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| wiredshut (profile) wrote, on 4-27-2005 at 5:43pm | |
| Current mood: up and down Music: AFI Subject: meeeeee!! (again!) |
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| sorry- if you bore easily then you might just wanna go away now! this is just gonna be a long babble about me!!! i've been feeling so up and down recently! god one minute im so hyper and the next i just feel so down- it really annoying and to be honest really very confusing. i to think of next year- one good point- less work! but then theres all of the bad points- im getting even older! i wish that i could remain the same age forever- about 8. not coz i was the best year of my life of anything but i just want to be a little girl again. also (i know its shallow but i was really popular!!!). now i am now longer poplular and the things that i have to worry about- however trivial- always seems to be expanding. i think that the worst thing about next year though, is going to be all my friends leaving me behind at scholl. ok so not all of them but the main ones that i really care for are and my biggest worry is that we'll lose touch forever. i dont think i could go on if we did. had a really wierd day today. catherine came up to the art room and apologised! random as that! after two years! this in itself is wierd but then she hangs out with me for the rest of lunch and i introduce her to rach which is also another ultra wierd factor! cath was always the one who led me astray in those day. she was the one that i followed around and admired (why i don't know) and so it was like a compition between us over who could be the bigger slut basically. it was her who introduced me to Greg (the guy i lost my virginity to) and it was a compition over who would lose there virginity first. speaking about it i feel so ashamed but we all do things that we regret right? anyway, we were both in no doubt that it would be cath who had been dating her b/ friend for over a year. but it was me. who had knonwn this guy for a fewweeks and had only ever met him a couple of times. i hate myself for it but its done now so what can i do? now it turns out hes gay.... what does that do to a persons self confidence when you look like i do anyway... v. masculine. i feel like drowning myself in the bath. but of course i won't.... would never dare. | |
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| Anonymous | 04-27-05 5:05pm people only lose touch if you let them.
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wiredshut | Re:, 04-28-05 8:35am i won't |