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| toki (profile) wrote, on 4-8-2005 at 9:02am | |
| Current mood: angry |
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| I’m kind of angry right now. Actually, I’m really angry right now. I don’t know entirely why, but I know a lot of it. And again it’s one of those things that I can’t really share. People disappoint me. Well, not me directly. But their actions indirectly make me angry. That doesn’t make any sense at all, but being vague is good. I don’t tell people things anymore if they’re meant to be kept secret. I’ve matured. Not that anyone has noticed. I’ve been accused/assumed that I tell people everything at least 10 times this month. Not to sound egotistical or self centered, but I have my own life. I have enough going on that I don’t need to constantly gossip. Yes, I know that I do tell people things. Small things. Never anything detrimental though. Things like him and her are going out and they broke up today or what not. Are we still that immature that we can’t deal with people knowing that we have crushes on people or who we’re going out with? I don’t know. This is sounding mean. Ostracized. That’s how I feel. No need to explain why. I’m always against the stream. Not that it’s bad, but it gets lonely. I need a good…something…session. Jackie’s having a bonfire tonight, but I’m working. Isn’t that how it always is? Nothing happens until I’m working or busy. Once again…I’m alone. Because even if you say it’s nothing, stuff happens when everyone gets together like that. Memories are made that people who aren’t there can never comprehend. And it’s sad. I’m leaving in four months and when I leave, what memories will I have? It’s scary. I'll be disappearing again. I like disappearing. People never notice anyways. Why put any effort to be visible? If I were a superhero...I'd be invisible and be able to fly. That way I'd disppear and fly away, and it'd be nothing. I could go anywhere I wanted. I could get away whenever I wanted. I need to be able to drive. I can't stay here anymore. |
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mudpiegrl | 04-10-05 3:30am am sorry patrice.
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