08-08-05 8:54pm

Hey, I know you don't know me... but my name is Patrick (I'm one of Lauren H.'s friends). I don't mean to pry into your personal life so I'm going to make this brief:
If there is anything, anything at all, that I can help you with... like to talk or to help get emotions out or anything there of, I would like to help. I know where you are, and frankly, I know where you are headed... and, to be blunt, I know you don't want to be here on this path of suffering, blood, darkness, cold; complete and utter depression in it's raw form. I don't intend on leaving you behind in this walk to the end of our lives. I don't intend on letting you suffer and I just want to try and help you become better than this, if you allow me.

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Re:, 08-09-05 8:02am

Right...you know, that's the most scary fucking thing I ever heard o.O Of course it will make you feel good to help (use) people. You don't know what I need that can help me, and even if you did know there is nothing you can do to give it to me. Your as powerless as I am. Talking does not help. You have no idea where I am headed. Thank you for calling me the same as every other fuck you so called "helped". THANKS! (Hence the sarcasm dickhead)

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Re: Re:, 08-09-05 3:12pm

I know I don't know what you need but I would like to know... and no, it wont just make me feel good to help you, it will make you feel good, along with other people around you. My happyness is only a plus.
Talking helps more than you can possibly realize, and yes... I have a damn good idea on where you are headed:
You cut for a time and it feels pretty damn good. You do drugs thinking it will do a better job than cutting did and it does, in a sense. You fall away from your friends and become alone, an addict to drugs and cutting, and feeling like shit, wishing something would come around that would help you out of this hell you have somehow fallen in. All the while you curse at God, feeling that he has abandaned you and left you for dead so you never repent and convert to Christianity (nor any other religion for that matter). Eventually you find some chick that you think you love and eventually she fucks you over and you sink deeper into this circle of depression that you have made for yourself and you die and go to Hell for the rest of eternity and then you realize that what you went through on Earth was pretty damn happy compared to what you are about to go through here with Lusifer.
Tell me if I got anything wrong what-so-ever.

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Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 3:19pm

Oh, forgot about something:
You either attempt suicide a few times in your life or a whole lot of times... and that's possibly the way you, unfortunatly (fortunatly in your mind), enter Hell.

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Re: Re:, 08-09-05 7:00pm

I don't want/mean to be hostile or egotistic... I just want to help any way I can because... no one else is going to in this world. If you don't want my help then I'm off your back. If you ever do I'm here. You don't have to say anymore than you want my help or not. I may not be able to... but it's worth as shot... right?

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Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 8:11pm

Never did drugs, cut myself a few times but those were more scars then cuts. Got no friends, dont need em, to much trouble. They forget bout me anyway. God...well...I believe in him and satan but worship neither. I don't bow to "gods" that want people to pay with their lives just so they can have a place in heaven. Mercyfull God my ass. I have a girl I love very much. No I dont think I love her, I know I love her. Don't even start about it, its way above you. If hell is where I go then hell is were ill go... I never did much wrong, but aparently GOD...doesnt think the same... in that case... I will burn in hell and everytime the pain will feel like its the first time I feel pain... surely it will be more unpleasant then the life I got now... but i am who I am and i will change for no one, this is how god made me, he made the world and it made me to who I am...this is what he wanted me to be....and this is what he gets.....


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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 8:11pm

I never attempted to kill myself, only thought bout it.

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Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 8:14pm

Tell me something I dont know, of course no one is gonna help but its not cause they dont wanna....if they did want to....its impossible to help me. You cannot take something away from what I am... The only girl who can help me is her, can you give me her??? She lives far away from where I am and we cannot be together for so long. There is so much you dont know.
I do not want your help. Go sit with the others who tried....


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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 8:19pm

If you don't mind me asking... I don't want to run up room on your comment space. If you have an AIM screen name I would like to talk with you. As I said before.. I probably can't help... but at least it's worth a try.

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 8:58pm

Yet one thing I will say is that I will stop the day you say that you absolutly do not want my help... just saying you don't think I can help makes me try that much harder. And actually 13 people said the exact same thing... that I couldn't help (in one night). That same night... I helped all 13 people not commit suicide over AIM and one over the phone. They all thought I couldn't help at all and they were wrong. Yeah, a lot of people have tried to help you... but I'm not like them. (I hate to blow my own horn but) I am more than what they were. That's why I believe that I can help you. That's why I believe I can pick up where they failed. At least give me a chance to do what I feel I need to do (and that's to help you no matter what).

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 9:34pm

I....do NOT...want your help....at all. EVER.
Im glad those 13 attention seeking people liked your attention but I do not need it.

I absolutely do not want your help.

To me your nothing better the anyone who has come to pass. Yet another nuisance, you think to great of yourself. Vanity, pride..I suppose. If it's one thing I hate then it's complimentary about yourself. 13 people you helped, 13 people you lied to. This is over. Keep walking your path and stop looking back.



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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-09-05 9:36pm

A try is like giving someone false hope, they think they will be better but fall down again. Is that what you wanna give someone....a try?

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