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| pointlessforever (profile) wrote, on 2-1-2005 at 8:30pm | |
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| I'll calm down, I'm calm now. I am in such a good mood right now for no reason at all. I'm going to be driving soon. Driving! The one thing I have dreaded for my entire life is the sole thing I want to do right now. No, a baby would be cool too. We're almost done with high school! Finally! Four years too many. I hate high school. I really can't wait until we're out of here. And we almost are. A job! I want a job! I want to be an adult. I want to get a job, move out, get married, start a family. First step: driving. After, or even before, that a job. At this point I don't even care if I get a job at Barnes for goodness sake. I just need a job. I want a job. And I want a baby. You have no idea how much I want a baby. I was talking to Josh today. It was awesome. It's like I finally had an older brother to talk to about everything. Everything. It would have been awesome if I had gotten to grow up with him. All I have is Hannah and she gets uncomfortable when I talk about Nick. Buddy shies away from us kissing. Time makes feelings fade. Except not. I am in love with life. I am in love with love. I am in love with hate. I am in love. I was jokingly upset at Katie since she won't be joining us on Friday but really, I hope she and Joe hook up. Ha! That'd be awesome. Don't be afraid. Don't stress out. Don't mind the dark. Just close your eyes. Don't be afraid. With your eyes closed, close your eyes. And for goodness sake, dream! Hope! Hey, Katie, I love you. Yeah, you. You are the bestest bestest best fren ever. I know we haven't been that close lately but I am trying my hardest to change that. Your dad having surgery was a major push. I hoped I helped even a little. I love you, mon petit chou. You are so incredibly awesome, never forget it and don't let anyone make you think otherwise. Smile, I love you. Have fun. Be happy. I am seriously very happy right now. I could die tonight and really, I'd be perfectly satisfied. As long as I showered first. And talked to Nick once he got out of work. And wasn't naked. I love you. Thanks, Josh. For talking to me and all. Thanks, Nick. Thanks for stopping by last night. Thanks for tucking me in. Thanks for cheering me up, for reassuring me. Thanks especially for loving me. Katie. Thank you for putting up with all my shit. You are so the best. |
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734R5-0F-8L00D | 02-01-05 8:44pm |
734R5-0F-8L00D | Re:, 02-01-05 8:52pm Hi, I'm a dumbass and accidently clicked enter after typing in my password. Me=key clicky happy
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