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| sushininja (profile) wrote, on 11-27-2003 at 11:43am | |
| Current mood: extremely depressed... |
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| Gah...I feel so ashamed, these thoughts, they're horrible...I can't believe I've fallen so far as to think them...where have I gone wrong? What did I do wrong? Should I be thinking this at all? Do I have any right to think this? All I can think of is pain, hurt...I AM SO HORRIBLE! This selfishness, it is horrid... I wish I could...*sigh* I feel extremely ashamed and frightened by these feelings...or is it that I am frightened by the fact that I don't kow if I'm really feeling this? Is it just my brain telling me to feel this, and it not really what I feel? My brain must want me to be hurt, cause it sure seems that way...Why is my brain doing this to me? Does it not want me to be happy? Must it ruin this for me? Why does it have to analyze everything, and then cause me to second guess it? It is worrying me... Should I even be writing this? Am I going to kick myself because of this later? Argh... Oh, and don't let this worry any of you who read it, I'm not worth your time, nor your feelings... *Turns away in shame* |
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| Anonymous | 11-27-03 1:33pm Doug...what's wrong? What made you feel this way?
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shiznit05 | 11-27-03 4:47pm doug, i dont understand any of this, and i dont know if i can help, but serioduly, i want to know whats going on, and if you dont want to tell me at least tell me its something that i dont have to be worrying about, because right now that's what im doing |
crazyweaver05 | 11-28-03 9:43am doug! stop freaking out! i don't know what all this is about but i'm pretty sure its safe to guess that its going to be okay! and you're not horrible doug, far from it. nor are you selfish....hmm...and the only thing you should feel shameful of is if this has anything to do with your undying desire to make love to your cat, or rat,or something...in which case everyone would disown you...but its probably safe to say that that is not the case...so stop freaking out!....please!.... |
| crazyweaver05 | Re:, 11-28-03 9:51am okay so after reading someone elses journal entry i now think that i somewhat grasp the basis of this catastrophy. in which case i still have to say doug...you're stupid...not selfish, not greedy, not horrible....i dont remember what other words you used but none of them are true....and if you think i have no idea what i'm talking about then too bad....mwuhahaha |