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| sweetyas (profile) wrote, on 8-26-2003 at 8:39pm | |
| Current mood: sore Music: None Subject: school |
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| I dont know what it is about me that disappoints me, i mean when i look at myself i hate me. i wish i was better u know what my parents want, i dont think ill ever reach that. ive worked so hard, u know being in honors and everything, i mean i tried i cant stand it. ive honestly had enough, i wanna drop all my honor classes and just take regular u know. like math i actually like it because i get it, i can sit there and understand. but today was like crap. we had physics, we did our first lab, and i was the idiot of the group i had no idea what to do i mean honeslty i have no idea what a vector is adn what is its magnatide. i dont care. i honestly hate physics, stupid stupid teachers, why ddint they just let me take biology! i mean its the smae aint it, but no lets ruin yasamins life and not offer it at the right time. i wanna take chem again. i need more regular classes, where i dont notice my brain thinking u know. a class that i believe i can get a B in u know, not my stupid ol ass classes. i hate me. i dont want to be me. im not close to as good as my parents standards. u have no idea how much that hurts. when i asked my dad to switch classes i just broke down and cried, i cant stand that. i dotn want to worry about them, uknow they got my brothers maybe they can reach their expectations u know. i wanna just drop out of school and be a perminant tech. its so much easier u know, and slowly ill be in charge. i wanna sleep. ive had enough for one day u know. alright, im gonna do my hw now. oh god i hate school. | |
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mudpiegrl | 09-01-03 4:35am dont hate yourself, you have nothing to hate. your talents lie in other areas and you try to excel yourself from blank to over achieving in no time. it takes work. you can do what you need to in those classes, its just things arent immediate to you and so you think you are stupid...which, if i may point out, is totally untrue. |