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spud (profile) wrote,
on 10-9-2005 at 11:12pm
Current mood: liebevoll...
Music: heart - dog and butterfly
Subject: and just like that. life is good.

i was really afraid that i'd never be able to listen to heart again without crying.

and honestly, i'm still very close to tears. but that's okay.

i'm just tired of being a screw-up. and asking everyone else to just tolerate me. and they do it. maybe out of pity? nay (yeah, i said "nay". deal with it), out of love; unjustified, though that love may be.

and rachel's cool. she seemed really happy for me. i just hope she can find someone. or at least find peace with being single.

i'm still dirty though. i'll take a shower in the morning. at least 2 of my worlds are meshing. it's a start.
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Tails

10-10-05 3:45am

someone fill me in on what happend with jackie and rach...i read all your posts everytime you make them and i missed something huge it looks like.

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spud

Re:, 10-10-05 10:14am

there are two rachels. belding rachel, and dorm rachel.

i did some pretty stupid stuff with dorm rachel, which led to a big bit of turmoil with jackie and i. now that the dust has settled, i'm still with jackie, though i don't deserve it. dorm rachel and i agree that the isolated incident was a mistake, and are simply friends.

belding rachel, i just wanted to hang out with her. we don't get to do that very often, and she's cool just to hang out with.

so, there you have it.

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rayray

Re: Re:, 10-10-05 5:05pm

I am sorry that I didnt get your comment about lunch today. I haven't been online in a few days. And I didn't get online when I got home from work this morning because I was actually tired for once. So I am truly sorry. The next time you're going to be in town, call me. That may be more productive.

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spud

Re: Re: Re:, 10-10-05 10:07pm

oh, no biggie. i thought about calling... it was like 3 or so. but i was kinda hot to get working on the car and stuff, and i didn't want to be in a hurry. because it's never any fun to be with someone who's antsy to be somewhere else.

we'll get there. and i'll certainly be around.

i hear the bostwick lake bakery calling my name... and grattan raceway...

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sugarjackj

10-10-05 4:56pm

Hopefully you wont be dirty for long,

:o)

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spud

Re:, 10-10-05 10:10pm

i shouldn't think so.

a little lysol. a little comet.

i come pre-equipped with brillo pad and barkeeper's friend.

brasso?

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