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| sendmemoney (profile) wrote, on 3-16-2002 at 12:04am | |
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| *~you did it. you removed all doubt. are you happy now ? because i’m not. the only way you could possibly hurt me any more is by falling in love with my best friend … which, to be honest, would not surprise me, because everybody does. not that i’m blaming anybody. if i met a boy that beautiful, i would fall in love with him too. and you know what ? i did. but of course i got my heart broken. i am not beautiful enough to avoid that. it just completely blows me away that i could think i meant so much to you when really, i meant nothing at all. why me ? out of everybody … i do all i can to avoid hurting people, and in the end, it did me no good. so what’s the point in trying to make something work when all signs point to NO ? the best day of my life was completely ruined by the worst night of my life. 3-15-02, if i may quote The Starting Line. this is just such complete bullshit. and i hate cursing in my journal, because poetry is supposed to be powerful, and if you can’t be powerful without cursing, then you are a terrible writer. but you know what ? fuck this. i don’t deserve this. and i hold myself in such low regard that i take a lot of crap. but not this. this is the worst kind of pain. i don’t want it. just take it back. and you know what the worst part is ? that even though you hurt me so much, i did love you. i probably still do. but i can't think about that now. not when i can barely read what i am writing because my vision is blurred with tears. i did not get to say it earlier, so here. good bye.~* | |
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eyesforwindows | 03-16-02 10:33am these words have seemed to lose their meaning. but i love you. i still mean it, but it feels so empty now or something. i will probably late to work because i am crying and must clean myself up. |
thrubeingcool | 03-16-02 11:17am i dont know if this means anything to you, but i love you. and i will always be here for you, u know i will do anything for you. if you need someone to talk to..i am here, and ill listen to anything you have to say. i love you so much. OH POOHS. seafish. *te amo mi vida* |
| sleepitoff | Re:, 03-16-02 12:08pm dito. i love you bye.
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sendmemoney | Re: Re:, 03-16-02 3:23pm thanks. i love you guys too. and i feel so dumb because i guess the latest craze is to write a sad journal to see who replies with an "i love you" ... but i just had to get it out. bye. * |
| forgetmenot | Re: Re: Re:, 03-28-02 5:58pm i love you ...sorry its so late...i thought you didnt want me to read it |