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toki (profile) wrote, on 12-3-2003 at 11:45pm | |
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So, today wasn't all that bad. I mean, I kinda broke down today and lost it, but I recovered. It's all good now. I don't know why I really lost it either. I guess I just....I honestly don't know. But I feel better now I think. I'm still insanly worried about a few things though. Yeah, first of all the whole props thing. I don't know what's gonna happen with that and I want it, but I don't. I want to do it, but I'm so scared that if I get it, I'll mess up. Now that I said it I'm not gonna get it...Blllaaaahhh.... And band...I just give up, I can't do it. I'm not smart enough. I honestly can't et the notes from the page to my brain to my fingers in the time I need to. I can't read bass clef that well above the staff and it takes a few seconds for me to figure it out then I have to figure out the high notes cuz I'm not that used to them, then with the rythmns and all that other stuff...I honestly can't do it. And it makes me sick with myself. Oh, and guys are just jerks. Lol, but you all know that. Well, on a happy note, Jillian and I finished our chem thing tonight...::phew:: Thank god. It's awesome too..with a cover page and all. I'm so proud. ::tear:: What else good happened today?? Hmmm...I can't think of anything lol. But I'm now surprisngly optimistic despite the fact that I have nothing going for me. Maybe that its cuz theres nothing, nothing good or bad...so then it leaves just optimism...it can be bad, but we shall see, no? Um..forgive me for complaining about unimportant stuff. I know you all have worser stuff going on, I just need to say it...So yeah... Oh, and good job to everyone who made call backs! Yay! Good luck 2morrow! |
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mudpiegrl | 12-04-03 11:47pm trix dont worry about props. ::hug:: if you get it, you will do wonderfully at it. you can make anything work in your favour.
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sandatthebeach | 12-05-03 9:46am write in the notes! yeah cheating in band!!!!!:-) |