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| sendmemoney (profile) wrote, on 10-6-2002 at 9:30pm | |
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| i don’t know why i brought this up, especially with you. i doubt you’d understand anything about feelings, really, especially mine. you’ve gotten your hundred or so angst-filled poems, and smiled through every one of them, then come to me with open arms to apologize or cry with me and tell me it will be alright. but you never hugged me tight enough. there was always that persistent doubt, that unforgiving voice, telling me that the space between us was more than just a weak hug, and that it rivaled the oceans in its vastness and the sky in its infiniteness, and that one day we would be that distant. our bonds were so strong. how did they ever fall apart ? i guess i was mistaken when i thought that you loved me and that our feelings were mutual and that i saw love in your clear blue eyes with that everlasting sparkle. it was just me reflected ... my looking into a mirror, convincing myself that it was more than a one-sided thing. but mirrors are always one-sided (unless they are like trick mirrors. those mirrors own. rock.) and i still looked past that. i looked past a lot of things, and continue to. no matter how much i convince myself that i am stupid for thinking of you at all, and no matter how many sad poems i write to try and outdo the happy ones, you will always be the one i think of when somebody else’s lips brush mine. or when i remember how we used to stare in each other’s eyes and be content with just being there with each other, for hours and hours. i know i will never have that connection with anybody again, and that is when the longing hits me and i start to write incoherent ramblings pieced together with memories and fantasy. but it’s over, no matter how much i convince myself it’s not, or you lead me on. i wish i could tell everybody what i really thought. but then i’d have no friends except andrea. OH WELL ... | |
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| Anonymous | 10-07-02 7:59pm i am so, so sorry. honestly, i love you so much it hurts. then again, you probably would much rather have me take those words somewhere else, or have a train roar by on the railroad tracks creating a diversion, making my voice inaudible. |
sendmemoney | Re:, 10-07-02 10:12pm who is this, please ? because i only know a few people i want to get hit by a train .. ? |
bushbum16stoned | Re: Re:, 10-09-02 12:36am Hey Susan, if that was a poem, that was beautiful. Full of quite some angst towards someone, who is this person you are reffering to? Did you find out who this annonymous person is?? Ill talk to you soon, and maybe ill see you tommorow.
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| Anonymous | sometimes, 10-23-02 10:11pm ...i really think that you are my guardian angel. there is no doubt in my mind that i would be lost without you. and my love for you is endless becuse of what you've done for me. you are the only person who could ever possibly save me. and you've saved me from myself so many times. and for that,i owe you everything. you're the only person who truly understand me. and you are the most unbelievable and amazing best friend. i certainly couldn't ask for anything more. i love you. |