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| imation (profile) wrote, on 8-17-2002 at 2:01pm | |
| we're staying a few more days... til monday to be exact. never got to see my brother last night- got lost and driver decided it was too far away to drive back to. got into a bad mood. walked around a park with Kevin... didn't really enjoy anything much last night until late. i wrote for an hour and a half while everyone was sleeping/talking... hopefully i can see kevin tonight... lillian and allie both have family dinenrs so elyse and i are on our own. i wish i knew ben or kevin's number... shit i need a ride to my brothers.... god my mind cannot stop thinking about what i need to do. i just need to stop.. relax... something.. i had no journal last night in the living room, so i found some Claritin sticky papers and used 18 of them to write down some stuff.... reading through what i wrote last night... last night was insane... on the way away from the park to Kevin's car, i called shotgun, and my friends started giggling behind me... witbrodt's party all over again.. allie said under her breath, but loud enough for me to hear, "i called it awhile ago".. which made me feel like shit because then i just felt like i was taking one of their guy's or something when we're all just kind of friends with him... we met him this week... what is the big deal? i don't know. two nights ago when i invited him back to swim, he hadn't even met allie or elyse or lil. why do they feel if i want to hang out with him and get to know him that i automatically am shafting them in some way? is this what friends do? ..ehh i missed lowell when i was with kevin. hot guy, dark park, playing the question game after smoking... and i'm walking around, missing lowell. grrrr. even though absolutely nothing happened, and he probably wasn't in to me at all anyway- god i could never even tell anyways. it could be right in front of my face and i would deny the hell out of it. ehh sigh.. who knows. but now i have a few more days to figure this out and i don't even know if i should- my friends obviously didn't like it last night too much, and i'm not gonna risk them getting pissed at me or anything. sigh. this is so fucking trivial. random things that have happened: -elyse smoked weed and a djarum. yay for newcomers. -Raconelli's in webster is good eatin.. -saw Dylan Kwapy- had to stop by nathan's and he was there. never really wanted to see him after ms. got angry when i saw him- threw a paintball at his car, but not hard enough to splatter. -found out kevin doesn't have a girlfriend... -core project/duke 45 concert tonight- i wanna go.... ...friends are calling for lunch. gotta run. |
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leftofcool | 08-17-02 4:50pm wanna get lunch sunday or monday? i have to work tomorrow from 3-10 at the pool. let me know. |
imation | Re:, 08-17-02 5:53pm yeah, lets do it. give me a call at 863 7850 or allies line- 9180504. hope to hear from you soon. |
DayDream | 08-17-02 10:25pm I'm confused. First of all, I wasn't trying to say anything under my breath last night. I was just acting stupid. I was 30 feet above the ground and had just run that whole field. Second of all i had a great time last night, and i think Lil and Elyse did too. And yes, he is into you, it is in your face, and you are denying the hell out of it. Thirdly, if you don't call him tomorrow and ask him to do something, i will be forced to take action...heh. You are gonna have to explain why you were thinking about Lowell when you were with and insanely sweet and hot guy last night. Screw Brian, he can talk you up all he wants and vice-versa...we all know Brian's still in love with you...so call him, and if you don't, i will. |
dredhead5000 | 08-19-02 1:43pm hooray for elyse!! |