
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2005 20 April :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: creative
i want to go to the kenny chesney and rascal flats concert SO BAD !!
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2005 20 April :: 8.31am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: something corporate. in my head.
im so tired of days that feel like they're night.
okay.. 2 days ago i got on the bus to go home and i went to my seat and i saw legs under the seat so i pulled on them and there was a doll .. then i found another one :) they were pretty damn ugly though lol . so i took one and put the body out and closed the legs in the window and did the same for the other doll on the other window . we got half way down the road and "chico" *the bus driver* goes "ehh ehh boy you take that down ." stupid bish . so i opened the window and let it fall out while we were going 438573495735 miles per hour :) then my friend kyle did the same for the other doll . it was funny. yesterday .. came to school ; nothing happened that i can remember . hector came home with me cuhz he got locked out of andrews and no one was home . went to my house . played slinter cell . which is an awesome game . kinda confusing . but it was cool . rents got home listened to "blue collar rides again" . GIT -R- DONE ! . haha i love larry the cable guy . hes bad ass . :) got ready for work ; went to work ; it was super busy for some odd reason . so i had stuff to do allllll night . :( normally thats my lazy work day ... but no people wanted food . god damnit . lol . talked with ben until we got slammed . you can tell when he has a lot of food to cook when he cusses at himself . its soo funny . lol . hes a cool kid though so .. yeah . listened to some hawthorne heights;something corporate;and some gangster lil` jon cuhh . on the ride home from work with ben dover . haha . love it . some car broke down and we had to keep stopping and going ; so ben kept swurving around.. im like what are you doing and hes like having fun .. and im just like okaaayy ? lol . so we got outta there just made a U--turn . and took us 3456907567 extra minutes to get home . but i didnt care cuhz i hate being home;and i wanted to listen to loud music . and ben makes me laugh lol . :) got home . me and ben went inside ; i changed into my PJ's ; watched like 45 minutes of meet the fockers ben left . i went to sleep . had a hard time waking up this morning . remembered ITS 420 !! hahaha . alison didnt come to school cuhz she wanted to be like the rest of the "cool" kids . even though she dosent smoke lol . wootevaaa . i wasnt gunna go to school but i need to pull my grades up .. :( tonight is this wrestling thing with teachers . its gunna be awesome . me and brittany are probably going . FAT FAASSE !! yaya . haha . well 1st period- did my work . im done Activity period- went to brittanys portable with ashley . went over by adam and rubbed his back for a bit cuhz he didnt feel good . brittany came and sat by me for a while then i went and sat by her and ashley . cuhz ashley was looking lonely . :( sat there and talked for a bit . then the bell rang and now we're in 2nd period- updating and being quiet . whoa i know me being quiet ?! hey it happens . :) brittanys a cheater . hah j/k i love that girl soo much . anyways ... this is wicked long .
later
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 19 April :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: cranky
i hate the doctors. .
they make you sit aorund for 3 hours . . and then talk to you for 10 minutes . .
. . point is--> i have 3 doctors appoinments next week
. . two the following . .
damn
i spent my night::
aty the doctors untill 6 . . and driving around untill 9 to find something for someone <3 but !! they wernt there =\ so they didnt get it . . and i dont think im going to give it to them . . cause i feel retarted ?!
. . thenn i spent a good 2 or 3 hours looking for tickets to::
kenny chesney
toby keith
rascal flatts
brad pasily
brooks n dunn
my chemical romance
good charlotte
green day
the used
3 doors down
. . . witch was a waste of time .. =\ no results
I REALLY WANT TO GO TO THERM ALL !!! . .
i want good seats . .and i guess it would help if i had someone to go wiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttthhhhhhhhh !!
god damn . . im cranky =(
i love you . .
goodnight guyssssssss
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2005 19 April :: 8.18am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: hawthorne heights.
spare me just 3 last words..
nothings been really happening lately. didnt do ANYTHING over the weekend. friday got in this huge fight with my dad in the car on the way home from work at 11:30 at night ! walk in the house screming at him and go in my room. mom comes in and says "you have a friend on the couch" and i was like "nu uh" and i was like "who?" and shes like "its hector" my dad came in my room screaming at me while hector was out on the couch. and i forgot he was there and started screaming back at my dad. 2 more hours down the drain. still screaming with my dad. tears were streaming down my face. i couldnt hold them in any longer and just exploded and started screaming so fucking loud. all my opinions about him. everything i hate about him. how he drinks too much. and how he has an anger problem and how he judges my friends way too fast. and talks shit about them. and how he judges what i wear. and makes fun of me for it. god i was so fucking pissed. i was cussing;screaming; i was about to lose it. so i went in my room layed on my bed and just cried. then i called my mom in to come lay with me. and i hugged her and said i was sorry. and shes started crying saying she was sorry. blah blah. then all of a sudden i felt like i was gunna puke. so i told her then shes like you can come sleep with me. and as i was crying.. i kept saying "no no im fine im fine ; i swear" until finally i just gave up and slept with her. oh i forgot to tell you about what happened with hector. well ; i went out by the couch and he wasnt there. i heard the door shut so i opened the door to say i was sorry that he had to listen to that. but he got in the car and drove away before i could say anything. i felt like shit. then i went to sleep with my moma dukes. i woke up with swollen eyes and crust around them. yumm ; eh` ? hahah . anyways . im getting my permit prolly tomorrow or thursday. cant wait. me and the rents have been ok so far this week. i work ALL weekend. my dad said i can bring a friend.. duh im bringing anysia lol. this is long. so im going to go .
later
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2005 18 April :: 8.47am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: from first to last. singing in my head.
i wanted to be that breath of fresh air, when everything smelled so insincere.
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cmnt bishes.
later
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2005 17 April :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: awake
that sparks been burnign longer . .and is becoming so much stronger
[( Basics)]
-Name: Ashley
-Nickname(s):ashh,bashy,twinks,huckaroo,love,ashy
-DOB:april 11th
-Hair Color:: brown
-Eye Color::hazel/green
-Hieght: 5'4
[(This or That )]
-Tv Or Movies- movies
-Pop Or Rock- rock
-PC Or Laptop- pc
-Aim Or Yahoo- aim
-Black Or White- black
-Prep Or Punk- pubj
[( Love Life )]
-Do You Have A Bf/Gf?- negative
-If So, How Long?-jkdnbhkg
-Crushing Or Loving- i love you <3
-Ever Been In A Relationship?- duh . .
-Ever Had Your First Kiss?- mhmm
-If So, When?-oh god . . ummm . .aziel
-The 1st Person You Ever Had A Crush On- SCOTT !!
-Your Dream Bf/Gf?- not goign there.
-Have a crush- yesem
-Have a chance- no ideaaa
[( Friends )]
-Craziest-rich
-Shyest- none
-Ditziest- lindsey
-Funniest-kriss. . lindsey
-Most Honest- fuck that
-Weirdest-lindsey
-Most Trustful-kitchen
-Known Longest-victor
-Just Like You-kriss. .
[( Random)]
Who was the first friend you've ever made?: princples office
Which friend have you've known the least?:hmm richie
Your most best friend ever? jenn jenn. . rubiano --> FUCK YOU =\
One of most memorable memories with a friend:"friend"-->i took 8 hundered and some pictures. . went broke . . and has the time of my life . . -->
and . ."swing swing" chirp !! wait whha? lmao
Who can you trust through your whole life?: no one
my daddy played a mean trick on me tonight =\\
blahhh . . anywho . . i had a good night at work --> wayne was in a good mood . .and i want to see _____* but i think thats going to be a no go . .
. . lindseys out with richie. .annnnddd i think shes ocming back here tonight who knows ?!?
---> last night. . i missed that =\
peace fuckerss
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 16 April :: 12.12am
:: Mood: annoyed
mwah haha
another hundered dollard spent on cds tonight !! <33
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