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| spinoangel (profile) wrote, on 1-10-2004 at 5:36pm | |
| Current mood: just wanna go to bed. Music: boa - "duvet" Subject: my weekend so far. |
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| yesterday danielle came home with me. back to routine. we went to eat dinner super super early so we went to see "chasing liberty" in city place. we got out around 10. that's pretty early for us. i loved that movie. the guy, matthew goode, is so unbelievable handsome. i love him probably as much as orlando bloom now. my mom loved him too. that's gotta say something. sigh. if only there were more guys like that. when we got home, danielle and i just hung out. today i went shopping with my mom. good thing was that shopping always makes me feel a bit better no matter what. but the bad thing is, i still feel bad. i felt bad emotionally before shopping and i was crying, and so it led me into the arms of my stupid allergies. stuffy nose, itchy teary eyes, all that good stuff. and like my left eye, which was hurting from the night before, is like swollen and a bit purple right now. i dont know exactly what's wrong with me. maybe its a good thing i didnt spend time with any friends today because i look/feel like crap! tonight we're going to dinner at a family friend's. so... yeah. wasn't quite the saturday i was looking forward to during the week. sigh. i guess i can't change things. i thought being with the one i want would make me happy... and i am. but i still cry? that doesn't make very much sense. i hate myself so much for ... for me. i think it's a sign. idk. altan's not allowed to spend time with me on the weekend until the next 9 weeks. hmm. so the first valentines day i'm not single, i won't be with him. i just hope things dont go to hell and that once he gets ungrounded, i might be grounded for a B in govt. i'm gonna try my best not to let that happen though. cuz then we won't have summer cuz he'll be in turkey. this relationship isn't what i thought it'd be. oh well. i still want it regardless. it was my fault i didn't get to see him today anyways. sn i i i i i i i i i i i i ff. *i am falling. i am fading. i am drowning. help me to breathe. i am hurting. i have lost it all. i am losing. help me to breathe.* |
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christini | 01-10-04 6:15pm *hug* |
lizzy | 01-10-04 9:31pm |
karit_top | 01-12-04 7:52pm cheer up, life will get better. and think of this, and remember it. if life led you to this time right now, then it was meant to be. and if it is meant that altan and you are away for some time, then thats what life calls for. it will get better in the end, and if it doesnt, then you always have me for comfort. i am always here for you. |