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| freaky (profile) wrote, on 3-26-2005 at 9:15pm | |
| Sitting here with a towel around my waist thinking if life is really worth living. Everyone abandons me eventually and new people will become harder to find... all I need is her but she too will eventually leave me. Its a fact. I can't take anything anymore, she said forget about it.... I went running. I know there is something inside my head, it won't go out of me cause it likes to hear that I go insane. Everything about life becomes clear when you grow up. Believe me its something you dont want to be cleared out. Be happy while your a kid cause thats the only life you'll get. The rest is hell and you have died inside. Your body remains. An ugly slowly rotting body.... Should I just kill myself. The only thing I have to do is cut my wrists... it would hurt for a second but I dont think the pain would last very long. I dont know if I can stand to see the cuts though. My mom is used to it, her father killed herself aswell. I will see Gaby again cause when I kill myself, so will she... at least thats what I think but maybe she wont... It would suck if I go to hell... I'd still have a shit time then. I dont know. Im just really tired of everything that comes at me. And anything I do doesnt make it right cause it can never be right and I am responsible for that. I am. Cause I know I should be changing everything to be good and I just can't. I am a failure, a loser, a nothing, a nerd, a geek who cant do anything right. And dont give me your goddamned pity bout what you think of this. I hate you all. All my so called friends. Fuck you all. 11:07 PM I'm sorry for what I said...I've thought bout things.... I'm sorry eventhough I know its gonna come back sometime... |
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| Anonymous | 03-28-05 7:23pm you isolate urself..u hurt me so much...
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Anonymous | Re:, 03-29-05 10:30am y does it hurt u "sooo much" just cos he isloates himself ?? |
freaky | 03-30-05 3:09pm Be in my place, be where I have been and Ill talk to you again. |