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| Namu (profile) wrote, on 6-6-2005 at 9:36pm | |
| Today was my last full day of highschool. I can't believe it's all over. I feel like asking, "that's it?" I'm going to miss everything here. I thanked my teachers today for doing their job. I really do respect them. I hate not being as powerful as I could be. There are those out there who are so much able than me. I just want to be able to have every ability I could dream of at my fingertips. I figure if you could train your heart out on one skill a day, and then rest the next day, then your ability list would go through the roof, right? I wish I had time to do that. Amelia and I talked today. She isn't too happy with her results yet. I hate constructive criticism. She works really, really hard, and she isn't getting where she wants to be fast enough. I wish I could give her a hyperactive thyriod gland like mine. She deserves it. I've been wondering. What is "deserve"? The dictionary says to have a right to, or be worthy of. Does this mean that you have to have enough worth as a person in order to be worthy enough to be taken by another? It's all too confusing. I don't believe that we "deserve" eachother. We just have eachother and that is the way it is. I guess I have to go out on my own soon and face the world alone. I'm going to the middle of nowhere in "to hell and gone". How will I learn to become and adult out there? All I really know is that I don't want to go. Anytime I think about it I want to cry. I don't understand school. Congratulations! You passed highschool! Let's go to an even bigger, more expensive, and harder place, while ripping everything you've come to know and love from your fingertips. I am really close to crying now, just thinking about that which I have come to know and love. What do I do? I'm so confused. I want an alternate universe. "Why do you like my butt?" |
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mysin | 06-07-05 1:30am No alternate universe. Just the cold smack of reality. |
| Anonymous | nk, 06-07-05 8:35pm genki.hat.luv@gmail.com
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godessalthena | 06-07-05 10:14pm Follow your heart. |