01-30-04 12:28pm

I still don't have time to reply. I'm in English right now. I just want you to know that I love you and I will reply when I get home today. I just hope that you don't get sick from being nervous. I get that alot. And I am nervous as well and will think about what I need to say today.

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Everything to me, 01-30-04 7:54pm

Take a deep breath...

You know what? I’m kind of sick about you always talking down to yourself about everything. Not beautiful? Not clever? You have more beauty than anyone I know. You are the sweetest, most kindest person in the world to me. You always get along with everyone, you’re loveable, and that is why you are my best best best friend in the whole entire world. You know why you would have gotten a boyfriend before me if I didn’t get Ryan back? Because you have the bestest personality. It just strikes me as odd why anyone would ever want me…why do you love me Amelia? It’s one simple question. I am rude and inconsiderate. For Christ sake, I did this to you. I made you feel like you do. I made you feel as though you didn’t have a friend in the world, so why be mine? You are everything in my eyes and I’ll care about you forever. I’ll love you forever. Forever is more than a day…a week..a month….a year….a century….a million years…..2 billion light years….I’ll love you when there’s nothing left…, when the universe has ceased to exist. And If you are not ment to be loved back, then I wouldn’t have a purpose. I would be some worthless thing…a plague-sucking up all life around me as though there is no happiness left. Without you, I wouldn’t be me. Without your love, I wouldn’t be able to love. Without you, I couldn’t live. You have changed me from the moment I met you. You change me in the most posative way anyone could ever change. It’s like…….I don’t know how to be me, without you. And how could I not feel bad. I made you feel like I’m not here, and if I were you, I would be if you weren’t here. I’m sorry. And the word sorry convaes all my feelings in a few letters on a screen. Sorry is what will make me know, that you are the most important person. A sincere sorry will never be forgotten. And I will never forget you. I love you, now, always, and forever.

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Re: Everything to me, 01-30-04 8:28pm

please, don't shy away from telling me what else u feel...anytime....

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Re: Re: Everything to me, 01-30-04 8:44pm

I don't try to shy away my feelings... It's just... That's an instant reaction I've built over the years...

I don't get alone with everyone... I'm extremely rude to a lot of people whom I don't hold in high regaurds...

And as for me being your friend and loving you... Well... I don't know how to answer that... When I love someone I don't have a real reason... I just love people... The only thing I need a reason for feeling is hate... But you're just special... I don't know why... But you make me happy when I'm around you...

Except when you're down on yourself...

But I know I love you more than a lot of people... Because I can forgive you so easily... Just like that... It only takes me a day to get over that... Or even a few hours... I can't stay angry at you...

I don't think I could ever imagine what I'd be like if you weren't there for me... Even though I don't tell you how I feel.. Ever... It still means a lot to me that you are open... And if I ever really need to talk... I know you'll be there for me... And that's enough for me...

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Re: Re: Re: Everything to me, 01-30-04 9:25pm

u haven't needed to talk since i've been ur friend. i've been laying all my troubles on u...and i son't want to do that. ur little heart can't take it. but if u even'd it out, and put some of ur troubles on me, then i wouldn't feel so guilty for letting u in on everything. i mean i don't know all ur secrets. hardly ne in fact. u know all of mine....all of them.


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Re: Re: Re: Re: Everything to me, 01-30-04 9:42pm

the thing is I don't have any secrets that are important... I told you guys my biggest secret at Anna's party...

And I can take it... That's what I like to do... I don't have troubles because nothing really bothers me... I tell you if something is bothering me... Unless it would hurt your feelings... Because it makes me feel like crap when I hurt your feelings...

I like hearing about your troubles... It makes me feel like mine aren't that bad... And gives me respect for what I have...

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Everything to me, 01-31-04 2:41am

Well then I'll be sure to give you lots of my troubles. I got plenty more where that came from. ^^ But like I said, don't hesitate at all in telling me your problems, if you have any. I love to be the mediator or just offer even a smigen of advice...that I hope is good and useful. ^^ But I'll also respect your space. If you don't want to talk, I'll understand, even though I may want to.

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