I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling. And all the playful misspellings. And every bite I gave you left a mark. Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.

 

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:: 2004 26 April :: 3.33 pm
:: Music: The Cruxshadows - Here Comes the Rain Again

mmm.
kaaate...I stole YOUR orange magnet! BA HA HA. it smells like oranges and its kinda squishy. i bet you are freaking out right now because you dont know where it is well its MINE so dont go looking for it!

yes well, today was awesome. im not sure why it just was.

6 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 24 April :: 7.00 pm
:: Music: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Tick

eye tests make me laugh.
so i got my eyes tested..the doctor was like "you have perfect vision" and im all..umm no..i cant see then hes like "..with glasses." hardy har har. fucker. messed with my mind. so yes..i need to suffer a few more weeks before they come in and such.

i bought a very interesting book, Revolution On Canvas [poetry from the indie music scene]. so that will take up some of this ever so boring free time on my hands.

later.

9 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 22 April :: 3.09 pm

a taste of what i live for..
the Against Me! concert was last night. it was awesome. feeling the sweat and spit, being so close to the stage you could touch the band members, getting pushed non-stop, feeling the ground shaking as people held the amps so they wouldnt fall because of all the energy, studying how fast they ream on those guitars. its what i live for.

i love music. i wish i could go to shows like that every night.

i fell in love with a boy named Nick ..not really, hes just...*sighs*attractive. and thats the understatement of the year.

love.. stacy

3 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 17 April :: 12.34 am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Nothing gets crossed out

lets make this simple now kittens..
ask me three questions about anything..

yeah. i want to be like the cool kids, don't make fun of me.

s to the tacy

27 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 16 April :: 4.46 pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

:)
so im taking drivers training in May..how scary is that? the reason im telling you is because i want to know if anyone i know is taking it in May..so tell me bitches.

anywhore..i got a letter from Joey (Domina) today. it made me happy since hes in the Army, its good to hear from him. its funny because i was just telling michelle that i missed him today. he told me some stuff..so if you know him and care: Read more..

thats all, later.

2 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 15 April :: 7.50 pm
:: Music: Thursday

a rant..
i am sick of people telling others they cut themselves. the people known as "cutters."

i don't have a problem with people cutting themselves..go ahead, cut yourself up. the thing that bothers me is people telling everyone that they do. if you are telling people you are trying to get attention.

"oh i cut myself today" .. "i cant find my razor blade"

shut the fuck up.

if you're gonna cut yourself for your own reasons..i dont care. just don't tell everyone and try to show off your scars.

love stacy

23 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 12 April :: 10.34 pm

get over it, because its starting to piss me off.
the funny thing is..the people that dont like "emo" music whine more about how they hate it than the actual fucking music supposedly does.

so do us ALL a favor and shut the hell up.
:)

5 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 10 April :: 2.18 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - All of the Truth

some random quotes and short conversations that were said..(continued from the last time i posted quotes: 1-18-2004).

Read more..

9 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 8 April :: 12.33 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes- The Movement of a Hand

im finally 11..and i was so sick of being 9..
i have decided against paying the $2 to save my woohu journal. allows way too many people to be dramatic anyways. if hes gonna be a fuck and delete my accounts, even though i have been a user since it started i hope he atleaste enjoys it. [dont comment about what i just said if you dont agree because no one cares about what you have to say ;) ]
i'll just move all my entries to smog, because thats free.


anywhore..for an update. my birthday was dandy. i think my maturity level even decreased a few points, but hey i can now legally have sex (update:allow me to correct myself, 17 is the legal age) not that i will..im no whore. i also learned jumping on a tredmill is not a good idea, it even kinda hurts..a lot. i havent slept at all since 8am wednesday, (so excuse any spelling errors) and im still wide awake..

signing off..with a much too long of an entry..

stacy
*whispers...poppycock* hehe.

10 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 7 April :: 12.06 am

sooo. i am now officialy 16. im trying to act excited. but im not. hah. denee' is the first to say happy birthday, so go her.
..even though i dont like it being said to me.

night kids.

[blocking comments so all you fucks who forgot cant pretend like you remembered]
..kidding of course. (not really).


:: 2004 3 April :: 4.14 pm

hmm...
well my birthday is wednesday. my mom is having it at some hotel i guess..but we will be in grand rapids so i want people (other than the girls staying there with me) to come but uh..i dont think people will drive all the way to grand rapids to see me, for some reason im doubting im that important.

umm...i hope to hang out with some people tomorrow..so if you want to hang out...do tell me.

adieu

4 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 30 March :: 3.41 pm
:: Music: The Beatles - Let it be

do da do.
hmmm..my birthday is in 8 days. still dont know what the plans are. i want to have some sort of party. yeah. all i want is a giraffe. come on, someone can manage to pull that off right?

[ edit: report card received; 5 A's 1 C ] : )

signing off..the considerably unavailing, stacy

4 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 29 March :: 8.06 pm

part of a song..
you're down for selling me out. while i play dumb, but it's cool because i let you, you thought i'd never catch you, you said "we're only friends" yeah, real good friends, i bet. i bet.
-Taking Back Sunday/The Ballad Of Sal Villanueva


:: 2004 25 March :: 11.28 pm
:: Music: coheed & cambria

i want a giraffe damnit.
skelletones kicked so much arm tonight. forever december fucking owns. happy hour was good too. anywhore..i better be getting some sleep..school tomorrow. night kiddies.

2 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 25 March :: 4.45 pm

you stupid fucks. go to skelletones tonight. i dont care if you dont have a ride. get over it, walk.

3 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 24 March :: 8.11 pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

"all of my friends would trade me in for a decent candy bar."


:: 2004 23 March :: 6.33 am
:: Music: Blink 182 - Carousel

everyone who took this quiz said it was accurate, so i took it and it seems pretty correct to me.
if you care..
Read more..

1 kid | you worry too much


:: 2004 20 March :: 3.51 pm
:: Music: Brand New- Sudden Death in Carolina

mmm.
no one is online. life seems so dull lately. went to skelletones last night. saw some really crappy bands, it made for some good entertainment.

whats new?..you ask. um..lisa cant drive safely..wait..thats no news. ;) just kidding lisa..(not really). anyways..sign my guest book. later whores.

1 kid | you worry too much


:: 2004 16 March :: 4.06 pm
:: Music: Forever December

im cool you're not. ha.
so today lisa was driving and she pulls out of burger king, and is all like "woah! cars"..made me feel safe. ;)

yeah. im bored. so are you, i know it..because if you werent you wouldnt be reading stupid online journals. anyways, im leaving..talk to you later bitches.

2 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 13 March :: 10.44 am
:: Music: Pink Floyd- another brick in the wall

hey, teachers, leave them kids alone!
well tonight i go to the play..shall be fun(if i can find a ride). its fun hanging out with those crazy kids. i dont know what im gonna do today..im bored out of my mind already and its only 10. *shrugs*

so if anyone cool wants to hang out..or something let me know. ;)

7 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 9 March :: 4.46 pm
:: Music: AFI

the bunnie says meow.
you would think i would be somewhat sad, maybe even a little angry..but im not. and it kinda scares me. ah well.

i cant stop smiling..lets hope it lasts. i am content. its nice..god i hope tomorrow turns out.

i have been looking at my blank schedule for a few days..and i finally have it filled out. im shocked i got into both of the classes i really wanted. next year im gonna have to take a few things more seriously. but i know i can..who cares who ever doesnt think i can. i know i can so take that. hah.

5 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 8 March :: 8.29 pm

too many updates for one day..
so this random aol person starts talking to me..and turns out im not as "down" as i thought i was.

LEPUDGE90: who is diss???
stacy: dis be yo mom
LEPUDGE90: w/e
LEPUDGE90 : yo psming like woah..
stacy: word. home skillet.
LEPUDGE90: what up?
stacy: i be chillin at da holiday inn
LEPUDGE90: holiday? u mean holla dai innn
stacy: my bad

atleaste i tried..right?

6 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 8 March :: 7.47 pm

:)

that was the best unexpected visit i could have gotten from a boy wearing a hat with pink bunny ears. haha.

3 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 8 March :: 4.40 pm

so i was walking down the road and there was this dog..
i got accepted to tv productions and you didnt...HA!

3 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 7 March :: 12.42 pm
:: Music: Tool

read it. i dare you.
weekend was alright. didnt get to see anyone..when i dont see my friends i tend to go crazy. if only some made any effort at all to see me..or if i made any effort to see them. yes well..hmm..

im not even in the play and im gonna miss play practice, i liked hanging out with all those crazy kids. this day is gonna waste away..*shrugs*

its snowing. i hate snow.

my mom asked me an interesting question today. well not really..she asked me who my best friend was. i had no answer. she asked me who i hang out with in school and i said guys..then she replied with a "good." turns out she also believes guys are better friends.(no one give me that "i thought i was your best friend" shit either, i dont want to hear it). if i had one i would know who it is. so as it turns out..i dont really have any close friends. maybe like two. maybe.

its hard to forget when you dont want to. it is also hard to not worry when you care too much.

6 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 3 March :: 5.01 pm

go away. then stay there.
nothing makes a crappy day better than an even crappier ending to go along with it..am i right? i didnt think so..

7 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 29 February :: 5.13 pm
:: Music: Hot Hot Heat- Bandages

just me. talking waaaay too much.
if you go to the grocery (i hate that word..its so odd) store..make sure you are not hungry..you will want everything. i made my mom buy stuff i dont even eat. than my mom leaves me by the bulk candy..and everytime she looked at me i was eating different candy so she kept yelling at me..you also may be tempted to just grab something out of the cart and eat it..and than become paranioid because the workers are glaring at you. yes well..it made it a not fun trip to the store today..wow i talk a lot. well too bad for you..because you're gonna keep reading it expecting something important (there wont be anything important).

i went to church today. i felt nice to go..im gonna go every sunday from now on. however i have a few thoughts on the donating money thing. if you care..read this: Read more.. if you dont care..i hope you have a nice day anyways, later.

15 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 27 February :: 3.04 pm
:: Music: Coheed & Cambria- The Crowing

hey look at me, im cool.
finally the weekend..it has seemed this week has been one of the longest weeks of my life..yes well..anyways.. the concert kicked a lot of ass. the bands were all really good. i really liked Forever December and Clearly Blind. it was nice to see robby and dusty playing again, they put on an awesome show. i hope they play again soon..and hey i saw where the lead singer said he puked, yeah he didnt lie, haha. i would also like to add i enjoyed the TBS cute without the e cover..it rocked. i am proud. ;)

anywhore..i may go to the game tonight..anyone care to join me? while joining me would you like to bring me there and bring me home? haha..yeah didnt think so. later kids.

3 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 25 February :: 4.46 pm

i quit.
people bother me. a lot.

12 kids | you worry too much


:: 2004 24 February :: 4.15 pm

KEVIN SPILLED THE POP!
i actually had something to say when i clicked update journal, now i cant remember what it was..so im gonna update anyways..wait..i have a theory..the only reason people read my journal is because they fear i may diss their grandma..and no one wants their grandma getting dissed...really. your grandmas old. so ha.

8 kids | you worry too much

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