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| Shoe23 (profile) wrote, on 5-13-2005 at 1:00pm | |
| The day has come. Today is a day I never thought I'd make it too. Now that I have I can finally say that I'm glad to be here. So many things about today send mixed emotions through my head over and over again. I can't exactly pin myself down to feeling one, two.. even three emotions. It's time for everything to change.. time for me to not just depend on everyone else for back-up, but depend on myself. I've never been a believer in myself.. it's going to be a task. I'm sad that the fun is over and that my friends and I will all go seperate ways and each find success in different parts of the state, country, maybe the world. I'll miss the days when you have that feeling that everyone is actually in a good mood and getting food thrown at me daily. I'll miss the security and simplicity. I'll miss my mom and the way she never knows but always seems to understand and work a way around things so they work. It sickens me that she'll be left alone here with my father. I've always been her responsibility.. it was always her job to take care of me, but that was also my job to keep her safe and sane. I'm not sure if I'll miss having to guard her with my life but, I'll miss those times when it brought us closer because we successfully made it through another night without any injuries. I'm happy that I get to finally prove what I can do. I'm also happy that I and everyone in my class, though deemed as "underachievers", has had a successful year and are planning to continue education, and I pray you all succeed. I'm lucky to have so many friends and special hearts in my life. Most can never say they've had a true friend, I guess that qualifies me as lucky and blessed. This year has been the last time for many things.. too many things. I love all of you with all of my heart that's ever helped me out with my issues, from a hug when I looked down, a talk about what happened the night before, even introducing a way to look at things as if they would really be okay in the end. I look back and sometime I really didn't show or tell any of you how much it meant for that one simple hug, or talk.. to me, those were both the biggest feelings of security I could've asked for. I missed a lot but I couldn't have asked for a better senior year. I'll remember this year forever. I thank you all for the memories, moments, and motivation. I'm truly blessed to know you all. Without every single one of you I wouldn't be the person I am today. |
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chalupaguadalahara | 05-13-05 11:56pm Now who's crying eh?
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