I don't know what I would do without it...
*I know I said I was done updating, but this is too good not to say!*
It being marching band. Somehow, everyone who's ever really commited to marching band will agree. People ask us why we put up with it, that we work too hard and for what? When was the last time someone got a full scholarship to a U.C. because they were a drum major? We do it because we love it, and if you did it you would understand. Competing, even watching, gives you this feeling you can only get from marching band and without it, I'd be nothing...

We had our Live Oak Competition in Salinas, the second one of the season. We did our guard song and across the floors, but Misty wanted to remind us why we're here because we love what we do. So she put on "The Way You Make Me Feel" and did this strut and we had to do the same, then on the way back we were told to do our own sexy walk so, since I was born to strut ;), I had them all hollering and shouting out cat-calls! So much fun, it scarred Katie! I love Katie!!! Anyway, so in we're in Class AAA and also there was Independence and Pasa Robles. Since Independence got sweepstakes, we got 1st!!! WOOT! We ALSO tied Independence for Best General Effect (in our class of course)!!! N-I-C-E!!! I missed Saratoga perform so I didn't get to see Risa perform, but she changed really quickly and found where we were sitting and I got to chat with her for like 30 mins to an hour, so awesome! Not to mention Katie and I decided I'm going to have like, twenty husbands when I grow up and that they are all going to be ex-drum liners ^^ We also had a very interesting shout-down as to whether tenor drums were better than snares, which they are!!! Actually, they're both awesome!!!!

Backing up to Friday, intersectional dinner with Low Brass and Drum Line at Neale's house, we ate pizza and watched Halloween 6 (since the week previous we watched Halloween, I was looking fly since it was HC weekend and I was decked out) and Drum Line. Tiff had Vlad teach her how to play drums and I, in my suttle way *not* flirted with Neale. Lol! Speaking of which, yesterday I'm changing into my uniform and I need someone to zip me and I'm standing with my back to gaurd and the second Carrie stands up to zip me I walk over to Neale and I'm like, "Neale, will you zip me please?" LMAO!!! Katie wouldn't let it go, I seriously had no idea Carrie was getting up to zip me!!! For the rest of the night my convos with Katie ended each topic with:
Me- Too bad I love that too! (replying to Katie saying she liked something)
Katie- I love how you walk past a bunch of girls to get Neale to zip up your uniform!

N-I-C-E Man, I love marching band! I thinking I might do Winter Perc(ussion), don't worry, still doing track no matter what!

OOO! So we come home and this adorable, older bordie collie is in our front yard and so, since I'm nice and all, get something around his collar and go through his five (I mean that literally) tags to find out his address and I took him home. But he got excited b/c he understood what I was doing and took off and I didn't want to yank on his collar so I ran with him, best feeling ever. If I had a big dog that needed excercise, I'd make time to run daily. Too bad I have a cat and love her death, wouldn't trade her for a dog and besides, I tried that excuse for a dog before and it didn't work ^^ heh

And I just carved my pumpkin, wow! So. Much. Fun. And yummmmmm! Pumpkin seeds.... YUMMMMMMMMMM

How far do I have to go?
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away

I tried to change, but I don't care anymore. I'm going to continue DBT and working on my impulsiveness but if you all don't want to see my change, so be it. This isn't about my ego, or being mature, it's about dealing with life. So I'm done with my woohu, I'll still come to see how Mel's doing but otherwise I'm done. Call me overdramatic if you want, I would ^^

"How far?" by Martina McBride
(watch the music video at http://www.cmt.com/artists/az/mcbride_martina/artist.jhtml?_requestid=357533 )

There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back

There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
Yeah I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
How far
Ooohhhh

All I do is hurt the ones I care the most about...
What the hell was I thinking? All I did was end up hurting both of us, and for what? For him to be pissed at me for breaking his heart and then expecting everything to be perfectly okay when I said I changed my mind? What is wrong with me?! I need a shoulder to cry on, but I don't want sympathy... I don't want to explain what happened, why I'm hurt, why he's hurt... I hate myself for doing this to him before I talked to him about it, I hate that he was hurt and then pissed (he has every right to be, anger comes from hurt)... I hate these tears, tears reserved only for my beloved father, that I know shed for him... What was I thinking? That's it, I wasn't... Modesto is going to suck.... regardless of the fact I'm doing the retreat...

as the song says...
I'm breaking up with Adam, that's that.... men suck....

Um... I have issues
I seriously have been thinking about it, and I've come to the conclusion that I have commitment issues. I can understand why, but it's sooo weird that when I have this awesome boyfriend that I want to flirt with random guys like Keith, Chris or even Adrian. Well... Adrian makes sense, not that I would b/c you know, yeah... Just wouldn't, but I'm determined to toss a 5 for him before the season is over since he's so bent on either Katie or I doing it. I bet I could if I had the new sabres, they are soooo easy to toss! Too bad I don't...

M.V.C.T.
We had our Mountain View Community Thank You today and in the words of the the M.V. director:

"WE WERE FUCKING AWESOME!"

Alrighty! So the performance was sooo much fun! I’ve been waiting for this since Misty told us we were going to do sabre. So we had our morning practice and blah blah blah… The drum line keeps picking on me!!! DAMN YOU KEITH! Lol, started with Keith and then Andreas joined in and then now like all the guys in drumline who know me pick on me. It’s so sad, and yet so funny at the same time. Anyway, I had a Jamba Juice for lunch because Tiff’s mom was nice enough to drive me downtown. Something I’ve realized: Road Rage is an asian thing!!! Makes me glad to be half asian lol!!! Anyway, so we get to MV and finish up our make-up and then we go to this area to practice. But the first thing we did was play “Big Booty”!!! I’M IN LOOOOVE WITH THAT GAME!!! Then we all laid on each other’s stomachs and listened to our guard song, don’t remember the name though ^^ After that we stretched to “Center Stage” music and did across the floors and sabre stuff. Then we went out to the field and did the counting game (you sit in a circle and stare at an object and count one at a time, but you don’t know who’ll say the next number and if two people say it then you start over) and did some air flag with the “drum-guard”. We performed first and yeah, it was fun. If you didn’t know, it would look like I was captain because of my drill and the fact that I stand in the center of the warm-up circle and the fact that I was counting for some parts. Not to mention the Stained Glass exit. Anyway! So here’s my list of things I did wrong since it is homework (yes, the guard gets homework assignments other than “practice your flag”):

New Century Dawn:
1- I think, I caught my blade double too low on the blade and late, I’m not sure… I don’t remember, most of the show was muscle memory.
2- Could have made it the piccolo solo drill a little quicker so that threw me off for the solo, too much energy going into it.
3- The 12 count halt, personally, was more of swinging the sabre than doing the work.
4- Triple drill was changed and that didn’t really happen, plus turned to front a count late and caught my triple in an awkward position.
5- Tossed early before “Surprise”
6- Reverted to the old work for counts 4-8ish after the blade double to the back after the trumpet solo.
7- Rushed the ending counts.
Lento:
I thought Lento was really strong and I can’t think of anything I, or the guard as a whole, did wrong.
Stained Glass:
Heh, stepped off on the right foot leading them down and didn’t count them off that well ^^
Overall:
Performed a little, but not the entire show.

ANYWAY! So yeah, that was fun. Got a ride home from Chrissy since I didn’t want to wait for Bill to come. Um, then I dragged everyone to Marie Calendar’s because I’m in loooove with M.C. Anyway, our waiter was really cute and he kept eying me according to my mom. She wanted me to flirt with him and watch him get flustered. Sorry to tell you, but I didn’t. But he did get flustered, was very amusing and flattering. Then, since my mom is crazy like that, we went to the Coldstone that Adam works at. It was really busy so the babes got ice cream and then we went to the Starbucks to get coffee. We waved bye, but being me I hate not saying good-bye so I argued with my parents until they let me go in to say bye. Luckily, by this time it was empty except a couple and their daughter so I wasn’t distracting him. Funny, but there was this large group of people outside. I’m not supposed to know this, but when we went in the first time the two other people working went outside and got on the phone to call up their friends. I only know this because my mom was still outside, and so they called their friends and told them to get over there because I’m not made up. I’m so sure he’d make me up lol. That was funny. She came in and poked him and whispered stuff, and me being me, I got pissed but then she smiled at me and said, “I’ve heard a lot about you.” So I just smiled and was shocked, which was painfully obvious because then she added, “All good things!” Now I want to know, what does he say about me to his friends?! I could just ask him, but where’s the fun in that?

I just want to take this time to say...
that I loooooooooooooooove Degrassi and everything Canadian! I want me an ice cap! Oh crap... I sound like Stella and April, I can't stop! Shiet foo, I want me an ice cream cone. Get it 'fore the store clo-ses. Eat it 'fore it melts and you get sti-cky. Um, ew. LOL *contented sigh* their senior skit is going to hilarious. thanks for reading my random randomness ^^

*sigh* if only...
Today started out as a disaster but ended more perfectly than I could have ever imagined. So here’s the quick play by play. I woke up around 5:30ish because I left my health book in my locker and I didn’t read the chapters, so I was ready to leave around 6ish... almost. I couldn’t find my band shirt. Had my jazz pants but not my band shirt, even found my mom’s before I found mine… actually, never found mine. So I tucked in the sleeves and tied it in a knot in the back so it would fit better. Got a 37/39 (originally 40 but Paige curves) on our Ch. 1-4 Test, that was awesome esp. since I got a 20/20 on our lab ^^ YAY! Actually doing well this year. Health, not doing too good but I got a 20/20 on the Pop-Quiz on sex terminology ^.~ lol, jk but I did get 20/20. Chorale was boring, we had a theory quiz which was easy. Got a 10/11 on my Alg II quiz because I didn’t make my window big enough on my graphing calculator and failed to realize that the line was not symmetrical about the origin but still good. We watched a telenovela in Spanish, Jeff now sits next to me so I get the constant “You stalk Jeff”, “You like dog’s asses”, and “You like women” stuff from Keith and Jeff. Lol, for the record none of that is true. But it’s funny. Participated a lot in W.L.H.!! Molly, Claudia and I did this “dramatic read”. Claud C. was narrator, Molly was Tenorio and I was Ultima… funny, you just had to be there!!! Had guard stuff after school, messed up my triple and I was the only one who dropped so that was sad… esp. since it was like 10 yards away from me lol. Oh well, did the halt, jazz ran to my sabre, picked the mofo up and jazz ran backwards to my drill spot (while doing the work thank you very much). Heh, sad though… VERY embarrassing….

Got my progress report, very pleasing.
Girl’s 21- student is improving
Chem- student is doing excellent work, participates positively
Health- Performance is satisfactory, participates positively
Chorale- student is improving
Alg II- Performance is satisfactory
Spanish IV- Performance is satisfactory (but is says Karow?... My teacher is Potter? Should I be worried?.... CONFUSED!!!!!!! Better be her maiden name….)
World Lit. H- Student is doing excellent work
Concert Choir- (guess it, what else did Shaull say?) student is improving
Auxiliary Unit- student is doing excellent work

After the game we went to Sara’s house for the guard sleepover, I only stayed until 8ish though. We had Hanson’s, ate Doritos, had tons of pizza, fought over the See’s candy and watched a bunch of winter guard stuff. Not to mention the guard is hilarious. So mi novio (Adam, no not Garcia) came and picked me up, it was funny because he knocked and I knew it was him so I didn’t get up and Misty and Sara go to the door to answer it and I hear him intro himself. Then the rest of the guard RUNS over SCREAMING, and then I calmly get up. Very funny!

Anyway, had a great time with him. He met my parents, they drilled him, and he thinks they are awesome, my cat loves him! (extra brownie points there since she hates everyone other than me), and it was cute. We watched Office Space with my cat while my parents were in their room. It was cute, and there were lots of sweet little kisses here and there. But then 11 came by and it was time for him to go since I have guard in the morning so we had to go through the backyard since the sprinklers were on. So perfect! Movie perfect! We looked up at the sky, we could see a few stars and he pulled me close and kissed me, awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!! *sigh* Lots of kisses before he left since I’m a busy bee… *sigh* Did I mention my cat loves him?!

I love my drill!!!
OMG! I love the drill! We watched the overview and it’s sooo awesome! NOT TO MENTION I’M IN THE CENTER OF THE BLOCK AND THEN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DIAMOND SET AFTER THAT!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I LOVE YOU MR. FLORENDO!!! Had a good laugh because they put me down as an 11th grader by mistake, funny stuff. So here’s my drill just because, you don’t need marching band to see how easy it is.
Set # Right-Left Back-Front
0 2.0 stps inside L 30 12.0 stps inside front side line
1 4.0 stps outside L 40 12.0 stps inside front side line
2 on L 35 12.0 stps inside front side line
3 2.0 stps outside L 40 12.0 stps inside front side line
4 2.0 stps outside L 40 12.0 stps inside front side line
5 2.0 stps outside L 40 8.0 stps inside front side line
6 2.0 stps inside L 35 12.0 stps inside front side line
7 2.0 stps inside L 35 12.0 stps inside front side line
8 4.0 stps outside L 35 12.0 stps inside front side line
9 4.0 stps outside L 35 12.0 stps inside front side line