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| xxinterrupted (profile) wrote, on 1-14-2005 at 12:13pm | |
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| I stayed home today.. I tried and tried to get my mom up, but she wouldn't wake. And Gab was crying/hungry when I left, so I just stayed home. Then my mom came in at about 10:00 yelling at me because I stayed home and how she's gonna go to jail because I'm missing to many days and how the reason she didn't wake up is because the monitor in her room isn't on.. so I told her that I tried to wake her up and the monitor in her room WAS on, but I turned it off when I stayed home because I figured she didn't need to be bothered if I was going to be home. So she didn't believe me and got mad then stormed into her room bitching about how messy the house is. So I waited a couple minutes then I got something I wanted to show her and knocked on her door to let her see.. she read it, then she started saying something to me, I don't really even remember what it was exactly; but it made me mad.. then she was going on about how she's not apperciated and that how she takes "YOUR BABY TO THE BAR EVERYDAY, WHILE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING.. I CARRY HER ON MY HIP WHILE I'M BAR TENDING, WAITRESSING, AND DOING WHATEVER ELSE NEEDS DONE." ..That really pissed me off right there, so I said "Fine, then I'll just stay home and watch MY baby." "And what; drop out of school? I don't think so." I told her that I'll just have Tammy watch Gabrielle like she was supposed to in the first place, that I'd rather have Tammy watch Gabrielle than her because at least I won't hear her bitching all the time about it. She started saying something else but I was walking out and didn't really pay any attention.. but I heard "I'm just tired of not being apperciated" as I walked through the door.. I turned around and said "So am I." and I slammed her door. After that I went into my room and called Jim, I asked him if he could come get me.. he told me to call him back in about 5 minutes.. so I got all of Gabrielles &mines things ready so I would be ready to leave when he got here. But my mom tried to come in, I had my door locked &I wouldn't let her in. But I did finially did. She was saying how she did apperciate me, and all this other shit that I didn't even pay attention to. She said something about how she knows that I want to leave now and that all I have is about a year left then I can move out.. but how she doesn't want to loose me. She also said that she didn't know how I was going to move out if I planned on going to collegge with a baby.. But after a few minutes of me just sitting there and her talking she left. I called Jim back and he said that he can get me a ride.. but I said that I couldn't go because I had to watch my sisters. I guess I'm kinda stupid because I just can't ever leave my sisters, no matter what I want to do, I always think of them before I think of myself, same with Gabrielle. <3 So my mom &George left to go to the bar; Dustin's sleeping in my moms' bed, Gabrielle's sleeping on my bed, and I'm just sitting here; trying to make myself feel better for everything that's going on. But it's not working. |
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paperheart | 01-14-05 3:22pm -hugs- I love you. <3 |
| Anonymous | 01-14-05 8:18pm try to feel better
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| Anonymous | 01-15-05 9:06am love ya! hang in there! *smooches* -Aim |
lisa3019 | 01-15-05 6:37pm aww feel better jena. <3 |