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| sushininja (profile) wrote, on 12-11-2003 at 9:49pm | |
| Current mood: tired, tad bit depressed...ornery... Music: None-Can't talk to Carmen well while listening to it... |
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| *Yawn* Today sucked, I had a math quiz I didn't know about, and I believe I sucked it up...the CD I bought last night really blows, makes me want to cry...at least it was only 13 dollars...tomorrow, my mother is going to take my car into the shop for the fixation of my window, a whopping $235...*cries*...work was super boring...had a fucking big cart to verify right away, which ended up in me finding a really old/dumb/should be shot Ronald McDonald video...ate lunch with Carmen today, always a good time...as is spending quality time with Carmen, but this week I've had none...makes me sad...at least I'm ungrounded tomorrow, and she's coming to dinner with us...and then we'll catch Bad Santa...and then we'll eventually go to Tuba Christmas, which will be a great time....I really looking forward to it... My mp3 woes are subsiding, as I found a 60gb (OVERKILL!) one by creative labs which is supossedly as good as if not better than the mac iPod...I'm excited now...hopefully we'll order it tomorrow, and it'll be here by Christmas, or even before hand so I can load it up in time for my trip south...I was up till 2-ish last night doing my damned french homework, with Carmen helping me out on it, which was fun...atleast I've been able to talk to her a lot this week...otherwise I might go insane...or succumb to these dark thoughts...yeah...so, now I'm off to bed, or something of that sort...yeah...sorry for the randomness of this entry...yeah...James bought a new santa for us, cause he and alex broke the other one...I'm working on sunday, becasue I'm not working tomorrow or Saturday...french dinner is going to not be fun, and I'm regretting signing up for it...pep band eventually after that, I'll be late, but not really fucking late...more Carmen time for me, hopefully...maybe this is a joyous reprise for her, letting her get caught up on stuff...but no, she'd yell at me for thinking that, or this, or whatnot, but yeah, I just typed this, so she will get after me anyway...I know that's not how she really feels, and I should stop saying stuff like that, because it probably hurts her in some way, and for that I am EXTREmELY sorry, which would lead to the fact of why I just typed that...who knows? Although not typing it wouldn't change the fact that I still thought it, and I regret thinking it, I wish I'd not have all these depressing thoughts, hurtful to me and to others...I've never really realized that it could hurt others, but Carmen brought that to my attention, and so here I am, going to apologize to anyone I've hurt in this manner: Sorry I've hurt you with these thoughts I have, be it recently or years ago...please forgive me...Why am I just blithering on? Do you know the muffin man? Having a cell phone is fun, allows me to call me, although some people don't like me calling them apparently...french test tomorrow, to book to study with though, oh WELL...I'll fucking delete that class if it is the last thing I do...my eyes aren't working, making everything kind of swirl around right now, or something like that, nothing is standing still, its all so far away...maybe this is a sign? Quote of the day: "we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine and the machine is bleeding to death" |
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| Anonymous | 12-11-03 10:16pm I'm not going to get on your case...but only because you realized what you were doing. Recognizing the problem is the first step to overcoming it. I'm proud. ^_^ |
shiznit05 | 12-12-03 3:34pm hmm i wonder who could not like you calling them haha |