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Tails (profile) wrote,
on 8-15-2005 at 1:15am
I'll try my hardest not to die alone. thats the only thing i think i really can promise anyone anymore. i cant even trust my own....wait now.....i .....i cant trust anyone but 3 friends. and i cant trust any members of my family. at all not one damn family member at all.i feel sick to my stomach all the time. ive been throwing up for the past 5 days. and i dont feel like i have a cold i just get sick to my stomach constantly. and i cant sleep. ever. i worked a ten hour day today...and i didnt care. i had no where to go. i didnt want to go home so i stayed an extra 3 hours and helped to close tonight...i just cant call this place home.its not home when you feel nervous just being home. thats my problem. i just feel nervous being here. isnt that stupid as fuck? as soon as i come home i feel nervous. i think its cause of my fucking father....and my brother. my brother worships that peice of shit called my dad. he fucking defends him everytime i am mean right back. and my brother called me liberal. and i am i suppose but he couldnt even tell me the deffiniton of what he called me....hes a fuck tart. they both are. god damnit i just need to pick the right day to leave. im stahling.....and i dont know why. i mean i can just go...just fucking go....and im waiting. waiting around for something...i dont know what. fucking help me.
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tare

08-15-05 10:11am

matty you can do it. i believe in you darling and you already know how i feel about the situation, you know you can do it. i love you!

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anachronism

08-15-05 4:41pm

I'd comment more, but I'm trying not to read your comments lately. I hate seeing her name that seems to be ever so popular latey, if you get what I mean.

Anyway, I think you should do what's best for you. Take a chance. Let it be scary. It should be. I think you need to get out. Just get out and don't look back. Staying here is the biggest mistake a person can make. Leave.

And you won't die alone. You will find someone. You're only 18. I know this coming from me can't mean a lot, but the older you get the smarter it is. These young, little, bullshit relationships don't show much. The serious ones will mean a whole different thing, not what they mean these days.. not just sex and cheating, but love and committment.

You'd much rather expierence the good, trust me and waiting will help prevent the bad.

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windedhero

ugh, 08-15-05 11:24pm

Hang out over here you dick :P

much love

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BigBen61

08-15-05 11:42pm

I told you that you could hang out here man

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starlesseyesremain

08-16-05 12:56am

i played sonic the other day and thought of you, so you should feel special :) we should hang out some time
much love to the wetzel
-taryn

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mochababy49319

08-16-05 8:02am

just be like my step brother. walk right out the door and care. that's the only thing I've got.

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anachronism

08-16-05 5:54pm

I ALWAYS HAVE TIME.. naggar

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