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| Toki (profile) wrote, on 11-30-2003 at 8:33pm | |
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| Well, I wanna write about this, but it'll be alot easier just to copy and paste the convo... SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: holy shit, u know ive had my journal for 6 months now?? american english was a half year ago! and i've been hanging out with those pple now...for like...7ish months and i still just started talking to them...O.o;; wow...im in shock toki358 [7:13 PM]: LOL toki358 [7:13 PM]: wow patrice SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: time should slow down toki358 [7:13 PM]: wait american english was 6 months ago/ toki358 [7:13 PM]: yea it should! SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: 5 monthsish toki358 [7:14 PM]: but sitl....wow SneakySeaMonkey [7:15 PM]: theres only like 8 more months until certain pple go away...my god...5 more months of school...wow..time is really flying this year toki358 [7:15 PM]: shhh don't say that!!!!! toki358 [7:15 PM]: it's still 1st semester....::sigh:: i should and shouldn't stay that way SneakySeaMonkey [7:16 PM]: Yeah.. SneakySeaMonkey [7:16 PM]: Sandy Kim...i dont wanna grow up...i dont wanna be a senior toki358 [7:16 PM]: *it should and it shouldn't toki358 [7:17 PM]: thank u! so i'm not the only person who doesn't want to grow up toki358 [7:17 PM]: everyone's like can't wait until i get out of highschool...i'm like no! SneakySeaMonkey [7:18 PM]: i know...i cant imagine high school ending and being away from the pple i know now toki358 [7:18 PM]: i know! toki358 [7:18 PM]: it's a scary thought for me ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Time shuold stop. I'm so not kidding you. There's so much I want to do and not enough time and so much I want to happen and not enough time. I hate time. Tell it to slow down. This is like..wow...for me, its like my moment of realization. I'm gonna be a senior next year. I'm gonna be in college after that. And and and..wow. I'm growing up. I'm 16 years old. I know, to some pple it's just like...oo 16? Whatever. Ive been alive for 16 years!! And one day seems like an eternity...then why did those 16 years go by so fast? Even since I got my journal, onyl 6 months ago, it felt like things sucked and were terribly slow...but wow, it feels like just yesterday I was sitting in Jill's house telling her about my journal. Now I read through it and alot yet nothing has happened in these 6 months. I feel like I've wasted these months. I mean, sure, I've done lots of things that I am so glad I did, but I could have done so much. I don't want to waste anymore time feeling sorry for myself or being sad. I'm only gonna be here for so long and my friends are only gonna be here for so long, if I spend the whole time complaining and saying how pple suck or life sucks, god, my life would have no purpose then. I mean, would someone who was positive or negtive have a better affect on you? I feel like I'm in that mario game. Where teh background keeps moving but you have to keep up. And you can't slow it down, all you can do is run with it. GAH!! I Don't wanna leave high school! :-( Grr...too much thinking, to bed I go...night... |
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Anytngbtordinary | 12-01-03 10:56pm I totally agree Patrice! Its so scary!!! I dont want to grow up either, and i dont want people to leave at the end of this year...i dont want to get to the spring play this year because its going to be much sadder than it was last year. Then...to get to the end of senior year...ending everything...saying goodbye to everyone. Its such a scary thought. Just enjoy the time you have right now though... dont keep worrying about the past or the future right now, try and have a good time with everyone and let yourself enjoy junior year (as hard as thats gonna be...cuz this year sucks lol) But yeah...im still here, and ill still be here next year and i dont think we will stop talking after that because i know i will still want to talk to you in college! Dont worry about the time youve "wasted" its gone...but im sure you learned some stuff in those 6 months. Yeah.... lost what i was thinking...bye!
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goose | Re:, 12-01-03 11:43pm I DONT WANT TO GROW UP EITHER!!! DONT MAKE ME! PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE |
goose | Re:, 12-01-03 11:43pm I DONT WANT TO GROW UP EITHER!!! DONT MAKE ME! PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE |
mudpiegrl | 12-02-03 1:28am me either...wanting to grow up...but i sorta came to the realization in the summer and everyone told me to shut up becasue the year hadnt really started yet....but i know its gonna be weird...but think about all the thing syoull learn...then those four years will end and youll start working and ::sigh:: get married and then youll be old. life is short. enjoy it. |