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freaky (profile) wrote,
on 8-10-2005 at 2:22am
Living in a enviroment where I could be happy. To have a meaning to live? Maybe. Arn't people who can be happy simple minded and can't see the greater part of the world? Look around you. The world is not a happy place. Do you really think people die everyday so you can be happy? I read somethings bout people who have "seen the light". I'd say it's a delusional escape to the reality of real life. Why does someone think they can help me? Talking does not help, I;ve tried it. Well it doesn't help if it's with the wrong person. And in my opinion everyone is the wrong person except Gaby. From some people I am amazed they dare to take her name in their mouth. She is the only who can save me. So don't even think....don't even let it cross your mind that you can help me, you will never be good enough for it. Your are way below her, she is a human better then anyone of you. Maybe not perfect but damn near close to it.

Can I say my life is depressing at the moment? I don't know. Can I say that I'd wish something would change? Yeah probably. Changes take away the old things making it more exciting to move on in your life. But even after a while that will become old and you will get stuck in the same hole again. I'm glad with the way I am. Probably slighltly insane, depressed, angry, sad. But what does it matter. Eventually everyone will get at a point where their life will be like that. Why is it seen as bad. There is so much creativity in all those "negative" emotions. I love the music I like cause of it. Basicly making me who I am and who I want to be. It could be nice to be like me, but the ones who are trying to change me are the ones making it bad, making it wrong, making it not good for me. Do not think it's bad. If you didn't have anyone to help in this world... what would your life look like? Miserable right? No one to help. No one who could make you feel better cause you helped them. Look at it from this point, you are not helping them, they are helping you making you feel good bout yourself. And they are the ones who pay the ultimate price.
Me....hehe...see me as non-existend. I don't help any of those people who want to feel good bout themselves by helping others. I don't do anytthing but watch....
You know who else watches...God and Satan, they are enjoying the show. Make sure you put on your smiley face.
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shroudofrain

08-09-05 9:45pm

You know... it's one thing saying that you do not want my help... but to say that I am vanitistic and full of pride is a misconception on your part. I told you what I told you in hopes to justify myself in a way to have you realize that I can help. I am going to leave you with this:
You have never known Hell the way I have. You have never been there, I have. If you think that you are suppose to go there than you are sourly mistaken. God doesn't want you go to to Hell, he doesn't desten you to it, he doesn't want to watch you burn forever. YOU choose to put YOURSELF in there, not Him. He wants you to live with him. I can't make you do anything but I beg you, don't think you can handle it or that you are destined to it. There is a chance you have to save yourself from an eternity of suffering. Your sufferings and depression and what not is "happy" compared to what Hell is. Don't give Lusifer the chance to have you. He hasn't gotten you yet, don't let him win.

Oh, and by the way... being a dick isn't going to send me away that easy. I won't try to help you, but I will give you my oppinion.

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freaky

Re:, 08-10-05 7:59am

I might be a complete asshole, yeah some people just arnt the nice kind of people. But since when did that make a difference in this world. Seriously I'd rather go to heaven then to hell. Just because I am who I am he won't let me into heaven? What have I done wrong anyway. And who are you to tell me what he thinks is right and wrong. I wanna hear himself tell me that. Not by writtings, not by some messenger but by his voice alone. I help the people that I can, not for my own good cause I'm going to hell anyway, but cause it will maybe give them a better life. This life. We got no choice and were we go after death. It was already determined when we were born in our material bodies.

I think your just trying to buy your way into heaven.

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shroudofrain

Re: Re:, 08-10-05 8:13am

Since the fact that it's common curticy to be nice and it's a better way to life to always try to be nice. It makes people feel more comfortable and safe.

No, it's not that he wont let you in because you are who you are... it's because you don't believe that Jesus died on the cross to save you, that you don't repent your sins, and the fact that you don't worship Him himself. It has nothing to do with your own volitial natures or what have you... it's all whether you take in and except what he has done for you and what he asks of you.

I tell you what he thinks is right and wrong because I have talked to him and I have asked him that exact question, "What is right and wrong in your mind?" and plus he says what is right in wrong to him in the bible. Yes, it's written by people but God possesed their hands to write exactly what he wanted.
If you believe in him... if you believe in Christ... he will tell you himself. Until then, He isn't going to do anything you ask because you haven't done anything that he has asked of you. He gave up so much for you... and all that he asks of you is that you mearly believe what he tells you. If you can't do that then you are truly selfish.

That's good that you help the people you can. It's great the you want to give them a better life... but in doing this, who helps you with your problems? Who is there to help you up when you fall?

Yes, we have a choice where we go after death... it's just that God already knows what choice we are going to make. Yet we still have a choice; he gives us that choice in hopes that if we make the one that he doesn't like... that we may prove him wrong.

Why would I try to be buying my way into Heaven, when I already have acceptance into it after death in the first place? What I am doing (helping people) is mearly completing what God told me to do. He asked for me to help people; to be a "Mortal guardian angel unto his creation." I am only doing what he asked me to do.

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shroudofrain

Re: Re: Re:, 08-10-05 8:20am

Which is much more than you have ever done for Him.*

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freaky

Re: Re: Re:, 08-10-05 10:43am

I have never asked him to do anything for me. I didn't ask him to die for me on that cross. I wasn't even born then. I'd hang on that cross myself if I had to. He didn't even had to do that. But he still did. Where is his faith in humans anyway. I thought he liked them so much. In my eyes your pretty much insane to believe God would choose YOU...to do anything for him. Seriously. Your nothing more then another human being who thought when he first helped someone he could make a difference in the world and started to get obsessed with it. Eventually giving himself the name of "guardian angel"? Get a grip on reality. Instead of trying to help me, help some people who are starving from hunger.

I'm glad you have a very nice life. But do not bother me with it. I'm fine the way I am.


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shroudofrain

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-10-05 4:56pm

You didn't have to ask him to die on the cross for you. He did it out of his own free will because if he didn't then life would be even more miserable than you can imagen, and don't start to think that you would go through everything that Jesus went through to get to the cross. I suggest watching The Passion of The Christ. That will make you understand exactly what he went through and paint a completely different picture of what happened. If you already have then you can you say that you would do that? Through all the pain and suffering you would have to go through, and sense the fact that you are human, I would be my life on the fact that you would call God to send down his angels to take you off the cross, or even to help you before then.

How insane is it to believe that he would choose me to do something he wants to be done? He chose the 12 deciples to spread his word and die for the fact that Jesus is God (Which all of them did by the way), He chose Moses to lead the Jews out of Egypt, He chose St. John to write Revelations and showed him everything that would happen... what makes me any different from them, they were humans as well (last time I checked).
And it wasn't the first time that I helped someone that I felt I could change the world... it was when I attempted/commited suicide that God spoke to me and told me to do it... so, I did. I gave my life to Christ, and I decided to do what God instructed me to do by His own voice. I am mearly doing my job. Plus, I don't think I can make a difference in the world.... but I think I can make a difference in peoples lives for the better, and I didn't name myself "Mortal guardian angel", He did. I have a grip on reality, a firm grip.

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freaky

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-10-05 5:35pm

Can we cut the religion crap? I watched Passion of the christ, I even cryed when I saw it. Still I would do that. Why whouldn't I? At least life would have a meaning then. If he talked to you then why didn't he talk to me? Am I not good enough in his eyes.

I've heard enough. I'll have to block you. Help someone else then me, I'm a lost cause anyway.

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