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sushininja (profile) wrote,
on 7-19-2003 at 1:16am
Current mood: depression...
Music: Sleep
So, I was talking with someone...about my damned relationship status...I am always alone, always lonely...why can I not find someone who likes me as I do them? Why is it so hard for them to like me? What do I do wrong? What does every single female I have ever liked find wrong in me? I wish I knew, so maybe I could be happy...maybe they just think I am some sex crazed freak...which couldn't be further from the truth...I don't give a shit about sex or anything like that...call me what you want, I don't give a fuck...but all I would like to have is someone to console and to care about, someone to have good, quality times with and not be worried about anything...to have someone that has an effect upon you that just melts all the cares of the world away and all you feel is pure elation...I need someone to love, truly to love...I don't care if I get my dick sucked or not, or if I get into her pants, because that is not what is really important in life...it is not what is important to me, not in the least bit...it isnt what makes the world go round, it wouldn't make me happy...I'm not depressed because I'm sixteen and have never been kissed, nor laid...I'm depressed because I am so alone...

"the sun don't shine
the wind won't blow
when you go hide
without your love
i'm lonely
deep inside"
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shiznit05

07-20-03 2:24pm

thats really nice doug, its nice to know not all guys want sex all the time, but doug realize this...you are not alone, you have friends, we're always here, just call one of us up whenever you feel lonely and 10 bucks says we're bored too and then come hang out, we dont care we're your friends

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crazyweaver05

07-20-03 11:13pm

alright i have two things to say that might turn out to be three but i won't be sure of that until i finish...okay:
#1- i agree with brittany, totally with her on that one, you have great friends who like to have you around most of the time...hopefully that part doesn't depress you more
#2- as someone once told me maybe instead of trying to find someone who likes you like you like them, maybe you should learn to like yourself first, then when you like who you are, other people will like you for that aspect, hopefully thats not too confusing, i understand it but then again i'm writing it.
and the infamous #3- now that we all know that you can write these kind of feelings maybe you should actually try to show them. like maybe being nicer too people and being considerate, and don't get me wrong sometimes you can be but...maybe you should try harder, but not for anyone else but you

haha listen to me!! i'm just as fucked up as he is and yet i'm giving him advice, what kind of world are we living in?!?!

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