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threshershark (profile) wrote,
on 8-27-2003 at 9:08pm
I guess I just don't know who I am anymore. I want to be myself, but I don't know who that is. I'm sure Kyle has something to say, he doesn't always just sit there silently whether people are joking, talking to eachother about cards, or blasting everything he stands for. He wouldn't do that, no one should do that. I'm pretty sure he wouldn't need to make jokes out of everything that comes along, especially sense he's not that funny. I'm pretty sure he wouldn't just think about himself all the time, that he'd actually care about others. I'm almost positive he has better posture.

I guess I lost myself in my search to find something else to hide behind, other than the only thing that served me well- the faith given to me. I definetly need to change, maybe retrace my steps a bit, go back to Him that freed me from what I'm in danger of subjecting myself to. God, tear off this dragon skin flesh and show me who you wanted me to be...

But of course I need to commit myself to spending time with him. You can't get well if you never step into the docter's office. Man, this is tough.
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Angel_Bob

08-27-03 10:19pm

I didn't know who Rachel was for the longest time. I swore she was quiet, shy and perfect.

But she isn't.

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1010101

08-27-03 11:02pm

I think we all go through a period in which we forget who we really are...

We create so many visions of what we are, and what we want to be, that eventually we get them confused with our own selves. In a certain sense, he who plays the fool, may unknowingly become the fool.

I wish I could tell you who you are, but I honestly only know who I am. Just keep praying for guidance, but don't stop there, seek God's guidance, look carefully for what he might be telling you, because (at least in my experiences) he doesn't always guide one through immediately obvious means. That's how I figured out who I am at least...

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