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| DayDream (profile) wrote, on 9-17-2002 at 3:39am | |
| Current mood: Unhappy Subject: Wow, this is old. |
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| Every morning when i wake up I wash my face. And while my eyes are closed I hope the ugliness washes away with it. But when I look back in the mirror the same lost and confused girl stares back at me. I put my clothes on fix my hair and makeup. I try to cover my confusion with trendy products and bullshit laughs and smiles. I check in the mirror once more just to make sure that what stares back at me is still that low self-esteemed wannabe that has for years. It's still her. Still the ugly fat girl that chokes back her tears everyday. Still the confused one who has no one to turn to. I wonder how many meals more i have to skip and lie about. How much longer i need to starve myself until i'm one of the pretty girls. How many more times will i make myself believe that it will all be worth it someday. I say it over and over again. Life's like a big play but i'm the only one without a script or wardrobe department. I try counting how many things are worth living for anymore. I don't get very far before i have to leave for the next show i wasn't cast in. |
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snickerslickers88 | 09-17-02 5:42pm did you write that? if you did, we need to talk...you know i hate it when you feel like that |
DayDream | Re:, 09-17-02 6:21pm Yea, i wrote it. But back in 7th grade or so. I was looking through an old journal and found it. You know part of it's still always there, but it's ok for the most part. |
| snickerslickers88 | Re: Re:, 09-18-02 4:59pm ok good, i was like whoa what happened? |
| Anonymous | 11-13-02 8:04pm i remember that poem... |
DayDream | Re:, 11-13-02 11:26pm Unfortunatly, so do i. |