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Upchuck (profile) wrote,
on 3-12-2002 at 6:14pm
Current mood: frisky
Music: "Keep Your Hands to Yourself" Georgia Satellites
Long day, but good day. Coach Smith was really sick so practice was cancelled :( . I'm not happy about that because that gives us even less time to evaluate talent. Oh well.

If you were around me during pit practice today you'll recognize that song becasue I was singin' it loud between the second and third time we did Act Two.
Up-date on the ex. She commented that I was in a good mood and I told her I usually was. So she was like, for the last month and a half, actually the last month I replied. Since we've been forced apart I feel so much more free and I'm a lot more happy.

Brenda prefers Chevy's, too bad.

I'll never live down what I said in English today. I guess a lot of people who don't know me take me the wrong way. I'm loud and boisterous alot but I am a horrible hopeless romantic. I do hate all the gushy love stuff but I really seek to find that perfect girl (note: if this is you, hurry up, I'm waiting). Anyways I'll never live it down because I said I write romantic poetry, which I do, and then dirty poetry, but I didn't mean dirty as in sex dirty but more like leaving a little kid alone close to a mud puddle dirty. These last two days have been great because I haven't had time to be depressed about being alone but it's finally acceptable. I realize that this point in my life I really don't need someone. I've experienced "love" so I guess now I can move on without looking for it and it will find me. Other than that I just wanna get some luvin'.
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mle

03-12-02 6:31pm

hey, props to you for accepting being alone. it took me over 2 years of steady boyfriends to find that out. codependancy just brings hurt.
*mle*

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jedibumblebee

03-12-02 7:10pm

i did not mean to be cruel with my jokes today. i knew what you meant. but i have trouble being serious.

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Upchuck

Re:, 03-12-02 8:08pm

It doesn't hurt, and it doesn't bother me. I made the mistake and I was just commenting on how none of you will ever let me live it down.

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jedibumblebee

Re: Re:, 03-12-02 10:32pm

dont worry, we will all have something new to make fun of tomorrow. like the fact that i can't hold a pencil.

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andy

03-12-02 8:49pm

ahh, that's what you meant by did i spare you any truths. i didn't read you comment text before. Anyway, who's this Brenda girl?

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wafflehouse

Thanks, 03-12-02 8:49pm

Thanks for your comment Chuck...you've been there before, so I know you understand where I'm coming from. I'm the happiest I've ever been!

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mannlyguy

03-12-02 11:22pm

Well big, don't we all want to get some lovin'? LOL!!!! It's alright though because we all get it sometime in our life or another. Your perfect woman is out there and you will find her. As for your comment...i don't know. I'm just pissed at people that think that everything that anyone says is dirty. Oh well I guess that there is no way to change the world do I could deal with it or I could just keep bitching about it and hope that people will quit being stupid. I like the bitching part so I think that I will keep doing that. Anyways I'll talk to you later.

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mannlyguy

03-12-02 11:23pm

To make my beginning to my last entry more clearer, I meant big guy not just big. Just thought that I would fix that.

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Anonymous

Hey, 03-13-02 9:09am

Charlie, Why are you like that to shari?? Your such a dick. What did she do to you? Nuthing. Yeah mabey she is crazy sometimes. That is no reason to call her a bitch and fucking ignore her all that damn time. If you like e-mail me back at dweeslw576@yahoo.com

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Upchuck

Re: Hey, 03-13-02 9:04pm

I don't know who you are and frankly I don't care.

Someone must have tipped her off about my saying things about her on my journal. It wasn't my intention to hurt her or anything. I just need a place to vent. If she chooses to look at it that is her perogative but I'm not forcing her and niether is anyone else. As for me being a dick, I'll gladly live up to that because if that is what I have to be to live my life with out her threstening to kill herself if she can't have me, then that's the way I have to be.

I don't know who you are, but don't go jumping in to other peoples business if you don't know both sides of the story. I know you know hers, and if you'd like I'll give you my take on it if I feel I can trust you but it's not very likely.

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Mystickittie

Re: Re: Hey, 03-14-02 8:23am

I know I threatened to kill my self before but I was crazy! My meds hadn't kicked in yet and I didn't know what I was doing then. If there was one day I could take back, that day in your car would be the day. I apologize and regret with all my heart about all the ways I hurt you. I wish I could take it all back because I lost my best friend and the only person I could ever talk to. This is the way I see it: I hurt you and you also hurt me throughout our whole relationship but you were the weaker one and decided life would be better without me. life has been hell for me. I can't talk to anybody and I can't trust anybody. I wish we could start over or something, anything, so we can at least talk to each other again without being mad at each other. I'm not suicidal anymore and I havn't cut my self in 2 months now. It is hard to write all this because for one thing, anybody could read this and know about my past problems and, secondly, I have closed up to the point that I have a hard time writing my thoughts down. I hope you give this all this thought so hopefully we can get rid of the anger for each other.

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