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| breezeyluvsu (profile) wrote, on 4-19-2005 at 1:46pm | |
| Last night, was probably the worst. Ever. I really am not starting to understand why im so blessed. Why I have a mom who would give ANYTHING in the world to make me happy, and a dad (who is a jerk) but still loves me with all he is. Even if its not very much. Why im not living in africa in a dumpster or ...even worse nothing. Why i have a decent amount of clothing to change into ever day and clean water to bathe myself. And a boyfriend..who is great. Sometimes i just dont feel important anymore. I dont feel important around my family, my friends, and even dan. Pretty pathetic huh? Its just...its all very complicated. And sometimes the one person who can make me smile...cant do it. Thats when i know somethings wrong. I dont quite know WHAT it may be, but there is indeed something wrong with me. Could it be that my self esteem is very, very low? or is it that im just not a "perfect person" in any way shape or form???Im such a drama queen. Anyways..how do you know if someone is getting bored of you? I think about it all the time. ALL THE TIME. and... i really get nervous. Dan...i honeslty think he could do so much better than me and I guess i just dont understand why hes not chosing to do so. Some help in this area would be swell. Oh yeah i have a job. Im a telemarketer. but dont worry i cant call anyone in michigan. Im assigned to california. 8.50 an hour...yay. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ SAMANTHA GOULD YOU ARE GORGEOUS AND DONT LET ANYONE EVER, EVER TELL YOU OTHERWISE!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ just so thats out of the air: Jenna, I know you dont like people prying but im just telling you im ALWAYS here. No matter how little the situation may be. Or no matter what time it is, im always a phone call away. Im always here to help. Its so weird. because i know at first we didnt "kick it off" on the right foot, im not sure why but there was just soemthing wrong the first time we tried talking like this, but now i couldnt be more thankful. You help me ( my little internet pal) in more ways then alot of people cant. Im telling you right here, right now just how important you are to me and i hope its always like this cos now i cant imagine life without ya. I love u Jenna!! Wow. that was alot of confessing. what else to say. Ah yes. Jorda- Me and you, you and me. We've lived life. Yes indeed. We might not show it as much as we used to, however i still love you more then you'll ever know. Ashely, i think the statement above applies to you too. Your..Your just great. We have so much to catch up on and i cant wait until we do. Love you. THis is turning into a memorial for all of my friends and my new friends. Fantastic. To all of my newest friends, Samantha, Ally, and EVERYONE ELSE ( sorry im in tears right now) cant really think ....i love you all and im always here to help. ALL MY LOVE, Brianna |
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swimfan14 | 04-19-05 3:27pm Thanks. I miss talking to you and we should catch up sometime.
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jennapie | 04-19-05 10:07pm BRIANNNNNNAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I love you too sweetie pie!!! You just made my night, I know I'm not always the most open person, but I do try, I don't know...it's just that if I tried to explain, I would just confuse myself. I know that your always there and I'm so grateful that you are, because seriously....I don't know who else would have told me what to do about the stalker situation!! haahah! No but for real, love you darlin, and I think we do need to get closer so we can talk about anything and everything. Honestly, at the beginning, I must be honest and confess....it was a little situation invovling Dan, but now, I think that you are just the sweetest person ever, and I don't know what I would do with out MY internet pal! lol...for real, I'm so glad and realieved with the strides that we have made, even tho we barely talk at school! :( We'll have to change that...but anyways...back to the Dan thing.....I am SO happy for you, dating is called dating because that is exactly what you are supposed to do, and just because it didn't work out with him and me, I'm so glad that it is working out with you and him, not only because you guys make an extremely cute couple, but because once you find someone that you love as much as you love him, and he loves you back just as much or more, you can't let that go, and for the world I wouldn't EVER want to get in the way of that. I'm so happy that things worked out the way that they did. I mean for real, the saying that's like..."everything happens for a reason" is SO completely true, this all happened and everything is ending up exactly as it should be. I'm so happy for you!
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