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| XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX (profile) wrote, on 1-22-2004 at 8:13pm | |
| Current mood: pissed off Music: ` 'Strawberry Gashes' Jack Off Jill ´ Subject: my life is completely over. |
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| okay.. this is my new jorunal.. i mite forget and write in my old one every now and then if i even live past to nite.. so much is going wrong.. my uncle got locked up and he wont talk to me coz he doesnt want me to get hurt by the this he says.. god i miss him so much.. and ricky isnt helpin much.. bobby is pissed at me and he tried to kill him self last week.. and my cozin shannon tried to kill her self last nite in front of her sister desi.. i dnt kno what to do any more and of course i cant help them coz im going through the same thing.. but i never get the time alone.. my mom is up all nite and i have skool all day.. and when i do have time alone i dnt have any thing to do it with.. i cant stand it any more.. i just want to die.. i just want to get away from this life.. i cant stand this shyt.. omg.. i want to go away.. every living thing hates me and i cant stand it any more.. god.. fuck it.. i cant live any more.. im going to go insane.. if i havnt went insane already.. god.. i cant stand it any more.. and there isnt any one who can help me.. the only person i really ever trusted was my uncle and now he went and got him self locked up and wont take my calls.. i wonder if he would be able to go to my funeral.. prolly not.. he will be in there for a while.. only my close friends can tell how bad im hurting and of course i dnt have any.. i mean.. really.. how can i.. im a FUCKING bitch.. and every one tells me i lie.. but i dnt.. it that they jus dnt want to say that every thing i say is true.. you know what i mean rite?.. any way.. i dnt even kno where i can go to hide.. i mean.. where ever i go people find me.. i cant stand it any more.. and i swear to god.. if ricky asks me one more fucking time why i lied to felicia im going to flip.. i never fucking lied to her.. every thing i fucking said is true.. he just dnt remember it.. see last nite he asked me if i saw scott... and i was like scott?.. and he told me the last name.. i said no and he was like o0o and i was like y and was like andrew wants to fight him before he moves.. i dnt kno what that means.. well thats what was said.. DID I FUCKING LIE.. no.. whatever.. like i said every one hates me.. well i think i best be going now.. GOD I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS WORLD ANY MORE... im going to go insane by the time summer comes... GOOD BYE | |
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| Anonymous | i luvish you, 01-22-04 8:53pm amanda i luvish you and i'm here for you....and yes i wanna die with you =)
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XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX | Re: i luvish you, 01-23-04 7:20am i luv you too brie.. and okay.. we will die together.. lol.. i loved the new hair thing.. lol.. its crazy.. lol.. g2g
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