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threshershark (profile) wrote,
on 9-11-2003 at 8:54pm
It seems like whenever I look up to someone or want to get to know someone they end up not liking me for some reason or going away. I guess I'm... no, no I'm not going to think about myself anymore. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks. God loves me and that's all that matters. He's always there for me even when people leave. I guess some devil's just been bugging me and trying to get me to blow all that out of perportion and forget about God.

But still it seems like just when I need someone they're taken out of my life.

Maybe God's testing me, to get me to trust in Him without training wheels.

Oh well. Reboot, start at default agin- trust God to take care of me. It's all I need.
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Shinigami

09-11-03 9:05pm

You can make it through Kyle, we're all here to help you when you need it.

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threshershark

Re:, 09-11-03 9:11pm

Thanks, Jackie. It does make me feel better when I hang out with you guys.

It's just sometimes I have these paranoid delusions that everyone's judging me. It's like there's someone always whispering to me, "They don't like you Kyle because you're all messed up. You'll never get better and they know it. That's why they'll never talk to you again or see you again."

I've heard the demons prey off of human anguish.

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1010101

Re: Re:, 09-11-03 9:31pm

We all have that stupid paranoid voice. You just have to learn that anyone that judges you like that is most commonly not worth knowing...

I'm glad to hear we make you feel better, and if people seem to continuously abandon you, well, just keep going. God will look out for you, and he will insure that everything will work out for you in the end.

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Angel_Bob

09-11-03 9:55pm

People won't love you if you don't love yourself.

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beretta

Re:, 09-12-03 7:16am

eh, steve!

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threshershark

Re: Re:, 09-12-03 4:05pm

Nice try, Ben but I don't think you could top that Homsar guy.

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threshershark

Re:, 09-12-03 8:42pm

True. :)

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threshershark

09-12-03 3:52pm

Thanks... but what I mean is that they're probably NOT judging me, it's just my mind makes up all these stupid things about people to fill in the blanks. I don't know what's in their hearts. It's not my place to judge what they're thinking. But if I keep going on with it and making up all these things about them I end up embittered.

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