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| lisa3019 (profile) wrote, on 10-26-2004 at 10:12pm | |
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so.. i like my boyfriend's best friend, right? well... here's the story... I guess Cody would be considered my boyfriend, right? Because, although it's not official, we still are together, right?.. Well, he's not been the nicest person lately, and everyone, INCLUDING his friends, have seen it, and everyone is telling me that I need to find someone better for me, someone that will treat me right, and like I deserve to be treated. So.. I started liking Toby.. I mean, he's sooo nice. He's the nicest person I ever met, honestly. He always does nice things for me, and even if it fucks up the rotation, he always passes to me... haha... no serioulsy, he does. I love Cody. Everyone knows that. Everyone knows that I, Lisa Meehan, will forever and always be in love with Cody Nichols and there's nothing we, nor anyone else, can do about it. Lately.. liking Toby just makes more and more sense. Is that really that fucked up of me? I mean, to be liking my 2-year boyfriend's best friend? Does that make me a bitch? Even considering everything I've dealt with these past 2 years?? Just take a moment to reflect upon what fucked up things he has done to me... Before I made him realize that he loves me, he cheated on me with all kinds of nasty, nasty girls. We broke up and still talk, you know, there's me, thinkin' we're gonna go back out, and a good friend tells me he's fuckin' Albaugh's ex-girlfriend(ex-girl because Albaugh got locked up, not because they stopped liking eachother)... So uh yeah he spent, what? 3 months fucking with my head (that's my fault, i'm the dumbass there, though) with Laura, and even when he actually was dating her we were still having sex all the time. Then they break up and he goes out with one of my best friends.. which.. didn't really bother me all that much, because I loved her and I knew she would treat him right.(Although, his side of the story is that we started being friends when he started dating her, which completely isn't true at all.. even she can clarify that) They broke up and we went back out. He got sent away, I dated Cowen (you know the whoel story, it wasn't all that long ago when I explained the whoel thing to yins). We started datng again, this summer after Toby went out with Caitlin, Cody starts dating her. So.. is it really that bad? Crystal and Ludwick were the only people I told that I liked Toby. Then, today in school, Crystal comes up to me and she tells me that after they dropped me off last night, Toby told her that he likes me and he wants to go out with me, but doesn't know what Cody would do. So.. I was all, "aww", you know.. Because I really do liek Toby.. But I love Cody. And.. I've always kinda stuck with the whole, "if you got somethin' goin' good, don't ruin it for somethin' that might not work".. but.. right now, we're not doin' all that good, you know? Me and Cody fight everyday and he seriously has some anger problems. It was just today at lunch that we got in a fight because he said to me (about some girl that I said I liked), "yeah.. i'd fuck her." I told him, "I don't say things like that to you do I?!?!" and he said I do.. and then we started yelling, and I told him I didn't care if he said it anwyays, because it's not like he hasn't had sex with some nasty, dirty, fat, ugly, and beat girls. Which, of course, concluded him to tell me that I was beat. So, you know how it goes. It's cool, I don't have sex with him anwyays!!!... anymore. So after this, I wrote him a note like 6th period telling him that I like someone else.. even though I love him.. but I didn't want to tell him who. He knows, because he has suspected it before, and when I answered yes to both of his questions, "Is it someone I know?", and "Is it one of my friends?".. I'm pretty sure he figured it out. Especially because he only has like, so many friends it could be. Anyways... so.. eighth period.. Richie is like, "Did you break up with Cody?", and I was like, "I didn't even know we were going out, and if we were, I didn't break up with him, I wrote him a note saying I like someone else".. he knew it was Toby, because Crystal told him, and he mouthed it to me, and I was like "Yeah, I like toby, but I still love Cody" and then he was like, "Well, he wrote a note to Caitlin and asked her out".. so I was thinking, "okay great, Toby doesn't like me.. and he does like Caitlin, I knew it.." and I was all hurt-feelinged and stuff. So I wrote Toby a note and gave it to Crystal to give it to him, and I felt like I was in fourth grade, but it was weird, because I couldn't talk to Toby, and I haven't all day, but Crystal said Toby read my note on the bus and got sad, because he said "I made it sound like he doesn't like me, and he does like me a lot"... and I'm starting to like Toby a lot, because I have fun with him, and he is soooo ncie to me ALL the time, and he makes me laugh... But I don't know what to do!! I seriously need help. What do you think? And when Crystal asked him about the note to Caitlin, he was like, "NO!?", so I don't know. On the contrary, I had to work today. And tomorrow. Toby invited me to ride the bus home with them tomorrow, but I just found out today that I have to work. Some man at work, who's name I forget, like loves me, so today, he told me he was going to adopt me, and from now on, I must call him "pap".. so, that's what his name is now, "pap." Anyways, Cody called me while I was at work... or his mom did.. I don't know, it said I had a missed call from his house at 8:30, but when I called back at 9:30 and 10:30, there was no answer, so I dunno. On the phone after school today, he kept trying to get me to tell him who I liked.. but I wouldn't, because I felt weird.. and he's trying to make me feel weird, because I know he knows. And.. I thought Richie was talking about Toby when he said "he wrote a note to Caitlin asking her out," but then I thought about it, and he could've meant Cody.. as in, Cody told him we broke up today, so he wrote her a note and asked her out. And I was real mad, so I asked Cody and he said he definitely didn't.. so.. I don't know what Richie was talking about now, I'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out... Did Caitlin receive a note asking her out? And if she did, was the note from Cody, or was the note from Toby??? We'll find out tomorrow, on the next update of woohu.com. |
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xxinterrupted | 10-26-04 11:28pm i read over that entry about 2 times. *sigh* do whatever makes you happy. because in the end; that's all that matters.
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| lisa3019 | Re:, 10-28-04 9:16am thanks for that comment jena.. this is really hard for me to decide |