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| christini (profile) wrote, on 7-13-2003 at 7:53pm | |
| Current mood: worried Music: mae - soundtrack for our movie Subject: eh. |
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| today kinda stunk. well it was indifferent. last night me and emy got into anothrer "fight" if you will.. or whatever you want to call whatever that is we do.. i guess it was partly my fault though.. i kinda snapped at him.. cuz he left to go call some of his friends after talking to me for like 10 minutes with half his attention when ive been gone for 5 days.. and i guess i was also upset cuz he didnt email me or anything while i was gone and.. it just seems as if he never has time for me.. and then i tell him how i feel.. and heslike no i always have time for you cuz i love you.. and then he doesnt really do anything about it.. and it gets me upset.. and worse.. it gets me thinking.. and thinking for me isnot good. so today i woke upfeeling kinda bad about snapping at him.. and i wrote him an email.. and i left a message up for him to check his mail and he still hasnt written back.. so i dont know. but other than that.. i cleaned out all the junk from my room.. all thats left is furniture. which my dad said he'd move for me.. so for the next few days ill be living here in the office/guest room .. and then we went to home depot where we spent ohhhhh about 3 hours. no exxageration. he is suuuuuch a slow shopper. the only reason i actually went was to get my paint.. its purty :) .. that was the high point of my day.. then we went to Tom's .. and came home cuz pinchapenny was closed.. and i ate.. a lot.. i was sohungry.. and then i just hung out in here playing snood and surfing the web .. kinda hoping emy wouldve come on.. i guess not.. i hope hes not mad at me.. and if he is.. i hope we can work things out tonight.. im so depressed.. i need to fix this. i feel like i dont have anyone anymore.. well besides andrea.. i know its just my messed up head.. but it feels like everyones moved on from me.. like emy.. we all know that story.. sammy has summer school... liz is in new york.. rachels always at the gym or surfing or something.. and everyone else im just really not that close with that i really wanna hang out with them i guess... its not that i dont want ot hang out with any other people.. but im just used to those 5 or so.. but i just feel so alone right now . i miss him . :( |
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pandrea | 07-13-03 8:28pm u know u always have me...:) |
colombiana | 07-13-03 8:41pm thanx christine.. makes me feel special =*[ |
christini | Re:, 07-13-03 8:44pm nooooo thats not what i meant natalia !! you know i love you !! it was just those few people i was used to seeing every few days.. im sowry i phrased it wrong :( |
colombiana | Re: Re:, 07-13-03 8:48pm it's ok.. just remember i AM here for you.. =] |
christini | Re: Re: Re:, 07-13-03 8:55pm i know :) .... i love u natalini ! |
rachel | 07-13-03 10:44pm nini!!! what r u talking about!! psh i only do those things cause i got freaking nothing else to do! u gimme the time n place n we can get together... do it asap! lol see ya |
Lizzy | 07-14-03 3:50pm i wish i was there to do stuff with u 2! (lol not perverted...) i miss u! i'm sry i've been "blowing you off" online, just every time i talk to you i end up having to leave suddenly for something. but feel better and te amo! i'll be home soon...well semi-soon |
pinkyfers | 07-14-03 4:23pm dont let him bring you down so much! everyone loves you and you have so many friends and we'll always be there for you...so feel better :) |
christini | Re:, 07-17-03 10:27pm thanks everyone.. u guys are the best |