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| glitterkisses (profile) wrote, on 8-4-2004 at 10:50pm | |
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| Last night Jess came over and we got ice cream. Today, I got up earlie took a shower, then everyone went up to the hospital and I was at home to watch Paige. Had a vistor. :) Then Jeff came over. Things are good. These are the kinda things I need right now. No attachments, no strings, just...people to hug and to hold. All I need is people who really care about me, good friends, and that's exactlly what I have to keep my mind off everything. I love all of you soooo much and thank you fro coming over and seeing me all of you!! It's so nice, and I appreciate it so much! Jess came over later. We turned on the rap music and Paige danced with us. Then we baked brownies, lol didn't turn out to yummy and then Jess just left. I don't know what I would do without her. It's so nice that my family actually knows her too, like my Grandma remembers her from when she was little. She's my best friend and the only person who understands me like I understand myself. Thank you so much for being here for me lately Jess, it means a lot. I love you. Then I got a collect call..and accepted I'm so fucking stupid!!! It's unrealy! As soon as I heard you say your name, my heart just dropped into my stomach, and all these feelings came rushing back of hate, and anger, and sadness, just bad bad memories, and im not sorry that you are where you are and you cant be here to really know everything going on becaues it's YOUR fault you're there, NO ONE ELSES! not mine, and im tiered for blaming myself, or feeling sorry that maybe it is my fault. Because it's not, and the only thing I feel sorry for you about is how low you are, and I pitty you! Grrjdflkajdfl;kj It's *SOOO* fucking nice not having to work, although I wont be getting paid, and if none of this was going on I wouldn't have to worry about it. But I do, and I'm just making the best of it. tomorrow I have to babysit too. Then after everyone gets home I'm going to see him at like 9, and staying over night at the hospital. So I'm happy I get to see him...sort of..yeah. *pray* Jess |
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lilschaub | 08-05-04 12:58am Hey I have tryed to call you but noone ever answers so give me a call tommorrow or whenever you get this ok. Call my cell cause I wont be home. And sorry I didnt stop over I just dont think I will be much fun right now but I love you and I hope everything is going good! |
Glitterkisses | Re:, 08-05-04 9:20am Yeah I've been down at my grandparents all day babysitting their number is 696-0738, but i normally come home for like a half an hour to an hour after everyone gets home from the hospital to take a shower and stuff. But I'll call you today, and hun you can stop by anytime, im not tha tmuch fun too hang out with right now either, lov you, ill talk to you later |