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2005 15 April :: 8.32am
:: Music: brittany =)
i love sonny moore ! <3
note to self: i miss you terribly . this is what we call a tragedy come back to me ; come back to me ; to me
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2005 14 April :: 8.13am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: something coporate. in my head.
grah !
got into a fight with my mom yesterday . heard her talking shit about me . she said i was a emo bitch that isnt going to do anything with my life . and then she came into my room . and i was like IM EMO AND IM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING IN MY LIFE ! dude... most of the time im in a good mood... thats until i get home . then im a "emo bitch" so my mom would say . she dosent even know what emo means . she acts like she knows everything... at home im either on the computer ; in my room sitting on the floor blarring rock/emo music ; or out doing something . and if someone pisses me off at my house i go in my room and listen to music . it releaves me . why cant she understand that ? if there was no such thing as the music i listen to id be in a mental institution taking paper clips out of the floor trying to cut myself so i wouldnt have to go threw such things this world has to offer . i dont really use this journal for anyone to comment . its my own personal journal . and if you wanna read it ... be my guest . later guys .
ashes just fall to the ground yeah we're only ashes
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2005 13 April :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: giggly
does it hurt you to think of me !? . .and how broken my heart is ?!
hey guys whats poppppppppppin ?! . . nadda lots new . . i havent worked since sunday and it feels so weird . . i was supposed to go to work today . . but ?? i had someone cover for me because i was so so tired . . becaus ei havent gone to sleep untill 3 30 and im up at 6 everyday since monday . . but its okay --> well worth it =). . .and i plan on doing it again tonight . . i dont know if im aloud to say why !? though . .?? makes me madd =X . . i was talking to josh and i almost said something and realized i didnt know if i should ??
gay .
anywho. . lindseys over at the hospital with james . . he hurt his foot . .HOPE YA FEEL BETTER KIDD !!. .shes really worried . .though ?? dunno why . .?! [[ shrugs ]]
OH YEAH !!
james <3 lindsey
4.12.05 =)
flavor of the week
----> my birthday was monday . . and it really blew . . big time . . like every year =\. . so much drama . .and fights . . arguments . . but it had a happy ending !! =))
tuesday i went out to dunner at the cheesecake factory YUMMMMMY !!
had fun . . <33 . . stayed out tunill 2ish again . .
school today was actually not to bad ---> besides the fact i slept in every class except law . . and sociology . .=) happen to actually like those classes . . after school i went and bought oceans tweleve . .and 3 more cds . . you know in the past month iv spent atleast 300 dollars on cds . .its great . .
chris and richie came over to talk to lindsey . . i sat inside . . i lost all respect for them . .and matt knows better then to show up . . alought . . he dosent care enough to . .they didnt stay long because . .they took a hint. . made me really frustrated . .
hmmm?? what else . .
my dsl is broken again . .damnit . . im thinkin since . no one will put the car in my name for me [[ TEAR !! ]] . . that ill save my money and buy a really nice computer . .and get rid of this piece of shit . .maybe first i should try to get the virus off . . with the stuff dell sent to me ?? lol . . whatever . . buying a new on is so much easier !!
welllllllllllllllllllll . . .thats my boring update on this life of mine . .
im off to find an adventure . .
yall besafe have fun . .
<33
ps. ITS YOUR TURN !! =))
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2005 11 April :: 8.33am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: bloodhound gang .
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i dont know if i should break up with josh ; i dont want to hurt him . i wrote him a note saying if anything happenes with us i still love him . i dont know what to do . i dont want a relationship right now . its too much for me =\ gaaaaa .
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2005 11 April :: 2.03am
:: Mood: chipper
i made a promise . . wich brings me here . .
. . ya kno what stinks though ?!
im not REALLY gunna update this . . untill tomorrow . . but this is an update SO it counts . . but im about to pass out . . and im waiting for you to say good night . .
thank you for the night though . .
i have " friend " again huh ?!
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2005 8 April :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: crazy
PROMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM !!!<333333333333333
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2005 8 April :: 8.36am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: brittanys beautiful voice =)
im the happiest ive ever been .
i broke up with robbie . =\ and i am currently going out with Josh =) hes perfect for me . Hes like an inch shorter than me but i dont care . i'll take pictures today at lunch then i'll post them on my LJ and on here on monday . later
i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake
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2005 6 April :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: theory of a dead man
he said . she said . no
god, i havent been in this thing in forever but thats alright =) . . been keepin myself busy. . and entertained. . and what not. .
anywho . . lets see whats been going on . .
monday ::
ran around . . did a few things getting ready to go to work . . i drop lindsey off at sals, richies sitting outsite "" im waiting for matt "" i guess hes gunna try to get a job there . . well the la chalete one . . alough he has a job bein a manager somewhere else ?! weirdO . .soo i left to go to papas ;) . . .got another fucking flat tire !! lmao . . i was pissed . . they didnt put it back in the right way so whatever. . i pulled over right behind payless . and i see matt drive by. . hes liek ash ?! whats wrong !! and pulled over and tryed to fix it but then hes like ahhh your gunna be late lets take you to work. . sooo him and richie took me to work thanks !! and bla bla i worked . .got off dad came to get my . . and then went out and chilled . . went and saw mike, and dan . . then went back to chris. . and colored !! hah <333
tuesday ::
called off work . .only to have an extreamly entertaining night . . =)
loved every second of it . .
well lets. .first went nd woke up matt chris and leah . .cause for some wackie reason they were all STILL sleeping at 4 fuckin o clock . . damn bitches lol . . stayed for like 45 minutes . . then went baCk to lindseys to have a "family dinner" .. yeah the two of us went over to sals and picked up food. . saw eric !! havent seen him inf forever !!. . i was really surprized he gave me a really big ol hugg and stuff it was cute <3. . we got back ate . . and went back to chrises, and of course ashley still has to see her movie. . soo after we chilled for a few hours . . its 8 something, and we drove around trying to find a time. . no one was fuckin playing it untill 945 so we didnt wanna wait . .matt and his girl met us up at the ice cream shop --> he stole my damn smoothie !! =\ . . i called 411 to find some movie times, and we decided to go to city place, so matt and leah got in his car, the rest of us got in mine. . were racing down i-95. . . and all the sudden i see lights flashing im like fuckkkkkkk... --> guys were getting pulled over.. i know it. . but the lights started fading and im like okaayyy maybe not, and then we all flipp out WHERES MATT !?? yeahh. . he got pulled over.. they started arresting him and shit [[ was on the phone with his girl ]] and they were flipping out on him, he was in the back seat in handcuffs, and hes liek did you know we were goign after the white mustang but you cut me off so you screwed that up for youreself, DID YOU KNOW THEM !! he of course said no to cover my ass ;) thaaannkkkksss .. anywho, so we went to richies untill everything settled. . and like an hour later [[ felt liek it anyways ]] matt and leah pulled up. . he got 10 points on his lisence. damnnnn and a 400 dollar ticket . . but hes gunna fight it because the sherrif said he was goin 115 and his fucking pieace of shit car. . only goes 100 . . soo whatever . . we all still wanna go to a movie by this time we can make the boynton 945 . . so we all head over there. . somewhere along the line troy showed up . . and followed too. .suddenly matt calls, and goes i got pulled over again meet us at that italint restraunt by target . .ill call "" click "" we all think wtf? leah was driving everythings okay . .hes makin it all up its just matts personality. . ya kno ?! so we sat in the parking lot of carrabbas, and waited for a call . . leah calls crying . .mumbbling only god knows what and hung up . . matt calls and tells us to call his mom . . suddenly the joke was over . . we were explaing everythign to matts mom on the phone, and we have her on the phone crying almost . .and matt is calling me back. ."" hahah im jokin !!"" soooooooo NOT FUNNY . . he got bitched at soo bad, and of course had to tell her about the points and the ticket, but there said fight it because there both police and think its bullshit . . yeah so whatever we finally got to our movie . . and we left 20 minutes befor the end of the movie . . because we had to go to my house to get a bizzilon sweaters and take chris and richie home [[ matt and leah had already left ]]. . and yeah we got back to lindseys and eric and tom were there to pick up the sweaters for kriss !! [[ GOOD LUCK SWEETHEART !! I FUCKING lOVE YOU !!! ]] yeah so he got the stuff, and we went inside, and liek 10 minutes later im like linds... hes still here !? so i walked outside . . and im liek whats wrong ?!
and he explain and i helped him for the next 20 minutes fix it =)
and then he took my bottle of smelly good stuff. . so he can use it for his sisters car while shes gone . so it stays "" girlie "" lol he promised to get me a new one . . causes hell prolly use it all . . no worries !! =))
today ::
same ol shit . . except doctors =(
and work . .
lindseys - sals - mike - them -
now im home happy and about to go to bed !!
debating on pictures. . . hmmm ?!
<33 you !!
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2005 6 April :: 7.22am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: ruthless.
i finally know now what i shouldve known then ; and i can still be ruthless if youd let me .
Well ; my last entry wasn't exactly true . I found everything out afterschool when I went over Robbies house . Everyone's just talking shit about him becuhz thats the way he "used" to be . I supposedly changed him ; says Hector . If it wasn't for Hector me and Robbie probably wouldn't be going out right now . But anyways ; he used to be all for sex and now all of a sudden he wants a relationship with me . I'm going to believe it for now . But in the next week or so ; if he says he wants to have sex and shit . hahahaha . I'm breaking up with him . I made it totally clear for him and his stoner head to understand im not like that lol . I'm so nice I know . =) But ; everythings okay with us . Thank god ; cuhz the last thing I need is DRAMA . I'm allergic . Last night I went to work . And ; had some pretty weird conversations with Ben ; my dads friend I work with . Hes 20 . Hes like my brother . =) He's a cool kid . Well ; this a wee bit long . thanks to all you that care . i love you .
ps. i love britt (=
later
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2005 5 April :: 7.08pm
:: Mood: busy
ill be the one to pick you up, when you cant take it..
.. you know when your heart stops racing
when you fall to your knees thinking you just cant take it
the nights you wish you were somebidy else
the days you wish you were some place else. .
---> all you'll have to do is look to me, and ill hold your hand saying " yeah baby, your gunna be alright"
. . . . hope my help . . helped you tonight ;)
<333
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2005 4 April :: 7.37am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: taking back sunday.
its times like these when silence means everything and no one is to know about it.
spring break was sweet . im going out with robbie now . i think im gunna break up with him . . all he wants is sex and reefer . and thats not what i want . he lied to me . . he said he wanted a relation ship . did he think all the people at my bus stop wouldnt tell me all the things he says ? hah . they tell me every fucking thing . he lives by me . yeah so im going to find out one way or another . i found out this morning he made up something that i said . he told his brother andrew that he asked me if we could have sex with me . and i supposedly said "yeah in a couple weeks" ?! wtf ?! im totally not having sex with him . he was probably stoned ; as usual god . i freaking want an emo guy . godddddd . i can never find Mr. Right . i think hes dead . we'll never find eachother . EVER !!!!!! heres a picture. hope you guys like it . comment and tell me what i should do . thanks
later
robbie .
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2005 2 April :: 1.12am
:: Mood: cold
im sos sick of the hospital
this feeling
blah.
anywho its finally friday an im so freakin happy, no plans tonight. just sleep, weell needed sleep
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2005 31 March :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: crushed
im so broken
you cut a scar so deep inside me it wont ever heal
promises have been broken
lies have been told
honesty has been abandoned
but what do i do ?! . .
do i leave you alone ??
not talk to you at all
fight for what we believe in ?!
forgive sins, move on
sit back--> watching her make you smile
i need you to get through . .
can we sit down and talk ?!
let everything out, scream and fight , laugh and __
put all fronts aside, and everything all out.
tell the whole truth. everything ever done wrong
isnt that what we want ?!
the truth ?!
or do i say no thats okay . .
shes gunna make you your happiest some day ?!
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2005 30 March :: 3.28pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: taking back sunday.
of all the things we've been through
all the nasty words we said
and the making up
and the fights
and the hatred in our voices..
all comes down to what we have
and what we have is far more important than any other friendship
you know exactly what im about to say before i say it
i know you love me and i know you know i love you
but why of all people did you pick me?
me of all people?
me to tell your secrets to
me to listen to cry on the phone when your boy friend breaks up with you
even though i've made you cry and made you want die inside...
remember these words that i mean oh so truley
you are my best friend..
and you will forever be that.
i love you alison.
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