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| sushininja (profile) wrote, on 1-15-2004 at 10:58pm | |
| Current mood: meh... Music: Foreigner... |
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| Well, I didn't update yesterday, because pretty much, my update would have gone as so: "My day sucked, I freaked out again, I feel like retching...something is probably very wrong with me..." Well, today went a little better...French exam sucked a lot...just hate that woman...that's about it...My math exam was easy, but from what I've heard, the Calc Exam was rather hard...that I'm sorry for...AS was perhaps the most boring it has ever been...I don't know why, but it was...so hard to get through... I didn't play Morrowind after school...I find it kind of funny that I was asking Carmen for permission to play...kind of made me laugh, inside, where no one can see...where no one would want to see...I went home and talked online...late to work with out Morrowind...hmm...also seems as if Brendan has joined in with Carmen in order to sway me from Morrowind...almost as if they are keeping from some horrible, horrible drug that will kill me... Work sucked...turns out I actually have to work...heh...Sara stopped by, and Mrs. East told her to leave...man, did that piss me off...she told her to leave because I needed to work, but I was working while Sara was there...and then, she kept on tellng me to get to work...and then she goes and talks for an hour with my other co-workers...I really don't mind working, but it is the whole isolation deal that comes free with the job...and only my job...I'm off shelving, while people get to have conversations...when people visit me, I get to converse also... Doug is in the hospital, but doing good...Carmen and I visited him, and then went to the Girls' game...I seem to be getting on Carmen's nerves recently...and it's no good...I don't know what is wrong with me...but whatever it is, I need to straighten it out, and soon, before I end up pushing her and everybody else out of my life...maybe it has to do with some dormant feelings...hopefully not, because that would suck big time...and these feelings...I'm not sure what do to with...should I embrace them, or shun them and shove them back in? Someone please help me... Quote of the day: "Speak to me now and the world will crumble Open a door and the moon will fall All of your life, all your memories Go to your dreams, forget it all" |
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shiznit05 | 01-16-04 8:29am way to go back to depressing entries...doug you know if you ever want to talk you can always call...my phone is always on (hence the always low battery) and im always around it, and even if you call at 3am, i wont be mad for too long...hehe, i'll just yell at you for waking me up and then i'll help, you know im always here to help...its kind of like my role..i guess |
| Anonymous | 01-17-04 1:24am ditto to what Britt said, but I think you already know that. You also already know my opinions about the feelings and everything surrounding those. So...yeah..this comment is kinda pointless...oh well |