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| sandatthebeach (profile) wrote, on 1-25-2004 at 11:19pm | |
| Subject: V-show |
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| does anyone know if we're having a V-Show this year? because i'm preparing something if they do. if they're not having it this year i don't see the point in me preparing something. i mean i guess i would be year ahead of everyone if we have it next year instead....but i don't know...i really wanna be in it this year. i'm planning on singing...and i know which song...and i'm ordering sheet music online so either me or someone else can play it on the piano. of course if it's me playing the piano part i'll be doing a singing/playing act. i don't see why they wouldn't have a V-Show this year since it was so successful last year. for those of you who don't know what the V-Show is...it's like a variety show...different people show different things...last year people danced, sung...(that's all i got to see cuz i was in band) and it was alot of fun. i really wanna be in it and i know what i'm doing too. so yeah...i hope they have it this year...or at elast next year. sometime before i graduate how about that? so i studied for my math quiz...i think i might do well this time. i feel confident enough to be sure that i won't fail it. don't wanna start a new semester with an F. (ah memories of first quarter when i almost dropped the freakin class) so i went through all the sections and did most of the problems (i picked the hardest ones) and got them right (checked back of the book which i keep bookmarked btw) and i think i have all the concepts down. i miss the good ol' days of geometry when i never had to study and still got a 110% on the quizzes/tests. but even though getting an easy A was fun...it was soooooooooo boring because i was not challenged....at all! gasp! i dont' know...i've finally adjusted to the pace of honors and it's not so bad anymore. i even passed my final! which i was very proud of (even though it was a C...for me that was good and for the difficulty of the final). so yeah. casey said that he's gonna talk to freichels...about what? i'm not even sure anymore...oh yeah...about how everyone isn't exactly happy with joseph. well i guess the 5 girls who are now being put backstage...maybe not for the entire duration of the show...but for a couple songs. at least he didn't tell me to just get over it because it's not that big of a deal. he probably doesn't understand...but at least he didn't say that...i was liek thank you casey for listening. i was telling jorie about how upset i was aobut the thing and she said "i don't know what to tell you"...it's ok...i wasn't expecting anyone to tell me anything...i needed to get it off my chest. it hurts alot. being told that you're being put backstage....being told that you'll have to sing backstage because they don't ahve a place to put you. it hurts alot. i know people can't relate.....and i probably shouldn't be so upset about this....but...it's a huge disappointment. i finally got cast in a show...id been cut from everything except one acts last year. and that was a bad experience (well i guess it had it's advantages but i didn't have too good of a time during last year's one acts). i didn't care as much being cut from everything after that....because i was involved in all the shows in some way...and even had sort of a position. midsummer: costumes crew head, ballad: assistant stage manager, razzle: costume crew head, one acts (this year): stage manager and then finally i'm part of the cast for joseph. (oh btw i'd tried out for every one of those shows except one acts..i decided i wanted to stage manage) it felt sooo good...i was so happy. and things were alright....then this week freichels tells us (like the 5 girls who don't dance) that she doesn't know where to put us yet and most liekly have to sing backstage....taht hurt so much. first i was pissed....then i felt hurt....then i felt discouraged and ashamed. i prefer being cut than being told that i won't be put onstage cuz there's no where to put me. you must think i'm crazy for preferring to be cut...but at least i wouldn't feel useless. then friday....calandra was choreographing joseph's coat which was cool....and as she was about to start she comes up to us and says that she doesn't know what we're doing and is sure that we'll be in the song...and we're free to go home. wow. twice in one week. i called my mom and as i was waiting for her i started crying. the hurt i felt from hearing that is undescribable. yes this probably sounds pathetic to many...but not many can relate. and i probably should've seen this coming...it seemed too good to be true. i'm trying to be optimistic...i'm trying....but it's hard when i'm constantly feeling useless in the show. oh but you're part of the female singing ensemble...what's the point if i'm not gonna be seen? ::sigh:: i really hope next year's musical will be better. i don't care about being cut from the plays...i'm not that great of an actor...but musical? that means alot to me. ::sigh:: ok i'll go now....i'm not asking for your pity or sympathy. why did i say everything above? because this is my journal. and i really don't think taht anything i said was inappropriate...was it? i hope not.... i want this heavy feeling to go away. Always, Sandy |
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angryjewgirl | i agree, 01-26-04 12:31am Hello chicken little. Good luck on your math quiz. Im sure you will do fine. Anyway I agree with everything you said about joseph since I can relate....lol. Anyway it really sucks but its awesome that casey is going to talk to friechles. Im not trying to give you sympathy or anything, just trying to let you know that you're not alone.
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Angel_Bob | 01-26-04 6:17am We have a variety show thing at our school every year. It's pretty fun.
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mudpiegrl | Re:, 01-26-04 5:06pm good job...thats what jorie said... |
sandatthebeach | Re:, 01-26-04 5:22pm thank you...it's just i dont' wanna say the "wrong stuff" again....and have the world go against me....but thank you so much~ |