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danibean (profile) wrote,
on 9-12-2002 at 10:12pm
Current mood: eh.... screw moods
Music: africa...my song
this basically sums up what i'm feeling.... it should anyways...

danibean05: gosh life could be so much better
SischoKid2006: yeah it could
danibean05: i have so much on my mind rightnow
SischoKid2006: yeah
danibean05: are you ok?
SischoKid2006: yup
danibean05: ok
SischoKid2006: u?
danibean05: not really
SischoKid2006: need to talk about it?
danibean05: yeah
danibean05: but i dunno....i'm really confused right now
SischoKid2006: well im all ears
danibean05: well i dunno andy... it's just i miss ryan sooooooo much and i cried myself to sleep AGAIN and i hate doing that
SischoKid2006: aww
danibean05: and it's like he's the perfect person for me and it just hurts so much that i can't be with him
SischoKid2006: im sorry
danibean05: thanks
SischoKid2006: yeah...
danibean05: long distance sucks ducks
danibean05: it's hard
SischoKid2006: to the max
danibean05: and i'm always thinking about him
danibean05: oh..last night was the worst because i was just lying in bed crying, and i grabbed jarvis (the gorilla he gave me) and i grabbed his hand...but jarvis wouldn't grab it back and i just wanted ryan sooooooo much
SischoKid2006: aww
SischoKid2006: its all so saddening
danibean05: sometimes i think i'm just living in this fantisy world...like maybe ryan doesn't exist
danibean05: he's just in my head
SischoKid2006: heh'
SischoKid2006: prince charming
danibean05: yep...that's him
danibean05: and if there was someone in cedar i would go for him
danibean05: or even like in the vicinity of cedar
SischoKid2006: heh, yeha
SischoKid2006: yeah*
danibean05: but...i'll always compare them to ryan
SischoKid2006: heh
danibean05: ARG ANDY!!!!
danibean05: why do things have to be like this????????
SischoKid2006: because lifes a bitch
danibean05: it is
danibean05: and my mom is being gay too
SischoKid2006: heh...

yeah... um... that's about it. gnasd
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charlie

09-13-02 11:39am

"and my mom is being gay too"

I don't know if I've said this before, but do you think you could avoid using the word "gay" as a slur? It really offends me


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Tanya

09-14-02 6:36pm

oh dani....
that's beautiful.
sad and heart renching, yes, but wow. i want to cry. i'm sure he feels the same way. (insert his distance from you here) miles away, he's thinking of you and wondering what you're doing and wishing for the day when you two will be together again.

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danibean

Re:, 09-15-02 12:25am

thanks tanya... you always make me feel better about things :) we seariously need to get together SOON!!! maybe we can catch up at homecoming if you and ryan aren't too caught up in each other ;) anyways... i'll see you on monday :)

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skibunny08

ryan, 09-14-02 7:21pm

hey it is too bad your relationship is long distance that really bites

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Anonymous

i dunno, 09-14-02 8:47pm

at least u actually talk to ryan. i don't talk to anyone, not even nick , on the internet anymore. i am more alone than you are so why are u complaining?

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danibean

Re: i dunno, 09-15-02 12:18am

brianna- i'm not complaining in the slighest bit!!! i just needed to vent. and of course i'm going to miss him! and you do have nick's # so you could call him. hope you're having fun with basketball!

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Anonymous

Re: Re: i dunno, 09-28-02 5:55pm

I'm sorry. I really know hoiw much you like Ryan. Iguess I'm just mad about everything right now. I don't have Nick's # anymore cuz i threw it away cuz i figured i would never call him anyways (and I'm not going to!. well I hope things evntually work out between u and Ryan.

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