| Add Memory | Add To Friends | |
| KirbyDee (profile) wrote, on 10-20-2004 at 8:26pm | |
| Current mood: um... okay Music: "How Far" Martina McBride Subject: How far do I have to go? |
|
| I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are So I'm gonna walk away I tried to change, but I don't care anymore. I'm going to continue DBT and working on my impulsiveness but if you all don't want to see my change, so be it. This isn't about my ego, or being mature, it's about dealing with life. So I'm done with my woohu, I'll still come to see how Mel's doing but otherwise I'm done. Call me overdramatic if you want, I would ^^ "How far?" by Martina McBride (watch the music video at http://www.cmt.com/artists/az/mcbride_martina/artist.jhtml?_requestid=357533 ) There's a boat, I could sail away There's the sky, I could catch a plane There's a train, there's the tracks I could leave and I could choose to not come back Oh, never come back There you are, giving up the fight Here I am begging you to try Talk to me, let me in But you just put your wall back up again Oh, when's it gonna end How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are So I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say how far There's a chance I could change my mind But I won't, not till you decide What you want, what you need Do you even care if I stay or leave Oh, what's it gonna be How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are So I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say how far Out of this chair, or just across the room Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are So I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say Yeah I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say how far How far Ooohhhh |
|
| Post A Comment |
|
QueenWog | 10-20-04 11:46pm I would like to say (because it feels like this entry is directed at me among other people) that I did not want you to change for me. I wanted you to change for you. I want you to be happy with yourself. I know that Louise does too.
|
KirbyDee | Re:, 10-21-04 1:00am Thanks Molly, but the fact of the matter is I hurt so many people especially you, Louise and Nicole that I don't think I can be happy with myself because no matter how hard I try, I can't change the past. I wish I could, but I can't. Cognitive confusion, big word, the soldiers aren't the only ones who are a little lost. Thanks again, and maybe one day I'll be able to not let the past bring me down. |